So here's an interesting thing. We all know about the somewhat turbulent relationship my boyfriend and I have, and honestly since I've been away for two months we're sort of having trouble getting used to each other again. But while I was gone he was going out with his friends more and stuff, which I'm actually glad about, and I don't hold it against him or anything. But there's this one girl from work who he's gotten to be friends with, and I absolutely cannot stand her. She's like 3 years younger than me (6 years younger than him) and just extremely ditzy and annoying. There's not much in the world I hate more than girls who act like that. And she's always hanging around him. She asks him for a ride home from work more days than not, and at the Christmas party (which we gave her a ride to) she kept sort of hanging around him and never really said a word to me. Anyway, I developed something close to hatred for her, and apart from the ditziness I wasn't really sure why, and then it hit me. Am I actually jealous? I've never been jealous before, in seven years. And is it a good thing or a bad thing if I am? Does it mean I still care about him enough to be jealous, or does it mean that I'm turning into a paranoid freak because our relationship seems so unstable? I don't actually think he's gonna leave me for her or anything, but I still just cannot get past hating her guts.