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can't stop reading..haha well this is my fav. chapter so far, you want to know why, ok, i'll try to explain it. i loved the pace in this chapter and how smooth( blurred) the transitions were.. the beginning i saw two friends speaking, than two friends consoling each other.. for the first time in what felt like ages Drake could let loose and cry over the loss of his best friend. i got another great glimpse on why this frindship meant so much.. poor Brad, always this fear of loosing people, so i liked that Drake was this constant in his life... i could see too the transferring of roles and i think it was kind of necessity for Drake... well than you flipped the switch and something more came out of it... Max feeling something he thought had died with his husband:( so i liked the lovemaking, and i tink it was more than sex, but the end with Max "denial" didn;t surprise me. he spoke about betrayel and the lines blurred here, did he mean Cody or Brad or was he just scared that he could feel again and share his soul again??? in a way i can understand this and it will take some time to sort this out.. at least i hope they sort this out, for now we have Cody, betrayed by his boyfriend, Drake rejected by Max and Max, i guess confused... not exactly what i would call a ""happy"" outcome... but still great.. i hope i could explained this a little .. thanks <3 Annette

well, i can't say the fight surprised me.. in a way it was inevitable... i think Drake was very harsh, when all Cody wanted was to help his friend and even fixed their realtionship.to refer to Cody's past , i think he had a boyfriend the time he met Drake, was out of line. i think the jealousy in Cody took over and he knwe Drake was slipping through his fingers. the talk with Max was great and you gave away more little details.. one sentence though took me by surprise but i can;t really put my finger on it why.. it was the ..“And it could have been anyone of those guys there that night, but it was you,” Cody smiled as he reached for his cup. “I’m sorry…” Maxwell knitted his brows together tightly, “I don’t understand.”.. ?? the fight between Cody and Drake was intense and i think Drake has a lot of thinking to do... but i guess this option is out of the window with Max outside the door ..looking forward.. Thanks <3 Annette

wow, a lot was going on here... first i'm glad that Drake came just in time to save Max.. i'm not saying i don't understand Max' actions here.. but it would have been for all the wrong reasons and i guess he would have regretted this as a kind of betrayel to Brad.... but i can understand his wish to just feel something , it's so sad:( as for Drake , he's a great friend and your even more great flashback shows again just what kind of friendship he had with Brad, yes he would be sitting next to Brad in jail..i like this analogy! i'm not sure though if his whole anger was out of friendship for Brad, or was it to see Max with someone else... i'll have to wait for this..man, i feel for Cody, he just want to help his boyfriend and watch out for him, but Drake is so merged into helping Max, he barely seems to realize this... right now it's a tricky situation .. looking forward to it... i'm digging this story!!! <3

i had to read more... these characters just get to me i like your flashbacks.. it's an original way to tell me more about how it all started.. don't know why exactly but this flashback got me thinking real hard.. so Drake and Brad where best friends..ok..by the conversation they had in the bar i got the vibe that Drake maybe liked Max too and just shrugged it off... this sentence e.g. "Brad nodded before taking a sip of his drink. “I think he might be the one.” Drake pressed his lips together in a tight smile thinking he’d heard that line before... and at the end of this conversaton Drake's eyes resting on the bar "After taking a deep breath, he finally answered ”No.”.. don't know why, maybe it's just me.. well, the end was bittersweet and i feel for Cody, to put aside like this is not easy, even when he knows in what state Max is in, it still hurts and i see a little trouble on the horuzon... excellent chapter !!! <3 Annette

i'm so happy to get back here and found another story.. another story from you , yet so different to the last one. but one thing is the same, i felt in an instant for the characters and i'm already curious where this trip will lead me.. it's a really sad start though, to loose his husband had to be very hard on Max .. a mere second changed their lifes and it is horrible image ( at least for me) to be in this accident together, where one of them died and the other get out almost safe and sound... this guilt and the question why would haunt me and from what i can tell by now it's hard for Max too. i get that he wants to just withdraw himself from everything but i'm glad that there's one person that helps him getting through this .. Drake.. looks like there's a deep friendship here and i loved your flashback to how all four of them came together.. Brad and Drake friends since highshool with a unique connection met Maxwell and than Cody... want to know more... thank you again for taking me on this trip ... <3 Annette

