The right music helps keep your sanity.

[snshadow]

I love Alanis Morisette just for that reason.

 

Others may not like her but she has got to be my favorite. And no there is no point to this post at all, it's just things are ... really difficult right now and I just need a small outlet.

 

This last weekend I went to San Antonio Texas for one of the hardest things of my life, and on the way down the only thing that kept me from totally loosing it was her So called Chaos album. The same album is keeping me from loosing it now.

 

Music has such a profound effect on ones moods its ... amazing.

 

I haven't posted here in a while. I dunno why. To busy? I guess who knows. Gods I'm so tired. One thing after another, sometimes it gets to be to much. The straw broke the camel's back long ago, only thing keeping it together is the pile of straw itself.

 

mmmmmm sleepy.

 

Gotta keeeeep it together. 3 days without sleep. Piled with driving 12 hours round trip. Plus I went to work today.

 

Ow... got distracted for a moment, well more like fell asleep for a moment. I hate that.

 

I feel like crying. I feel like laughing. I feel like screaming. I feel like drowning. I feel like ... smiling.

 

Oy vey.

 

Think my emotional state is teedering over the edge. Perhaps this is a good time to uh... whatever. You know?

 

Wind to thy wings

Sun to thy backs

Dreams to thy sleep

and Love to thy heart.

[charmark]

You seem to be having a tough time - I hope you come out of it stronger and better.

 

Yeah, music can have a power over us that goes beyond understanding. I don't know why, but when I first saw a vid of Spielberg's 'Empire of the Sun' a year or two back, the opening theme had me in tears and I couldn't get it out of my head for weeks afterwards. I know now that it's a Welsh lullaby called 'Suo Gan', but I still haven't a clue about the words - but I only need to hear the fitst half-dozen notes and I'm in tears again. Yet the tears always leave me feeling stronger.

 

Snshadow, life can be shit, but we all play our parts and we all touch each other. Something in your post hit a chord with me - you are important to me and, I guess, to plenty of others. Nobody's prying, but if we can help, just ask.

 

'Be strong, be positive, but - above all - be humble'.

 

Peace, roses and dollars!

 

Mark.