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  • 07/22/2013
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Stories posted in this category are works of fiction. Names, places, characters, events, and incidents are created by the authors' imaginations or are used fictitiously. Any resemblances to actual persons (living or dead), organizations, companies, events, or locales are entirely coincidental.
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My Collection - 1. Make it last forever

I think I fell in love with a cloud. It was not love at first sight, not at all, and I don't think It's loving me back, but my love towards It is so strong, emotional. I should decide if It's a She or a He, but It's not telling me, the cloud refuses to talk to me. Sometimes it hurts but I'm getting used to it as the time is passing by, without leaving a single mark on us.
"Are we skipping today?" Dylan is stepping next to me. His dreamy, blue eyes wide open, his pale skin almost shining bright in the dark corridor. It's unusual, Dylan is not someone who is getting overly excited about anything. He's the type of guy who is living in a bubble, he barely has any memories, any interest to the outside world. As he's touching things it looks like he's not even sure if he is really doing it, he questions his own existence over and over again. Seeing him almost excited, with less fog in his vision is something strange, but I don't have any problem with it so far.
 
"Sure, we could." I answer looking up at the sky from the big window. I can't wait to see it.
As we are laying on the cold floor on the top of the school everything is so calm. The sky is blue, I can see my love from here. I'm gazing at the cloud with a smile. I just can't get enough of this beautiful creature of a loving goddess.
 
As the sun is starting to hurt my eyes I can no longer stare at the sky, I'm turning my head toward Dylan who is lying right next to me. I can't even remember when was the last time when I really looked at him. Probably years ago, and I'm surprised now how much his body had been changing lately. He's wearing a white shirt with dark skinny jeans and black sneakers, his hair seems even lighter than the last time, if it's even possible, it's almost the same colour as his shirt. His ribs and shoulders are poking out from the shirt, he lost weight, how could I not recognize that? He looks so thin and fragile as he's laying there, he looks like he's already dead. He has a soft smile on his lips as he's staring at something that is invisible for the rest of us, his eyes are so light blue that the sky could get jealous over them. He looks like he's ill, and I didn't even see that.
"Dylan?" I ask in a whispering voice, not wanting to break the peace.
 
"Yeah?" he answers softly while he's turning his face in my direction. I'm staring in his eyes, deeply, like I haven't done for a long time now. I should've, I can no longer understand him, I can no longer say I know him. Somehow it's screeching my heart, badly.
 
"I'm sorry." I'm not letting my voice shaking, I'm looking down, I can't look in his eyes.
"I'm in love, I'm in love so badly..." he answers staring back to the infinite dream reality. I look at him again.
 
"You never told me. Are you going to tell me who's that angel?" I'm trying to force myself to chat casually, but I'm failing miserably. I'm worried. I haven't been worried for years, I almost forgot how heartbreaking it could be. I wanted to forget.
 
"Maybe..." the bell is ringing. I know something and I'm keeping it for myself.
The next morning I'm waiting for him in the corridors, I want to skip again, but even after the bell I'm not seeing him coming, so I let out a sigh and go on my own. As I open the door and feel the weak wind cooling down my face I see him. He's lying at the exact same place like he did yesterday. I know that something is really wrong, I feel it, and as I'm approaching I can clearly see that he's not breathing any more. His relaxed face, his eyes chasing those dreams and pictures, reflecting the sky with all the clouds. He looks like he's just laying there but I know that this time he won his fight.
 
I'm collapsing next to him, calling his name thousands, millions of times, shaking him softly to wake him up, wake him up to reality. His cold skin is scaring me, and as I'm moving his arm I can see dry blood all over his wrists and arm. His body is so clean, it's stunning, but the blood surrounding his left hand is dirty, it's caressing the memory of a lot of pain and suffering. I'm letting it go as I'm reading the words cutten in his skin, with fear and anxiousness.
 
"It's you" it says and I'm screaming. Screaming, because it's you too. You captured the clouds with your eyes, so I felt in love with them.
I killed a cloud that day and I never looked at the sky again, because I knew if I would, I would fall deep enough to see him dying again.
Thank you for reading it! This is my first story in English that I'm publishing and I hope you like it.
Copyright © 2014 Lawus; All Rights Reserved.
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Ieshwar

While I read the story, I kept picturing it as a silent movie/clip in my head. With the cinematic slowing down at the start and choppy gruesome pictures at the end. Yet throughout the story, there was this "muted" quality, even during the screams. I think it comes from the way you write, it's very soft and light. The voice of the protagonist is so poetic yet fragile. You can't help but feel for him.

 

This was really good, especially for a first time. You write really well. One or two places, the fluidity broke a bit but it wasn't much noticeable. So, I hope to read more from you. Thanks for sharing.

 

And yeah, congrats for your first like. ;)

Lawus
On 07/24/2013 08:01 AM, Ieshwar said:
While I read the story, I kept picturing it as a silent movie/clip in my head. With the cinematic slowing down at the start and choppy gruesome pictures at the end. Yet throughout the story, there was this "muted" quality, even during the screams. I think it comes from the way you write, it's very soft and light. The voice of the protagonist is so poetic yet fragile. You can't help but feel for him.

 

This was really good, especially for a first time. You write really well. One or two places, the fluidity broke a bit but it wasn't much noticeable. So, I hope to read more from you. Thanks for sharing.

 

And yeah, congrats for your first like. ;)

Thank you so much! I will try my best to improve!
Lawus
On 07/24/2013 08:01 AM, Ieshwar said:
While I read the story, I kept picturing it as a silent movie/clip in my head. With the cinematic slowing down at the start and choppy gruesome pictures at the end. Yet throughout the story, there was this "muted" quality, even during the screams. I think it comes from the way you write, it's very soft and light. The voice of the protagonist is so poetic yet fragile. You can't help but feel for him.

 

This was really good, especially for a first time. You write really well. One or two places, the fluidity broke a bit but it wasn't much noticeable. So, I hope to read more from you. Thanks for sharing.

 

And yeah, congrats for your first like. ;)

Thank you so much! I will try my best to improve!
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