i'm so so sad to see this story coming to an end but you made it up to me with a perfect ending!! i was curious about how you were going to solve all underlying tensions here and it was so beautiful as always. you thought (again) about everything and all was well thought out...i had to laugh at their attempt to cook a meal for the family... slippery little bugger,,, haha( reminds me of pretty woman) and Chase made a swan dive was funny!! but i'm glad you showed it this way... they are just like every other couple and not perfect in everything they do, like everyone... they are just perfect for eachother.. the dinner scene was nice and i had to smile about the image from Lilly drooling over Helen's pearls.. lol a Diva in training what an image.. perfect!! and yes, Helen behaved, but you could tell she is still Helen with her sarcascm, but i guess their little secret with hold her at bay... and i agree with Chase, it was the right decision to not tell Kaleb all this, and to not put this weight on his shoulders. it was nice to see the families getting along so well, and than... a trip to New York around the Christmas time, the Rockefeller Center, the decorations, the lightnings.. ahhh.. i wanna go back!!!! the last part, i have to admit, i got all teary eyed.. to sum it up what they are for eachother, girl you rock!! your choice of words.. i should print it out and read it everyday to what is important in life...!! the proposal was cute.. Kalebs simle yes was , well Kaleb style.. and you've taught me alot here and i will see life ,,, “It’s full of magnificent colors and… several Shades of Gray.” thank you so much Have yourself a merry little Christmas, .. loved your choice her again !!! Miss you ! Love and Hugs <3

wow, this was an extra long chapter and man, a lot has happened here... even without knowing that the story is coming to an end, i could clearly see every point/topic coming full circle here. you provided solutions to every aspect of your story, and you know how much i love this about your writing. nothing is left unclear or vaguely well, i take my hat off to Chase!! he for sure knows how to play poker or chess, that is!! not only confronting Helen like this but to also call that bluff, he sure risked a lot... but hey, he got the trump!!! i loved how you played this card..lol.. so i hope Helen's hands are tied and it will stay this way!!... you hear Mr.Sweeney...hahaha as i said.. Carter is the best!! i loved he cared for the roses, Chase so hastily dropped... that talk between Chase and Kaleb through the closed door is my fav. scene... it looked like Chase comes to term with all that has happend between him and Kaleb and he is totally in love and ok with that... evne if Kaleb is a little slow...lol... you just have to love him , right?? so i was happy Kaleb finally decided to come out, because Chase really needed his boyfriend here and to take their sex life to the next level was kind of inevitable here so the last topic you resolved: you brought Lilly back, ...and then...""“But other than that, she’s ours.” Kaleb smiled.“She’s ours.” Chase agreed as Kaleb pulled him into a tight embrace.“You’re the best boyfriend...” “Partner…” Chase corrected..... just perfect!! there's just one thing i guess i missed... before Chase and Kristin went to see Mr. Sweeney, Chase made one more call and asked a favor... what/who was this?? so i'm up to date so to speak and you made some special quality time for me over the last weeks! Thanks!!!

Good gracious girl, you are trying to kill me, aren't you??? sso Chase asked scott for help... well, i loved to read they got along that well and that Scott wants to help Kaleb. it looks like it's important for Chase that there are no hard feelings between them and Scott made major points in my book for helping them. i thought it was funny that Scott had to pointed out the consequences for Chase regarding Lilly. although it's Kaleb"s wish to foster her , if they are a couple it will affect him to:) i liked this conversation alot!! i liked that they renovate and furnished the apartment by themselfs... they are so cute together and you can tell that Chase will do everything to make Kaleb happy, and i just can tell Kaleb gets what he wants he's a smart one!! that last part though left me in tears...Kaleb passed every required request and i was so, so happy and than poor kaleb recieved this letter i hope i got this right, so Chase wanted to call Scott, but before hitting the talk button the phone rang and Scott called.. so Scott (hopefully) knows what has happened here and could Chase fill in. so i guess this is not Scott's fault here, at least i hope... so Chase is on a mission here, while his big brother takes care of Kaleb..awww... can't wait to find out what has happened here and how you are going to fix this.. because..seriously... poor baby:(.... have a great week !! hugs

