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just checked here in and what did i found.. such a wonderful short story. you nailed this dilemma spot on and i have to admit that it's these kind of stories that keep me thinking .. in a good way. that shows the dilemma as it were my own. these untroubled young days, this easygoing,( liked your style of telling with all these cool verbatisms here) the four musketeers... than the lying, the questions the what if's until the time arrives.. so beautiful and thoughtful written and i know a lot of people, me included, can identify with this guy.. <3 annette

and again, i'm in tears.. happy,happy tears:) what a fantastic ending to a beautiful story.. and the winner is... Ava..haha.. loved every little detail here.. the drooling, spit bubbles,rasberries, giggling, and of course a smashed banana, as every baby should have one..lol. and while wailing the two other monsters are playing video games.. yes,! looks like the sorted everything out, Chris , now able to make pancakes and being the one at home, David is happy too...yes, all fits together. so i ask myself on a more serious note... if i get the chance( if you can speak of chance when you suffer memory loss) would my subconscious be willing to remember this really difficult and hurting part of my life.. ?? once for sure, Christian and David have found their way back together twice and this means something.and if Chris wants this , he will remember..... this love is so real and they have this perfect imperfect family and friends life. and i was part of it. For this i thank you very much!! Hugs and kisses all the way <3 Annette

i just hope i'm not the only one who cried like a little baby here ..hmm well , you did it again.. every story from you has at least one chapter that is not written but painted. painted with colors i have never heard nor seen off.. this is so unmistakably you!! ( there once was this story on vh.. where you set up a beautiful christmas scenery..and i think i said the same than ..lol) from the start i took my seat right with the other guests, your description of the settings, the music , Liam and Ethan !! was beautiful and i'm happy to be a guest here. another part that touched me deeply was you reflection to what wedding means.. the responsibility, the compromises the committment... and even if i get Christian's sadness that his mother is missing out on this i'm with Tagg here, at least he got some closure. so thanks for inviting me to one of the best wedding ceremonies i went, Chapeau !! <3 Annette ... i'm still a little shaky

so, finally i had a chance to read some more... so you started with this visit. this scene with her in the cab watching the house was weird and funny together. from her description of what she saw i knew this visit would not turn into a pleasant one (.. of her way to speak about them) but than i had to laugh about of what she would expecty to see... not tha... , so gay couple life like what??? lol.. unfortunately this happens more than once.. \i really liked the talk between Jimmy and David here and you got across the point how David is feeling here very well.. this ..""i can;t read him anymore"" made me sad .. ok, what to say to Chris and his mom?? it was to be expected i guess, sadly but true. but i was so proud of Christian for sticking to his family... so much has changed from his first thought after his accident.. ( i'm not gay) ... in a way it was nice to hear her say at least that she thought her husband's death was an accident... she will never change so i think going to Africa is the best , sadly she will never meet her grandchilds, but i think it's for the best here... so you came full cirvle here, so to speak and agian you did it with the utmost respect for every character here.... now i'm ready for the wedding <3 Annette on a happier note i;m looking forward to their marriage and i'm happy Christian was a lott more comfortable and calmer here

well, i'm almost there.. haha this time i want to tell you that i truly enjoy the way you make your characters come to life.. you have a way, like no other!! it's like i sit back and watch your characters, i cry with them, i laugh with them and here i pouted with them.. because Ethan is right .. this was not a laughing matter... but always you make me feel so close to them it's just beautiful!! liked the scene at Mr. Tux's and their bickering before about gaining/losing weight.. haha and weel great choice of tuxedos here!! i was happy that Chris was confident enough to tell David about ?Charlotte?, right? he wants to do this all right and a little shone through how hard it is for Chris to still have no memory.. enough said Hugs and kisses Annette

aw... Tag and JImmy got married.. how amazing is that ?? i just love Tag here, to just surprise Jimmy with his proposal. and that's the thing, even everybody knew this two were meant to be and they belong together, this ""showing off"" is a nice addition. loved how Tag waved his ring in front of Chris..lol.. and as i told you earlier, i think they take it a lot more serious than most of couples i know in RL, just because they can marry they do. loved your explicit desription of Tag... shorts, barefoot, pink top, his hair.. and singing off key.. GREAT!! ... had to laugh about that Chris still, unconsciously, knows how to get what he wants...hahaha now, who tried to call Chris and DAvid??? i know they have already forgotten about this.. but i think it has to be something important.. hmmm great chapter <3 Annette

