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"Super awesome chapter" good enough review?

Ben Carter. The name sounds hot. so fitting! I must admit, I was expecting this very suicidal and distraught matt but he seems quite chilled. I suppose the operative word in that sentence is seems. Could be alot more to the picture. Oh well We'll see. The story is still young.

well that was a super awesome way to end such a tragic and heart wrenching story. JP deserves all that praise and so much more. Toasts to you and your team mark. Now I'm anxious as fuck about the next story. okay maybe shit scared but, we'll see.

wade and power are a match made in heaven. it looks good on him

Well sometimes you need to be harsh to get people to listen. Wally hopefully listened. So I'm assuming Gathan will end the rift between Wally and Zach. Tha would be cool. Chilled chapter. No drama. I hope the story ends off on this note. Like I said can the Matt issue be dealt with in the next story

Nothing harder then the end of what you were hoping would be a good thing. sigh... this has been a heart wrenching story and if Wade is moving on and trying to find happiness, I can only hope Matt will do the same. I'm just hoping that a year or two from now, no one regrets their actions. Keep em healing Mark, even if relationships are torn apart thanks for the chapter.

happy chapter. lets not ruin it with negative reviews. So I like what's happening, people are slowly starting to heal and I really would like it if the story came to an end on this note and leave the Matt thing for the next story, as worried as I am about him. okay back to keeping things light. Zach and JJ bonding? Love it!!! But here's an unimagineable thought: JJ and Gathan getting it on as heavy as Zach and Will, love sex and all. lol. dont see that happening though. I love the change in Brad. Weird how being a single parent made him more relaxed towards his kids when other parents would have acted completely differently. I think this is my favourite chapter from the story. Thanks Mark. However horrible the process might be, keep em healing.

I think what Matt needs now is someone from the family to sort of be there but not get too involved with him or interfere with the way he's handling things. That way if he does hit rock bottom he has a hand to reach out to as apposed to other alternatives like drugs, alcohol and sometimes even suicide. I dont know, personal opinion really. JJ has always been one of my favourites and it would be interesting to see how his relationship with brad improves or not as he hopefully starts dealing with this tragedy.

. I vote Matt. I'm disappointed (in him) and judging him hard right now because I don't get what he's going through and why he's reacting like this. Wherever Robbie's spirit is now, I'm willing to bet its restless and sick with worry.

I can just tell. by the time Matt 'wakes up', It'll be too late. He seemed so determined to fix things on sunday. What happened? Sigh... maybe he and some of the other hayes men should just gt written off. I only see a disastrous and painful end.

asking for permission to be optimistic that all wil be okay between Matt and Wade; and Matt and Will...

yep. sawit coming. it would have been weird for will to not fall hard for zach and vice versa. im just worried about the future of their friendship now and tony. Im scared this might make tony give up on the self work he's been doing lately cause, and I might be wrong, I think he's dedicating himself to it all in hopes of getting Will back. dear lord I hope I'm wrong. great chapter mark. thanx

I love Zach. He's being honest about who is. A good guy, with good intentions for himself and ruthless and selfish nature and that's just fine. I like people who are honest about who they really are. Not pretenders who will only dissappoint you in the end. I feel safe around people like Zach. So this chapter got me thinking. Had Wally and Clara been rich (well they are sort of now), dumb people; everyone would have found what Will said last week woul have been funny, but they are poor, so its not same. But it is the same. If you arent the brightest tool in the shed, no amount of money or lack thereof can change that. Thanx Mark

I always thought issues between Zach and gathan started later in their lives. like a bit before Gathan sort of 'raped' zach. Didnt know that they've had issues of trust before that already. I get that he feels threatened by Zach but damn. Anyway Wally, from what I saw with his interactions between him and robbie, seems like a man who regrets his mistakes once he realises them. hopefully that will be some consolation to Zach once Wally realises how unfair he has been to Zach, for a long time now. When all the money and material possesions are stripped off, we are all the same and hurt the same and feel the same and Ella is gonna realise that when shit hits her in the face but, in the spirit and memory of Nelson Mandela, we shall forgive and try to understand. Is it too early to say I'm proud of Zach? He's no saint and the role doesn't suit him but he is a better person then what he was. I hope Gathan sees that eventually cause his attitude is bothering me and I like Gathan. Thanx Mark