aww can i have Carter please..lol??? he really is acting here like a caring, big twin brother. and his reasoning is so, so good .. he even convinced me.haha..although i have to admit i can, for a part, understand where Chase is coming from. i know it's selfish, but hey, he's in love maybe for the first time and he wants to show all these things to Kaleb.. so i give him credit for this. but Carter has a point here.. alll these things mean nothing to Kaleb, all what matters is Lilly and to make her happy. i'm glad though Chase has made up his mind and is going to support Kaleb, he has to be an attorney for some reason:) would jave like to see that scene, when Chase asked about the furniture...lol.. yes, there it was Kaleb..lol and than to see Helen at his apartment, hilirious.. Horace, well he made it to my heart.. he allows himself to change his mind, hearing Chase and Kaleb out about taking care of Lilly.. a very wise man!! i laughed so, so hard when Chase spoke about Carter and Helen rolled her eyes, with a ..oh, there's two of you...great scene!! so Helen, urgh.. i have no words for her and i really hate her. this has nothing to do with being a caring mother!! first she put Horace in the middle of this , wanting to take side between her and his son, that's mean.. and second i have a feeling i will not like what she is up to thanks and hugs Annette

wow, now you had to take it up a notch and throwing the big hunks in the ring:) so much was going on here and it's sheer impossible to not break my heart. Horace, Helen, Kaleb and Chase....umpf... i hope despite Kaleb's stubborness he can see that Chase" reason are totally different from what Helen is saying. ok, i say it again, i hate her. she should be proud of her son to take this step and go forward and built a life of his own. he isn't incapable to do this, even if she says this a hundred times more...and to say it's Chase"fault and that he started this by buying him a car, just proves how helpless and desperate she is... i liked that Kaleb dressed up for his announcement, it shows how important this is for him. i hope he calms down and knows he can rely on his boyfriend, no matter what! poor Horace:)...he has a lot to handle here and has his hands full. i like him and his advice he gave Chase. He knows Kaleb well.. so i'm curious.... ... this whispered"" is she black" comment was all it needed to describe Helen... hahahaha... thanks for a wonderful sunday:) <3

to see Kaleb with Lilly is so so adorable and balm to he soul ( do you even say this?). he's more to Lilly than a family can ever be. it's just right. i can understand , in a way, Chase hesitation and i can understand the selfish part here. it's all new for Chase. for the first time he feels comfortable and can be just himself ( he heard our conversation, right??lol) . but sometimes life is a bitch and won't let decide you. you have to take the chance or pass on it. and wow, what a great brother Carter is. i'm glad he is here and Chase has someone to talk to!! to give Lilly away broke my heart, but i guess i'm not the onlt one here it has to be incredible hart for Kaleb. for the last part i could tell that Kaleb had something on his mind.. he seemed so distracted... but wow, he got a place of his own, with nobody knowing... a big step.. but hey, it's Kaleb:) thanks for another fantastic chapter, and i have to admit at this point i'd have liked if Kaleb could keep Lillly. have a great sunday <3

had to read another one:) wow, a lot happened here i didn't see coming... i'm even more fascinated with the realtionship between Chase and Kaleb. you brought up so many issues here, about how to handle Lill's case and you did it with love, trust ans reasoning! a great combination. i was happy that Chase was going to keep his promises he made to Kaleb and didn;'t use this to just get into the nursery. he handled the situation not only as a attorney, but as a loving, understanding boyfriend. wow.. he came a long way here!!! loved your insight on life, regrets and second chances a perfect fit here.. and i stopped reading for a moment! i know Kaleb would make a great father (someday) and whereever you will take this i trust you with all my heart. because you handle things for a reason and with lots of love and dignity!! so i'm curious al always.. thanks for turning a shitty saturday ( b/c i'm still sick).. into a cuddly and warm one <3

yes, another great chapter ... had fun reading it!! i have to admit it bothered me a little that the conversation between Chase and Helen turned out to all about Chase to say i love you... i thought Helen with her issue was the bigger deal, but than, Helen is one smart woman and can easily bring a conversation to the direction she want. so Chase finally said it and the world didn't explode:) i totally dig the part about the journal and the explanation you gave( or Helen) was incredible smart and wise! Carter's and Kaleb's first meeting was funny, and i can't imagine who was bothered more..lol awww. Kaleb paid for the Halloween party and the costumes just to make the kids happy. here is it again. this special bond between Kaleb and those kids.and to make it clear not to scare them... he is so darn cute!!!the end though scared me and i have to read faster..lol.. thanks <3<3