awww i've read this chapter with a smile on my face... i couldn't note that one of these persons is suffering a memory loss... they feel so right for eachother and Chris just knows ( or still knows) what to do to get what he wants..haha. i loved the restarant visit, even David felt so uneasy to ride this motorbike... it appears that Christian is quiet happy with his life and job right now. he has settled in. so i totally get his wish to marry David again, to make this most important event in his life a memorable one.. in more than one way..so the planning was a bit much for him the first time now he wants it all and he knows how to convince David...lol.. that was the happy part... have i to worry about Tag and Jimmy... hmm this is not their usual behavior and that phone call at the end did the rest.. :)

well that was perfect!! you wrote this scene very careful, respectful but in such a lovingly way .. i have no words.. this was just them!! i liked most that this had nothing to do with Christian''s memory loss... i just wanted to feel David and noting more. and one more good thing came out... he realized even if he never gets his memory back, this is what it is... and that's why it;s so believable that Christian is now ready for the job, unlike yesterday..and than Tag.. he crossed his legs, while crossing his arms over his chest... i like thi little details, it's how i would see him getting comfortable..lol.. and i think this scene made an impact on him. to admit Jimmy would make a great father.. i'm curious what will happen here.. a perfect chapter Chica~~ have a great sunday!!

wow, after the last very relaxing chapter i kinda knew it couldn't stay this way, we are still on a bumby road...and here we hit a major bump... first i liked the breakfast scene... the kids now eating CEREALS...lol and Christian is handling them so well... going back to the office seemded to make Chris very nervous and the construction side with all the noises put him over the edge... did he rember actually his accident?? i think that would be a breakthrough, to relieve what happend..i think so, giving tje circumstances that noone was yelling look out... i understand that he freaked out completely and it was nice to see that his only thought was being safe .. and his family, especially David here is the one . David again, shows his unconditional love and commitment to Christian... you had to end it here, now that he made this giant step... no YAY for that cliffhanger .. ) thanks for making my busy day a kinda of enjoyable day <3

ouldn't stay away... although i have a lot of things to do but i;m nit exactly a maniac for housework so every distradtion ie welcome..lol this was a really nice chapter.. i liked this idea of starting to date anew and make new memories. Christian knows best what he's feeling and he should act on that feelings at his own pace.. and not just because he get told over and over agian that they are it for eachother. this has to come from inside. the flowers were a good thing to start with. it was something he wanted to do. i wished i could have joined this BBQ,, i love them together to pieces. this conversation about valueing the marriage was great!! you put up amazing thoughts here and i can see myself talk to you animatedlt about that:) one thing i'm really sure of.. gay couples take it more serious because they have and still have to fight for this very hard. i still feel sad for Christian.. hearing all this stories just makes him realize how much he missed... the videos are a prefect ending and i could feel his excitement already to learn more about his past.. Thanks, and now i'm off for some cleaning, but i'm happy <3 Annette

aww.. i loved this chapter!! to see both of them like this feels so, so right!! Christian may not rember David, but he feels something i, defenitely.. it was cute when Christian thought about getting David a little something, card or flowers, you wouldn't think of that if there's no connecton at all. to call Tag and get help to surprise David was beyond caring.. love Taggart here... """he heard it all before.."" so yes Christian's character or nature regarding David is shining through, even the jealousy... and he's far away from the part saying.. i'm not gay...lol.. i can understand how hard this all has to be for David though, he just wants his husband back, all of it, but regardiing to their history he takes what he gets and will wait... because they are committed to eachother:) i totally loved this statement about finding that flawed person you can't live without... so i'm with Christian here... it was a beautiful first date , fun , relaxing, with the right amount of closeness ... thanks and have a great weekend , Annette

