KiwiShadow

Ian has a boyfriend that makes life more amazing than he could have ever wanted or dreamed but when his classmates find out about his boyfriend, disaster strikes. A story of pain, love and mystery ensues; it challenges the concept of life and death as well as what it means to be human.

The endless void of unconsciousness… What a concept right? It wasn’t really the same savage darkness that originally swallowed me and robbed me of my consciousness that first time I appeared in front of that hooded figure, my past incarnation. It was so much different, although it obviously couldn’t have the same positive glow that I now experienced in the barrier walled room. It seems now I don’t entirely lose my consciousness, it’s like when you’re really tired and reality has a distorted feel

Aiden was mine and whether it was just in a memory, I AM going to see him again. No one can take him away from me; the memory of him smiling back at me was so crystal clear, so undiluted and perfect in every detail. As long as I have my memories he’ll be here with me, forever. As if my memory immersion was replying to my conscious thought, I started to feel that familiar emotional tug in the back of my mind which stole my attention once more. This time I’m ready to do this ‘memory immersion’ thi

“I…I didn’t mean for them to find out…they just could smell smoke on my clothes …and…and…they went in my pockets and found a joint.” Jared stuttered in an obvious attempt to save his own skin. So THIS is what it was all about, Jared had made the wrong friends, got in with the wrong crowd and made a HUGE mistake. “My parents are total Nazi’s, I couldn’t do anything about it dude, I swear! I begged and pleaded for them to just leave it and punish me, to not go to the cops but they just kept going

This makes no sense! I shouldn't be conscious in any way as I move through space, time or whatever else I'm moving through. Maybe I just need to concentrate harder, maybe I need to try and control my emotions and stop them from spiking out of control. That's what my previous incarnation had told me to do, after all. I concentrated on the memory as hard as I could, remembering every detail as clearly as possible, the smell, the sounds and the touch, everything that had been around me. That's when

That's what I've forgotten, something about AIDEN! I just can't remember… I'll just have to hope my last moments alive will eventually return to me because I just KNOW it's something important. The detention didn't remain on my past self's mind for long as we both noticed that there was a new student standing at the front of the class. He was absolutely gorgeous! Of course, I knew who he was, but the consciousness of my past self was practically drooling. The other me didn't know what it w

I smiled at my gorgeous boyfriend as we slowly made our way towards my place after school. It took so much mental control to suppress my hard on but I managed it, somehow. I had to put my arm around him as we got closer, I wanted him, I NEEDED him and NOW! Any contact with him was better than nothing! I don't know WHAT made me do it, I knew people might see us but I wanted him so badly. I missed the heavenly feeling of having his warm body sliding back and forth against mine, the total safety I

The tale of a vampire who has lived in darkness for more than two centuries, he imparts his wisdom as we switch between the past and present to understand where he has come from and where he is going. He must conquer his personal evils so that he can destory another evil that threatens the vampire world itself.

A firm breeze embraced me as the automatic doors of the terminal of Wellington airport opened and I walked out into the night. I also noticed that daylight was quickly approaching like an unwelcome visitor. I pulled out my phone, turned it on and called another taxi to take me to a motel I knew would be suitable. After another forgettable taxi ride and conversing with a taxi driver I would also soon forget, I found myself in front of a helpdesk at an otherwise empty motel waiting room. “Hey

I awoke with a start but quickly regained my composure as I realized where I was and that I was safe. Another regained memory now swirled around in my mind, reminding me of past events and people who were long forgotten until recently. My crossover, my sire, my extra, my heritage and my family were no longer mysteries to me. The cruelest part is that the one memory I might be able to use to retrieve them all, still evades me. I lay still for a while, not wanting to move, because deep down, I was

There they lay in front of me, two teenage boys who looked to be around the same age. One was there because I had failed to act in time, and there is no doubt in my mind that I could have intervened if I had truly had the inclination. My hesitation, it seems, was my, and ultimately his, undoing. Why did I care so much about this baby-faced teen? I knew the evolutionary reasoning behind it but I couldn’t honestly believe that I had fallen victim to that alone. The young in many species are given

The dark, cobblestoned street was absent of the usual hustle and bustle that occupied it while the sun shone, along with the stalls that littered the sidewalks. My stomach growled as I thought of all the delicious foods that the stalls offered during the day. Food was a commodity that I, like many people, failed to receive much of in such difficult times. Of course, whether these were the most difficult is relative, but it was still challenging for a person in my position, when I can only beg an

A real life and 100% true account of my life as of late.