Hi I'm back:) and started with this amazng chapter.. so much is going here! liked the first part . Kaleb and Chase seem so in tune and at ease when they are around eachother, it's fun to read!!loved the part about the coffe.. three scoops versus one.. haha.. but at least Kaleb is giving him this:) so Carter is back , hm... loved the realtionship between these two brothers. ...on a sidenote: had to laugh really loud about the part .....""if I was a horse they would have taken me out and shot me""", for a different reason, but still, i'm laughing. i really enjoyed the conversation between the brothers about Chase' relatonship. and it's so refreshing to read all the honest and ""from the bottom of his heart"" answers Chase give. he's so genuine with this , it's beautiful to read. and sometimes you really have to remind me that Kaleb has some kind of disability. and than there was the dinner.. wow... i loved how supportive Kaleb's father and brother were.. but that last scene with Helen left me shivering. to read about how disgusted she is by that lifestyle, made me speechless. i 'm curious about the answer to Chase" question.. you can have one withouth the other??"" yes, i would love to hear the answer to that..hmmm it's hard to make my ming up about Helen... here i really hate her and her speech about ""that disgusting lifestyle"!!!! thanks , as always Love and hugs <3 Annette

OMG, witnessing their first time was so beautiful. it was so special and precious and you just write it with the right amount of respect and love!! and yes Chase, this is what love feels like but i know it couldn't last, so yeah, welcome back Helen. she really should give Kaleb more credit. he even know beforehand that there was something up, just by eaiting Pizza..lol i don't like how she is traing Kaleb and the fact he's gay. it looks like Helen still has some problems with this, and added to that there's Chase. i loved how Kaleb defended Chase, and the fact they are lovers, but i hate that fact how Helen go to him and made hi upset. it was good to see Horace stepping in here and talking some sense into Helen. i'm still not convinced that Helen will let this go i love how natural Chase treats Kaleb.He totally trusts him with buying the car. this is so different from Helen's treating... so yeah, looking forward to Helen's opinion about the car, and let's attend this dinner party !!! Thanks again <3 Annette

aww.. what a great chapter and i'm truly happy i didn't have to wait too long for them both to clear the air:) it was kind of funny , yet worrying for me, to see Kaleb this calm and composed. i couldn't figure out what he was thinking, i guess the same went for Chase and it drove him nuts.but again you (and Kaleb ) surprised me once more with his explanation to not not make Chase upset or cause a scene in frony of everybody. this was just beyong awesome and thoughtful!! this one i loved most ""You're my boyfriend. I have to take care of you and a part of that is not embarrassing you in public, not to mention make me look like a fool.".. how i wish more people would act like Kaleb! the talk followed this was amazing! you put so much effort into this, with Chase open up and sharing his feelings, Kaleb being one smart boyfriend and very reasonable and saying i love you and not exoecting it to get it back,,, wow, i'm falling so hard for these two characters, and i could hardly tell, that Kaleb is one with a mental disability here. great job! than in two seconds flat i had to laugh so hard.. Kaleb pulling the Kamasutra out of his Spiderman backpack...and talking about that positions was a great scene too well, hello Kaleb...lol .. thanks for another fantastic chapter!! < 3 Annette

Hi, i'm back..* waves *, i waited for so long to finally find some time to get back here:) ..wow, this was some chapter.. enjoyed every minute here. i loved to read how this bond between Chase and Kaleb is growing. to see Kaleb handle these emotional and stressful situation warms my heart. he handled all like a real "trooper" , ( i like this image) just with being there for Chase. .. and than there was Scott and the repass dinner.. i loved that Scott helped there in the kitchen, but other than that is was plain out of line. this had to be one of the most painfully days for Chase and Scott has to put up a fight about Kaleb??, well again, this was low.. but i inwardly i had to smile here because Scott doesn't stand a chance agian Kaleb and he isn't even aware of this. Scott wanted to be cruel and hurt Kaleb in a way, but no such luck..lol.. Kaleb with just being his friendly and honest self, left Scott speechless and i was so, so happy, given the circumstances... i liked watching Kaleb with the kids too, and the talk between carter and Chase was beautiful ans well thought written... yes, Kaleb will be left with a beautiful soul <3 the end, well i didn't expect this to happen, but hey, it's Scott we're speaking of.. he just couldn't let go, right?? he had to take it up a notch by refering to Chase's career and what it would look like with a guy like Kaleb at his side.. again, zero points for Scott, it all sounded rather despairingly, his last ""ace up his sleeve"" and in a way i can understand Chase's reaction and the sarcasm. but of course the timing was off and i don't want to see the hurt in Kaleb's eyes, this has to hurt, it's his fear to only get used for his name but i have faith in you to resolve this situation.. Thanks <3 annette.. ( we def. have to talk about this story!!)