Didn't know such a study was done. I wonder why though (the white and black people thing). Anyway... Kudos to Will for helping John out, i doubt it was that hard *wink* for him though. Im so happy cody decided that he wants to be a part of maddy's life. Like I said I think he'll make a great father. The build up to Robbie's funeral is killing me. Thanks mark great chapter

JJ, I must admit, is my favorite character here and I enjoyed his POV. He's not as bad as people think he is just very misunderstood. "Make sure you all look sexy when you drop your kids off at school in the morning ladies and gentlemen; there's a new daddy in town and he's packing muscle and 8 inches of pure pleasure". I love Cody for deciding to take responsibility of Maddy and I think he could be a great father. He has a big heart, he's relatively loyal and dependable and not forgeting how easily he can read people; a talent that will come in handy when Maddy's a teenager and starts bringing boys home. So Mark I just had a nasty lil thought. *An hour or two with JJ and John all alone in a bedroom * thanks for the great chapter Mark

Brad will probably never stop loving Robbie but, the truth is ultimately the truth. No running away from it. I'm just glad we didn't witness a divorce between Brad and Robbie. So babsically Robbie was insecure because he felt like Brad was calling the shots and he (Robbie) didn't have that much say and Brad was insecure because Robbie wasn't stable and retaliated? Match made in Limbo bit, with a lot of love. That's why they lasted so long. deep down there was nothing but pure love there. I have to admit as much as I'm loving how Brad is drawing so much strentgh from Will, I can't wait to see how he deals with other two, individually. I'm gonna have a blast when it comes to JJ though that's still probably far in the story. Thanks Mark, this (for me) was probably the most important chapter in the story because it made me realise how we forgot all else and tend to focus on only the good of someone once they pass away, which isn't healthy. Great chapter.

You and this sexual healing concept mark... Lol! Good to see things are better between will and Marie as gay as I am that scene was sexy as hell! I think that if Cody wants custody of Maddy he should atleast be given a chance. He is a good guy and could be a good father, if given the chance (Should he want it of course). Thanks Mark, great chapter.

Things are starting to settle, though slowly and painfully, and emotions are gonna erupt hard! I wonder what's cody's opinion on the arrangements made for Maddy though I don't see him trying to revoke them. Brad is now a single Dad with three sons. I'm really interested in seeing how his relationship with Darius and JJ will evolve, especially JJ. Cried a little less on this one. The pain and realisation of the losses is growing but the chapters are easier to read thanks Mark!

Well Robbie would be happy that his sons are starting to truly bond. I cant think of any people that were more important in his life, besides Brad and his father, then will, JJ, Darius and Matt. I'm so excited about the growth we'll see from this family. This chapter really gave me hope. The sessien with the grief counselor shows how much healing is still required but like I said, it gives me hope.

Okay I must say they are getting easier and easier to read. I wonder if this trauma will spark a growth in JJ or maybe the events to follow will force that growth out of him e.g the way he has to start dealing with Brad etc. I feel terrible for Brad and the family right now. They are managing (for now) because everyone is still freaking out, its chaotic and they are in survival mode right now. When the dust settles... Sigh btw this manic posting is doing wonders for me. I have never seen such a reaction from readers at gay authors since... Well since never! Give yourself a pat in the back Mark!

What really really makes me happy is that all them (senator, Robbie and Jeanine) had in their own way been trhough hell and back but they died happy. I mean who wouldn't wanna kick the bucket after an orgasm?

hmmm... Cody and his little daughter. He's gonna have to be more responsible for her now. But, knowing Cody he might let the family adopt her. Not that that makes him a bad person really, just knows what he can and wants to handle. Then again this is Mark's world and clearly what he says goes. I have this image of this sexy god seeing his little girl off to school and I must admit its turning me on in a weird responsible daddy sort of way

Would killing tony really matter all that much? It would in a way force Will to realise just how much he still cared for him and might lift the sexual "spell" that Tony has cast on him. But, no more death please, atleast for another 3 maybe 4 chapters. Robbie's death still shakes us to the core