Do you sometimes feel that life has passed you by? That you should have done things differently, but at the time, the idea of doing things differently was just way too scary? It’s easy to tell someone to let go of their inhibitions but that inner anxiety that some of us possess is so overwhelming. Worst of all you wonder if you had taken a different turn, would you now find yourself in a different place, a better place. That’s how I feel, I’m 18 and a half (yeah I’m one of those weird people who

You see this is why I shouldn't reply to forum posts when I'm sleepy! What I really meant is I'm liking what I've read so far so do whatever works. Obviously it's not ALL based on personal experience because obviously most main characters in stories posted on GA are based around guy on guy relationships. Although I do like reading gay fiction in general by female authors because a different perspective is always good. That said an done... I'm reading Dangerous Liaisons because it's sort of my life in a nutshell and you can't tell me that a story about someone going to law school doesn't have some truth to it, you being our resident law expert . That brings up an interesting point though, are we more likely to read stories that we think are similar to our own experiences? This is a perfect example where I've gone down the list of Nephy's stories and though religious parents? doing law? Sounds like me! Haha I actually feel really guilty now, I need to read more (Oops if I'm not allowed to mention authors' stories)

Nephy - Awww thanks! You always make me feel so welcome I appreciate that. Personal experience seems to work for you so go for it, I know I'm using it a lot! I've started reading more of your stories and I'm loving it (I'll have to leave some feedback ) HH5 - You make some good points! What we see through different media including TV, others writing etc can heavily influence our own writing. Also the idea that our personal experience shapes the basis of a story has a lot of merit. gabrielknife - "write about what you know" I LIKE IT! I do agree that we take little parts of personal experience and put them in our stories. It's not always a WHOLE story or we'll exaggerate to cause effect. Some GREAT points I'm loving this discussion!

Hey guys! I know I'm not exactly an 'established member' or a writing pro but I went to a writing course recently and one of the points we covered was how self experience influences our writing. People often complain that they don't have any ideas but the truth is we have years worth experiences to call on. Now what I've actually noticed with some of my earlier writing is that a lot of the character traits are very similar to people in real life that we know. So why not try find one of your earlier pieces of writing (I'm not talking stuff from when you were 7, more recent than that!) and find as many simiarities to your life or friends as possible. I'll do it with a monologue I recently wrote for that particular course. Simiarities between my life and the story - I had a pet die recently which also happened in the monologue - Same issues with religion - Same issues with my parents approval with my lifestyle - Similar problems with schoolwork - Same issues with lying to people, especially family - Same issue of going out with a guy that is taken - The monologue is from the perspective of a girl but talks of relationships with guys. This I think is my way of covering up my homosexuality in a way that I can still talk about me without bringing it up. - References to never-ending drama, a bit like my life Anyway this is just an example - I thought it was interesting. Tell me if you find lots of simiarities too

A great interview Everyone should take a look!

Ah... that explains a lot and yeah it's working now.

The link doesn't work for me Anyone else having problems?

Hmmm all that hot sweaty sex make you feel all dirty? Haha seriously though it's a great story Be sure to check out all the high school series as well!

Of course Kiwi's right, he's ALWAYS right! Joking... but I'll definitely be looking forward to those two updates. Just take care of yourself okay mister cality? I don't want to hear about any more hospital visits because someone is over doing it and no by 'hearing about it' that doesn't just mean you can't tell me to avoid the situation. So yes.. *walks back to the actual topic* so ignore the hatters, take care of yourself and write at your leisure.

There's still time nephy! You could always try and put SOMETHING together, it'll still probably be better than mine haha. Oh and for the people who are a bit confused by the link not working... http://www.voy.com/fo/17262/14305.html - Comsie accidentally copied his special moderator URL with the '/fo/' in it so if you want to get to the post and it's not working try - http://www.voy.com/17262/14305.html Alternatively, post here or send me a PM if you need any help I'm always lurking around. Best of luck to everyone who chose to enter, I can't wait to read all the fantastic entries!

It's fantastic - if you're having GFD withdrawals, Savage Moon is a great substitute. Some people even prefer it to GFD.

Haha it's like when literary geeks see some powerful imagery in a novel that the author may not have intended because they look way too closely into something. I think as long as people enjoy what I'm writing and it makes sense - how they perceive the content isn't up to me. I mean isn't this partly why some people LOVE some stories and other people hate the same story? Hmm in terms of offending people, I usually include an extra note on my disclaimer if I think something might offend people. People are always going to disagree.