it's pretty bad when you can't sleep because your too busy worrying about a fictional character from your own story, and the way you left him in his current situation. When you get so caught up in the story that you can't write anymore because it hits way to close from home, and you don't want to ever relive the pain even if just though a story.

that being said, no I have no forgotten about Last Goodbye, I just honestly haven't had the time. I know yet I have time to write a new story right? we'll in my defense this story is for my creative writing class, it's my final project. it's a very emotional story, it's touching, it's real world unedited t its finest.

Can you believe summers right around the corner? it's unreal but I'm so excited for it and everything else that's been happening. I've started off this year really really rough, but I can see the light and things look a whole lot clearer now than they ever have before. Maybe it's just the fact that I now have another guardian angel watching over me. One that i miss very dearly, one that changed my life. One that no matter how hard I try not to cry just the thought of her brought tears to my eyes.

In my 22 years of living, the worst pain I've ever experienced was to sit around helplessly just waiting for her to pass, watching her in pain, struggling to breathe, knowing that there wasn't a damn thing i could do to help her. It was the longest two days of my life, the most memorable and miserable. it's something i never want to relive and yet i know i will, someday.

it's just a part of living right? we'll you know what? it sucks. but, I'll live, I'll moved on, i just won't ever forget.