I guess I am very lucky. I started this story and after investing a bit of time into it I almost stopped reading it because it seemed that at first there just wasn't enough time in a week or energy in a person for this to resonate as true. Then with the sudden introduction of an Andy's ADD into the picture I almost closed it. I was like this is too much, but it was mentioned so infrequently it didn’t ruin it for me. BUT I am very happy I kept up with it. It has really really hit me hard. I am 41 and gay and mostly in the closet and have been alone since I could not get past my fear enough to date. I have never really given it too much thought after I made the decision that I didn't need anyone else. As I was reading this and thinking about my own problems and how much I am missing out in life, I decided that I can start working on myself again, I have to. I am also extremely lucky I did not have the agonizing wait for the conclusion of this piece of work. I can certainly see the growth in your writing and after I got past the first third I could not stop reading it. The connection between Andy and Matt was something I never thought possible and the way you described it was very touching. The current of their early bond flowing throughout the story and decision made so long ago that needed to address was over power at times. I was crushed at times reading it but it made me feel. I suspected at times throughout the work that this has to have some roots in truth, the pain and the love where too real to not have been genuine. Or you are just a fantastic writer. I know I am going to read this again after giving it a little time to dissolve into my psyche. Thank you, I hope this feeling of being awakened lasts and I can start moving in the right direction. I am now aware of how frozen in time in a self-made prison I have built for myself. I need to learn to let go of the fear, love myself and move forward. I guess a lot more reading and thinking are in my future. Oh and I love the Dandy Warhols, especially TTFNUB.
