Lonlieness - 1. Chapter 1

as i sit here looking out da window
thinking of all da endless possibilities life brings to me
n da thought dat i always feel lonely
when im out im with me myself n i
when im by myself i feel lik da shadow of da crowd
so silent and kept to myself
jus lik a lamb
my life is lik a coyote
im always by myself
oh how i hate it 2 say
how my loneliness drives me crazy
some days while everyone else is having fun im the one n the back still tryna get it
but somehow i manage to get laughed at, cracked on n looked down upon
n dats when the rain starts 2 fall my life consists of dramatoc ups n downs
but i do sometimes come around
but most of my days r filled with sadness i cover up with fake smiles n funny jokes
but within my eyes lies a completely different story
within my pupils u will find the true feelings of my heart
my lifes harder to read than a kiddie book cuz there are parts of my life
i cant even begin to explain all i kno is it all started with
RAIN at the beggining i feel down i wanna b chipper sumtimes
i feel dat if i died ppl would b better off without me
but still i stick it out though it calls me
day by day
death
nite by nite
death