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I sit on the porch for another hour and a half. I haven’t dared go back into the house for fear of seeing Knox or Avery. They never came out. Carson came out briefly and hugged me again. She told me she loved me and that Avery was a bitch for what she did and that she half wanted to beat her up. But she was pretty drunk and stumbled back into the house after a while. Sara also came out and smoked a cigarette. She didn’t say much, only that Avery wouldn’t talk to her. She stared off into the blac

Thanks guys for writing here! Sorry I haven't said anything. I thought the system would alert me if people posted here, but it doesn't (or at least I don't know how to make that available). Haha- Jake won't escape so easily... Well, I tried to drop very subtle hints, but I guess they were too subtle. Sometimes it is hard for me to keep information within Caleb's very limited and biased first person POV without it becoming almost imperceptible. He only sees and understand what he wants, as we're coming to understand. Caleb sees the world and all the people around him in a way that may or may not be entirely factual. I think this can lead the reader to not always seeing things that are there, because something to Caleb may seem inconsequential or even opposite of it's intended meaning. This is one of the interesting aspects of this style, because the reader is totally limited by one character's interpretation of other character, events, etc. Thanks for reading and I hope you stay connected here. Please ask any questions you want! I'll check back more often, for sure. I do have another story I'm writing if you want to check it out. It's called "The Carrington Way" and you can find it here. It is very different from this story in terms of style (it's third person limited with two POV characters) and theme (not quite so focused on coming out), but it might be worth checking out.

Thanks, Bugeye. Caleb is both a challenge and a pleasure to write. A lot of his inner dialogue is based on myself and my on struggles at sixteen (The story is by no means biographical in any aspect, though.) I hope I can portray the confusion and beauty that this age can often produce.

Thanks for the review, even thought there are no words

By the time we got to the party, I was actually ready to get away from Jake. Ever since the kiss earlier he continued to act stranger as the afternoon went on. After we left my house, we went to his so he could change. His mother was home and I was forced to sit on the couch and watch episodes of Grey’s Anatomy with her. She was crying and it was awkward. When Jake came back to the living room, he was no longer withdrawn like he had been earlier. He was smiling at me, and even put a hand on my

Thank you for reading my story and being a faithful reviewer. It's people like you who have helped me reach that milestone.

That is a stupid rule The next chapter should be out shortly, so be looking forward to that! Master of Angst! I'll take it, haha. I swear, one day I will write a story that has minimal angst.

Yay! I am so glad this story finally got updated again! I love it! Keep it up, Krista.

You see, life sucks most of the time. You try and you try and you can never know which way is up. Are you in the right or are you terribly mistaken? Are you the problem or is everyone else? This whole shitload of feelings has really got me thinking like this. Am I the problem? Part of me says yes, of course I am. Because I could be so much better. I could do so much more to fix things that I’m just not doing. Everything is my fault and it’s up to me to fix it. But maybe not, maybe everythin

Thanks, it's been a fun 4 years, but I'm going to grad school, so not much relief yet. I am so thankful for your continued support of this story. Thank you for your kind words. Caleb continues to grow as the story goes on, and we'll see what's in store for him. Hopefully soon!

Thanks for the review. I appreciate your kind words.

I don’t know why I came here. I don’t know why I’ve decided to torture myself even more by sitting in my car staring at the Starbucks sign knowing Knox is inside waiting on me. But I did come. Maybe because I know everything is unraveling faster than I can figure out and after lunch today I am so confused that I think something like this might even help. Even if it’s a bad idea because I don’t know why Knox wanted me to come here. I have no idea what’s going on and that scares me because ev

It was meant to be surreal and odd. Knox's behavior was kind of the breaking point for the whole thing, and right now it's a mystery . Please do check out the new one. It's different than this one, but I think it will be enjoyable.

It'll be around soon

The school morning passes uneventfully. I feel empty and a little nervous, but that’s business at usual. Unless you count my incessant recounting of everyone I know’s possible reaction if I told them I was gay. I even made a chart in my Spanish notebook during third period. The columns have a plus sign, a minus sign, and a squiggly line that I decided means unsure. The plus column has Cassie, of course, and Carson, because I decided she would be an ally no matter what. I also put Kaitlyn an

Thanks for your review. I always enjoy reading your thoughts.

I'm glad you liked it

It’s Thursday. Which means I have to get up early and go to school for the FCA huddle meeting when all I really want to do is stay in bed all day going over and over that text Knox sent me last night. I didn’t respond. How could I have? What could I have possibly said that would have had any value without totally spilling everything I’ve tried so hard to contain? I knew it was a mistake when I sent him a text in the first place, but I did and now it’s all falling apart because I’m weak. I dis

Thanks for the review Lisa, as always. I struggled with juggling Cassie's age and insightfulness. I knew/know plenty of 14 year olds (heck, 20 year olds) that could never articulate or understand what she said, but I modeled her on at least two girls I know (well, knew, they're no longer 14) who were/are incredibly deep and insightful, even at 14. We'll explore more of Caleb's applied reaction to Cassie's advice, as well as be introduced more fully to his circle of friends in the next few chapters. But that's spoilers, so you'll have to wait for the next chapter!

I shouldn’t be like this. I’m lying in my bed and I know I shouldn’t be like this. Why can’t it all just be easier? Why couldn’t my life just be easier? But who am I trying to convince? My life isn’t so hard, not really. Wow, I’m gay. Whoop-dee-do. Millions of people in the world are gay and just fine, right? At least I’m not starving or being murdered in a war or being abused or something. I’m an upper-middle-class brat crying all the time because I’m gay and I don’t know how to deal with

Thanks Lisa! The next chapter is completed and should be up in the next couple of days, but I won't give any spoilers Also, thanks for the corrections. I try to find everything but sometimes I overlook mistakes, especially when the word I've written sounds like the correct word. I can't believe I made those mistakes in the first place though.

Hey guys! This is a thread that I am starting for discussion, comments, concerns, or whatever else for the story "That Feeling" that I am currently posting/writing. If you haven't read it, I think you should! You can find it here. Only one chapter is up now, but I have submitted chapter 2 for approval, so be looking forward to that. Thank you all so much, FS

If by Louisville, you mean Kentucky, it's pretty far. Haha. 9-10 hours through the Appalachian Mountains. But I have done it before, so that's a plus.

I'm glad you are enjoying it! I've posted chapter two, but it is waiting approval.

You're right. It's definitely not SOC a la Joyce of Faulkner (I would never even try to compare myself to them). But it is SOC-esque. Thanks so much for reading. (PS We could call it a Bildungsroman, but that may be too pretentious