i had to read one more ..lol.. and what an amazing and intense chapter this is!! had to smile about the scene where Elizabeth met Kaleb.. from this first impression, backpack milk and crackers to offering how to cook..haha.. that Kaleb remembered all this detail Chase told him one, like his sisters name, the french toast casserole and so on, shows how great Kaleb is. he really listens to what Chase has to say and what is important to him. i was a little knocked down by Chase's reply to his sister about the boyfriend comment.. it's complicated.. hmm... this"" he asked me and i said yes,"" just feels that he don't know why he said yes in the first place. all the more i was relieved he introduced him to Carter as his boyfriend , without the lond version... and Carter, please meet Kaleb..haha the comment you look like him, only he's cuter was .. well just kaleb lol.. deal with it.. the scene when Chase introduced Kaleb to his father brought tears to my eyes.. i really loved that Kaleb took Chase to the nursery, life and death at close quarters. and kaleb amazed me again. his comment about his disability and that he wouldn't want that for his child was so mature and considerate..and so contrary to how he is treated (often) the scene at the hotel in the end was great.. it;s getting hotter between the two of them thanks for another great chapter <3 Annette

to see Chase in the hospital like that made me sad. this has to be hard. it was nice though to read his thoughts were with Kaleb. it's amazing to see how close they already are. it shows how much Kaleb means to him. Kaleb is indeed his sanctuary and the balance he's missing. and to call Kaleb shows this even more only Kaleb (or Kaleb's voice) could help him here. Kaleb, what an amazing boyfriend! he just knew Chase needed him and how he stood up against his mother was priceless. had to laugh about Horace's milk and cookie comment and about Kaleb's ""Yeah"" comments every time his father said something.. that was kinda funny, despite the situation. bust most of all i loved Kaleb's statement about why he loves Chase, and what Chase does to him, that he matters, his feelings matter.. that was one statement .. GREAT!!! i'm happy for now that Kaleb is with Chase, and help him through the rough time. thanks

evertime i see Kaleb with the babys it puts a smile on my face. he is so great and caring with them. he's better than some of the parents and yet, he is the one who gets treated like a child from his own parents i like how serious Chase is about the ""dating"" thing with Kaleb. he wants to get to know him better and he is patient and careful. sure it's different to Scott, but he is rewarded but this excitement of dating but come on, Kaleb has to be home by eleven ..urghhhh the Lunch date between Horave and Chase was unexpected but nothing but boring..lol.. you gave a few great topics out here, which i would like to discuss.. just a few ..first the insight on Kaleb's mom, the dealinf with missed placed guilt, and losing Kaleb almoet twice, while she was giving birth.. yes, i get to a certain degree that she's over protective... but still another great topic you pointed out is to deal with the honesty, or rather trust other people.. that's really something to think abour. Horace deals with this honesty every day, but he know what he gets.. with ""normal"" people thats different, well most of the time.. well all good thing come to an end, right.. so you give us a last scene with a homey Chase and kaleb but now it gets worse and i'm sorry for Chase's dad. i liked how protective Kaleb got here, he just wanted to help and be there for his boyfriend even if it's just to clean up..how cute.. i 'm a little sad to see them both so sad and unhappy and i'm curious where you take this ... Thanks you made a bad day better for me

