I just don't have it in me.

I have experienced enough real pain to know that I don't like it and, am mortified(good Southern word) at the thought of causing pain to others- especially someone I like enough to want to roll around with.

The idea of being out of control gives me cold sweats so trying to tie me up would be like trying to give a cat a bath. It could probably be done but no one would enjoy the experience.

Leather? No. Just.. no.

I'm just not kinky that way.

My big S&M fantasy? Rescuing the poor guy that's tied up. Picking him up, carrying him away to some place nicer where I can experience his gratitude.

That doesn't work either. He liked being tied up.

I actually searched for S&M for Dummies.

That was no help. Then after a few more searches, I was like

Maybe there are frontiers that I probably shouldn't explore.