so finally i 'm able to read some more... i was desperate already a nice relaxing chapter.. had to laugh at so many scenes here:) first, i'm still in awe at how easily Christian fits in his role as a father here. his handling on the boys is amazing!! i like how important it is for him to get a new suit, just brcause it;s an important event for David. most highly not even know one person here!! then the restaurant visit... you have to love Tag ( and Jimmy)how they are with these little monsters is beyond amazing and i can tell that even with all these comments , e.g. ok, let's spank him or it's torture time , they love these lottle two and vice versa!! they were so excited for their stay overnight...lol.. you put a little damper on my mood by revealing the tidbits about Christian's time after the breakup.. so much guilt and dating a girl he didn't even like in school was hard.. i'm curious he will eventually reaveal this secret to David. i liked though that it looks like Chris is getting motr and more comfortable with this idea of being with David.. buying this suit, using a checkbook with both their names, it has to count for something... so i'm sure the monsters will have a great time and i hope this goes for Cgris and David too...last one word, whenever i see chips or something like that on atable i will think about.. no double dipping... that;s how you and your stories affect my RL...LOL thanks <3

a perfect chapter!! although i have to say , i hope we hit rock bottom with that, because they both deserve so much better!! ok, now i know what it was about in an earlier chapter, when i had my suspicious about the """Dad dies in Mississippi""...so he came and it went down south, haven't expected anything else here..so still David carries on a scar as a lifelong reminder, and Chris doesn't remeber at all... kinda tragic humorous in a way.. well, in a way i'm glad Chris can't remember all of what happened, because no one should have an experience like that . i like how you played out this chapter ... the present mixed with the past was great to read.and again it shows so much love here. i now understand why David freaked out the day Chris left the house without a note or something. he thought he had lost him all over again. partly i can understand why Chris broke up with him, such a horrible burden is not an easy thing to deal with, but in the end the love has won and i'm so, so happy he came back.and vowed to never leave him again... And i agree with David now, this is a piece of cake compared to almost have lost the love of your life. now all pieces fall together and even the love, onve shared, made a short re-appearance... you can't help who you fall in love with.. and again Chris is falling , albeit slowly, but still.. and that shows how perfect they both are for eachother!! i'm curious what will happen between Chris ans his mom, i take it he will try again and finally for her to meet his sons... i'm not sure though...right now i'm not very fond of her, but yes, she is a mum and a grandma.. thank you for this amazing ride here:) Love ya!!

this wasn't exactly a lighthearted chapter but it was an important one.. so i take it i feel so sad for Christian . first the talk to his mom. i had a feeling there was so much hope in his voice to get to talk to her, but that feeling was crashed fast.. i knew his coming out had to bad , but that bad.. i liked though that he defended his family even if he can't remember them. this was what felt right.. oh how i love him:) i guess this call triggered his dream , or better that day he remembers, so this fight took place and it's a shame he has to relive this all over again, and maybe feel as helpless as he felt when he came out. i though his father was a bastard, but you toped it off, so much loathe here. unbelievable,( sadly.) i'm glad though David is there for him and he at least can seek comfort there. i guess the worst o have to read yet, when it will unfold what happend when his father came to talk to David.. you write in an amazing way this chapter and revealeed a lot of their special realtionship here, on both sides, .. thanks alot!!! very well done!

lol...had to read another one:) a very nice and kinda peaceful chapter.. starting his (Chris) daily routine is a good thing. i liked how he handled the boys, at no point it came to my mind that he can't take this task, so i guess the doctor is right. he can easily see himself with kids, contrary to David as his husband i liked their evening together with JImmy and Tagg.it all appeared to be easy and smooth and very relaxing, Chris was able to even make some jokes and for a moment my mind wanderd off when i've read about these liitle things Chris desperately wants to remember, like have the kids their shots, the allergy .. and i thought about how i would feel with such a memory loss, i mean that's our live, the good and the bad memories, and although i often enough said i wish i could forget some things back in my life, these are things that made what i am and they define me in a way.. ok back to me fav couple it's still sad to see Chris is so conflicted when it comes to be gay and out, like when he asked David about going to this party and if's out at the company...he really has some issues here and i get more despeart to know about them...lol at the end i felt sad again for David when Christian turned back, i know Chris was saddened too to see David this sad , but still, it's hard... and to top it of you have to end this nice chapter with some heavy stuff Uh ohhhh... Mom's calling... some voice he obviously remebers too.. great writing Chica, because i love this whole story and it's characters already so much <3

