Well, I admit it....I've been slipping. My writing has been sucking lately. I feel really dissapointed in the last chapter of My Jump Off that I posted. Here's what I think happened....

I started off just writing for my boyfriend, but i felt like I wanted everyone to read what I was writing, mainly because I think I wanted to know if it was any good or not. I mean, getting an honest opinion from Taylor about a story I was writing just for him was going to be impossible. So I started posting my first story on Xanga. Well, from there, I started posting in the Library here at GA and I got a lot of good feedback from everyone here.

Then Myr opened up the efiction section, and I started getting even more feedback. Then, I scored a really awesome editor, Talonrider, and the next thing I knew, I was learning how to write.....when I say that, what I mean is, I learned the rules of grammer and punctuation. I also learned the difference between to and too Then I got hosted at CRVboy, and at the Talonhouse. I was soooo excited, especially when I started getting even more feedback from people, good and bad.

Then I felt a little frustrated when it seemed like the GAC's were trying to hold down the non hosted authors by keeping us from making story announcements and i wrote about it right here in my blog. Then, I got some advice about posting at Nifty. I didn't want to do it, but in the end, I decided to submit a story.

That's when things really picked up. It was awesome to open my inbox and find between ten and twenty emails from readers about my story each day!!! Then I went to my page and saw that I had gotten a ton of hits. I actually averaged about 100 hits a day, which isn't a lot compared to this site, but it's a lot to me. I had about 600 hits on my page when I first posted on Nifty two weeks ago, and now I have over 2500 hits

So, when I was writing my anthology story, I thought I would have a really good feeling about it. Instead, I felt a lot of pressure to make my story at least as good as my spring anthology. So unfortunately for Kitty, I changed my mind a bunch of times and then I couldn't decided what I wanted to do. Finally, last night, I made a decision (sorry Kitty )

Then I sat down and read chapter seven of My Jump Off over again, and I stopped to think about what happened with it. I think I had the same problem. I was getting so much good feedback that I didn't want to dissapoint my readers, and I also felt a lot of pressure to hurry up and get the next chapter out and I think I rushed it. Even if no one else can tell, I can. So, I've decided to take my time with the next chapter and do what I've been doing.......enjoy writing this story. If I start hating it, it's going to suck, and I know it.

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You see, time is passing, people asking how come none of this ain't lasting

Money will make people deal like they don't even have to feel

But no, it ain't real

Some lyrics from the CD I've been listening to a lot lately. I've gotten into Santana, and I love listening to everyting he's got. But to me, his best ever song, and I mean ever, is Do you like the way? featuring Cee-Lo and Lauren Hill. It inspires me to think and to write

PS: Little Buddha.... I did it. Wish me luck