i'm so in love with this story and especially Kaleb and Chase each character is great himself , but interacting as a couple is a tenfold increase i liked that Chase stood up against Helen.. what is wrong with her? it looked like she would to anything to destroy any kind of band that delveloped between Kaleb and Chase until now, just to get her point across Kaleb is not able to be in a relationship. The ""cold"" coming across here was palpable. to mention the money( again!!) and the newspaper with the photo was low. but than Kaleb entered the room and from this time i really had to laugh. his way of seeing things is refreshing and we all can learn a thing or two from him..lol how he reacted on the photo and the backpack (purse) remark was great!! touche..haha well the dinner went as expected for me..and you can learn for life: Honesty is the best policy.. i had to think alot about this and thought about situations in life..the all day compromise we made between being honest and to not want friends to embarrass... but this would go too far.. we talk later!! agian Chase acting here was great, you can tell he really cares about Kaleb. but the best thing is this is vice versa.. Kaleb , his choice of dinner , the jokes, the laughing and having ice cream, this all made Chase feel again. you could tell he really enjoys this ""lifestyle"" and doesn't need the "big partys". the kiss and the journal was the icing on the cake, and yes , best date ever have agreat sunday, talk to you soon

what a wonderful chapter. i'm happy you introduced me to the ""welcome to the Fitzgerald family dinner"" wouldn't miss one i felt sorry for Kaleb, at least from his family i would like to see them acting as "normal"as it can be. they should be the one that can easily deal and gauge up Kaleb. but Helen treated him like a five year old without necessity . until now all i see is a man, intelligent , kind and caring.. his disability may influence his life but to what degree?? all Helen sees is a boy, retarded and rich... a perfect prey.. so i give her that she's a mother , maybe to protect him but she could definitelt treated him better.. this brings me to Adam, what a wonderful brother. Scott, well that's different and to a certain extent i can understand his anger, he always wanted a relationship with Chase and for the both of them to be sucessful. Chase, to his honor, was always honest with Scott. to be displaced by Kaleb, whom Chase knows for one week, is hard nonetheless. but i guess this sentence said it all.. so i think this wasn't the last i saw from Scott ans Helen... bring on the date because i want for Chase to feel again and for Kaleb to be happy !! Thanks <3

wow, i have to say this came a little unexpected..lol don't get me wrong they are an adorable couple together but this easy going about the ""boyfriend"" thing from Kaleb's side is a little contrary to what i learned about Chase and there's Scott to mention. i truly think Chase is fascinated and maybe a little in love with Kaleb but Kaleb is sure different. Kaleb was so , so sweet here .the drawing was perfect, although i want to know why he draw himself as a Cheerleader ( a female ) but than he draw two boys kissing..awww and just plain asked Chase to be boyfriends,,haha it looks like Chase was just speaking without even thinking . i wondered a little about the Lunch scene. Kaleb had this all planned, so he had to think about this and make plans and he did great!!`he knew he had to act fast this shows a lot of independent and thoughtful acting. and him speaking french, aww... he is such a cutie. but i'm a little afraid too: it's easy to make Kaleb happy, but i guess it's equal easy to made him sad... i will see..hmm so Chase liked to keep his private life just that "private" i'm not so sure it will stay this way. so another great chapter and it get's more ""knotted up" thanks <3

Ahhh. everytime i got some time on my own it just draws me back here to this story.. you already have me captivated..lol.. this was a very significant chapter.. at least for me. it shoes glimpses of what we have to deal with getting involved with Kaleb and his family.. this sure is a handfull. i think Darla said it best..

yup i'm already back couldn't stop reading and i have a couple more days until i'm back at work... and it feels definitely like home again . i'm fascinated about this story and this chapter, you started with this great set up; it all fits together, the who's who, the champagne, the outfits, hors d'oevres,oysters and crab claws and the perfect take five serenade in the background. it's funny that i had the same thought as Chase during this. my mind went back to Kaleb, sittting with his lunch box, all food perfectly arrangend in front of him, his body swaying to the music from his ipod, happy and content. oh man what a difference . it's kind of ironic, that as much as Chase hates this "party" and don't want to be a part of it this is where he gets informations about the mental disease and even gets an offer on other doctors to help hi with this. and that Scott know Kaleb, ha this took me by surprise...and then the last part: i fell even more in love with Kaleb. he is so careful, loving and dedicated to this children and the daycare it's beautiful. and wow, Chase really has it bad. we don't know if Kaleb even is gay but he captured me with his smile too and i can;t wait to find out more about him! thanks for another great chapter and makinf my morning again a peaceful one