first thank you for your sweet replies to my ramblings:) but your stories really means a lot to me, it's like this little time out , when i can forget about work and family issues and it's just me and your story!! so back to said story, i was worried about Christian here, it was a lot to digest so i was more than happy he found his way back to David and his home. David is beyond amazing here, given what he went through he is just perfect.it has to be hard for him to not pressure Chris any more. i liked this kittle talk to Taggart about how he felt during Chris" time at the hospital and than the bomb to drop. Tagg looks like a good friend and i was a little baffeld that Chris remembers him. but i take it growing up together, the same school, church and being gay, they are really best friends. i don't know if i where this cool as David is... knowing me, i would have felt a little hurt when Chris remembers Tagg but not me as his husband. but i think there's more to their relation. your remark about , you were so deep in the closet you and the hangers were on first name basis...lol never heard this before ..haha so there are some things i really need an answer to soon.. i've picked on that comment from Tagg about the accident of Christian's father in Mississippi and than the comments, or better no comments to the subject of how they met. A subject even Christian remebers as a important thing and he wants to relieve this on hi own.. hmmm... i finished this chapter with a smile though, it looks like Christian is falling for David slowly again.. that's nice to see:) so enough with my rambling for now. thanks for a relaxing time out again XOXO

wow, you took me on a rollercoaster ride here...first this adotable kitchen scene, looks so lighthearted and i admire both for trying to keep the boys at bay from their internal struggle.. really nice and the boys as always a look for sore eyes... had to laugh at the duty calls on Ethan's potty time... so normal and ordinary..lol well the sneak peak in the drawer, well i wasn's surprised as much as Chris was... a kinda ring and a ""necklace"" i cracked up here.. on a more serious note, this puts more closure to the husband and gay topic, this is real, so can i understand he freaked out. the cards then, wow so much love and added to that (wedding) picture i guess this was all to much, when his only memory is of his father who never would have approved to this:( hope Chris is ok !!

i liked this talk in the beginning.. David has no hart feelings here, he doen't know what happend but he truly believes that this is his family and he will do his best as it could get. i like his honesty here, although he's still saying he isn't gay, he belives all of this , like when he saw that adorable family picture of them.. i like the tidbits you gave away while they drove home, a little of what was going on in his head ( as an great architect ) and how well David could read him... than the bits about his Dad and mom, very sad , so is the part of his father's bigotry and to go alone to his funeral and even Christian's little day dream is kinda sad.. but i guess this is how he feels right now .. ...and than David, incredible, what he said to Christian got me all teary-eyed.. as you said in the last chapter, time is what they have.. i truly hope this all turns out well, ( i know you'll do great..lol( becayse after a short 3 chapters i already love this family to pieces and they deserve nothing but happiness:) <3

what a beautiful chapter, so much love, caring and a little sadness, again a perfect mix.i adore Christian here with all my heart. to not let it show off how insecure he his because of his memory loss. he treats these two absolutly adorable rugrats with so much love , it just shows how great as a father he is. i like this little easiness here between them, an easiness as only a child can be, very careful amd moving written. he unconsciusly noticed the topic about the chips and the remarks to ""the Snacks"" cracked me up. and just between the lines of talking about fruit over chips these two little smart ones tell him about David's crying at night ,,, and no Mr. Beck, you are not gay, lol but very observant to notice your husband looks great in shorts.... i still adore David too, his patience to give Christian privacy and to suppress his own longing feelings great chapter , maybe have to reward myself with another one...lol Xoxo

wow, i really tried to imagined how would it feel, to wake up with no recent memory, you don;t even know your own looks it has to be kinda scary.. on the other part there's David, love him already, just wants his husband back but has to hold back alot to not scare him even more... that';s a shitty situation, to say the least. but girl you have a way to make a perfect mix within your chapters, so my mood quickly turned and i had to laugh about several things. Christian's repertitive phrase of not being gay, but observing his husband in a way, i laught out loud. "" .tall, dark and handsome Medium build and he looked like a million dollars in his tailor made, navy blue suit that accentuated his deep blue eyes. ... lol, ( yes, every man is so observant..) and that last scene in the bathroom did it for me , i lost it completly.. haha no that's not a dimple... OMG:) i'm wondering if there's connection to his last memories, his crush on ""Liam" this terrible fight with his father, a more understanding mother.. guess i'll wait and see. amazing chapter !!! <3

Hi there:) don't know how i could not see this story, but ok now i'm here and have something to look forward to... just finished this indroduction and guess what ... you have me on the hook ...lol. a very intersting topic and to top it off the "" i'm not gay "" at the end was unexpected .. well this leaves room for heartache, confusion and so much more<3 MWAH!!

aww it was so easy for me to get back into this story and man what an epilogue!! you did it again, the thing i like most: all (important) characters made an appearance or at least were mentioned. don't know why, but it's important to me to see where everyones has its'place.e.g. Scott and Chase are still good friends.. i'm still smiling about this little family you built up here and i'm kinda proud to witness their daily life.. they are unique, but than, as normal as it can be. with the good and the bad ..the strong and the weakness with all the flaws a family can come across but most important with the utmost dose of love and respect for each family member!!! you can tell this with every word.. i loved the fact that , even unconfirmed, Kaleb is the father and i'm happy he could destroy that little guilt he had for his son's ADHD... ..."" “At my last sleep-over, he spent an hour talking about our skirts being too short…A whole hour.” She balked. “Who does that“He does….” They all answered in unison eyeing each other before breaking out in contagious laughter.“Are you talking about me?” Kaleb asked as he walked in from outside...and than this one .."" “I don’t know why you just don’t tell dad you hate his coffee.” Mint commented as he pushed himself from the island and off the stood.“Probably for the same reason you won’t tell him to stop drawing smiley faces on your lunch bag.” Chase retorted before taking a sip from his mug. . i love the way wrote this.. the respectful but easygoing way to deal with Kaleb.. Chapeau!! that last scene though brought tears to my eyes... starting with that sneaky Dad (lol) and than reminiscent about all this cute and funny little moments... yes, they are as normal and traditionell as it gets..haha a beautiful written eppi for a very special family !! thank you very much <3 Annette

YAY finally i got to finish this beautiful and well written story.. and you ended it with so much insight, it has thrown me away. my absolute favorite chapter!!! you really ame full circle here the beginning and the ending with "Brad"involved justified their close friendship. it just made so much sense that after that horrible encounter , Max would go to the cementery and "talk"to Brad. the talk to this stranger was great. it looked like Brad was speaking through him and he sad all the right things... i'm happy, if you can call it this, that Drake and Cody broke up before Max "s visit. it was the right thing and it has nothing to do with Max anyway. Drake never could have loved Cody the way he deserved. .. and i'm with the family and friends about the running joke.. if it wasn't Brad it would have been Drake anyway... so yes, a wonderful chapter and you brought all to a good end with so much thoughtfulness, i never get tired reading your storys!!!! Happy Easter and take care <3 Annette

Ha..had to continue here and well i'm glad i did so i guess we are coming to an end.. it sure feels like it. i have to admit i have mixed feeling about this chapter. i'll try to explain.. at first i was kinda annoyed with Cody. he tried constantly to play what happend with Drake and Max down and that it was sex out of grief and that it meant almost nothing to Max. amd his impish grin when he spotted Max and Nate .. ok i have to admit maybe i would try the same. i think Cody knew this was their last chance and to admit Drake didn't ask for forgiveness, that hurts. i was a little mad at Drake too b/c you could tell he just isn't into Cody as he should or as Cody deserves...and i;m with Cody here i'm not sure who i feel sorrier for. and Maxwell, i;m happy he could at least admit he was running, running from that one thing.... i'm curious who he's going to call... great story and you made my sunday <3

Hi Kim . so it's sunday afternoon and i finally have the time and the peace to continue here... with this said, ok... loved this chapter although it was kind of a difficult one, so much going on, so many emotions to be revealed and it's still hard to figure out where you are going with this. hell, i don;t know for myself what pairing i like to end up together ...haha.. i love your characters, all of them!!.. the insight that came from Cody was great. so he knew all along and i wonder if Brad really saw this too and it was like sharing everything with Max, even Drake..hmm. well obviously Cody really loves Drake but i'm not so sure about Drake's feelings for Cody..He loved Cody. Cody was good to him, always understanding, always accommodating.... but?? but i don't want to read to much into this.. as for now he can't have Max for different reasons and he cheated on Cody... he lost the two most important people in his life... i guess the same goes for Max... that right there , was just sex, without asking questions without thinking involved... ok, i get that but in the end he will have to answer that phone and talk to Drake, by then he should know what he wants and i hope for Drake to really think about if Cody is right for him or is/was he just staying with him b/c he coulnd't be with the one he loved... thanks and have a great sunday Kimmi<3 Annette