Comicality

I had never kissed anybody before tonight. Something about it was so electric. So surreal. I kept trying to use enough of my practiced sense of teenage 'cool' to determine whether or not this whole experience was really happening to me...but my mind kept drifting off, mid thought. Carried away by the powerful current of untapped hormones and unexplored feelings within me. Dizzy. Lost. Swept up in the undertow of a moment for which I had no previous precedent.

MASTURBATION!!! Hehehe, why beat around the bush (pun intended), that's what we're talking about in this particular discussion. And as I've written into a story or two...there are two kinds of teenagers in the world. Those who masturbate...and those who LIE about not masturbating. ::Giggles:: So, feel free to wear a <I>furious</I> blush as you tell us, in detail, your thoughts about 'pulling the old hand brake'! When did you first discover it? Where did it happen? What do you think about? Do you do it to video pornography? Or maybe pictures? Or maybe to the gay stories you read online? Some people have a preference. Maybe you only did it when you were younger, or maybe you still do it to this day. Maybe you did ten minutes before reading this question! Or even better...ten minutes <I>after</I> reading this question! LOL! Most importantly, was there ever a time that you felt bad or guilty about it? Did you ever worry that you were doing it too much? Maybe for social reasons? Maybe for religious reasons? Hehehe...and just curious...ever been 'caught'? Whatever your thoughts are on masturbation, whatever you want to talk about, let us know in the replies below! There's nothing wrong with a little self love every now and then. So let's get it out in the open where we can talk about it! I'm curious to see where this goes! (Again...pun intended!) Have fun!

Discovered and supported by THE Elton John, this 14 year old boy just basically gave my story "Untouchable" a theme song! Hehehe! Anyway, amazing lyrics, AMAZING voice, undeniably handsome...I'm sure we'll be hearing more from him soon! Also...some context...

Mike84 shared this on the Shack board tonight, and I thought it was really sweet as well as informative. So give it a look. Awwww ((hugz))

If you haven't checked this story out yet...no time like the present! Let me know what ya think! https://www.gayauthors.org/story/comicality/shelter/

Sorry, I have been EXTREMELY busy or super exhausted because of work during the holiday season. Thanksgiving to Christmas is quite a draining stretch sometimes. But I've got today and tomorrow off, so I'm dedicating my evening to catching up on stuff as you read this. The Shack Out Back, believe it or not, is getting ready to go into YEAR TWENTY now! That's older than nearly half of my audience! Hehehe! Let's just say that I plan to celebrate! Anyway, I'm working on stuff now! I might be back periodically throughout the rest of the night, and I'll seezya soon! Happy holidays! ((Group Hug))

Sex! (Hehehe, that got your attention, didn't it?) Fun to read about, fun to think about, even more fun to actually <I>have</I> some when you get the opportunity...but, do you find it difficult to talk about? Openly? Honestly? Does it make you uncomfortable to approach the topic? Will you have to fight through personal obstacles just to answer this month's question? From what I remember through most of my life, sex has always been a very awkward situation when it came to just opening up and revealing your true thoughts on it. Clumsy for parents to talk to their kids about it. Religion is afraid to promote it as a positive thing. Schools have made it damn near <I>illegal</I> to educate kids about it for fear of making them promiscuous. Many people spend their childhoods thinking that it's some deeply guarded secret and mystery, something awful and deadly and disgusting and evil. How can that not linger into adulthood? What's so embarrassing about it? If you had a choice, what would you rather be doing than having hot passionate sex right now? Hehehe, seriously. It's easy to click a few buttons online late at night with your bedroom door locked. But in everyday life, online, or even here on the board where sexual questions and conversations are not only accepted, but are heavily <I>encouraged</I>...do you feel any hang ups about discussing it? Does it embarrass you? Does it make you feel dirty or naughty or like it will change the way people look at you? Give us your thoughts on this! I don't mind talking about sex myself, but it's not like I don't have limits. Hehehe! Sex makes a lot of people really NERVOUS. Why? It's the most natural part of human existence. It's the only reason we're still here as a species, so...who told you it was such a dirty thing to talk about? Chatter away!

This is it! The 12th community question for Imagine Magazine! Wow! You guys have been really awesome at answering these! I have to go to a long work day, but I haven't been to sleep yet! I'll get four hours in tops! Hehehe, but I'm feeling giddy right now! So let's get this week's question in your minds! SAFETY!!! We've all been taught that being sexually guarded is the way to go, right? That we need to be careful? That condoms were a must, as well as choosing partners that we knew well enough to not wiggle our way into a potentially nasty situation. Maybe even a DEADLY situation. However...sex is a 'thing', we all have moments of feeling invincible, and common sense doesn't always work against spontaneity and the heat of the moment. So I wanted to ask you guys... Can you say that you've ALWAYS been safe in your sexual experiences? Should you have? Do you have any regrets or any 'dodged bullets' concerning the idea? It only takes ONE mistake to alter the rest of your natural life. Just one. Give us your tales of condoms, safety, or lack there of. It's a discussion that a lot of people need to have, but it can be embarrassing for a lot of younger guys to talk about. Let's have the discussion for them instead. K? Tell us about your experiences buying, using, not using, condoms or other forms of protection while exploring yourself sexually. K? I'm intrigued as to what you have to say! I'll add mine soon as well. Don't feel embarrassed. It's an issue for all of us. K?

No worries. I had to leave my job and all my friends in Chicago to move down here to Georgia. So no Winter Christmas for me. I'll buy a few beers tomorrow and celebrate just the same. K? ::Missing Home::

I guess... I'll try harder. ::Shrugs:: People want more. The new stuff I'll be posting this week and next week will just have to be wasted. Who cares, right?

I always feel like I sound angry and oversensitive about stuff like this. I'm really not. I swear! I just want you guys to understand my side of things. I might write a full section on this for 'Imagine' for April or May of next year (I've been pouring a LOT of new material into that thing! Hehehe!) so folks can get a glimpse of why I do things the way I do. I mean... Ok...think about the clothes in your closet right now. How many shirts do you have? One? Two? If you had to guess...how many shirts would you say you have in there to wear? It's not just one or two, is it? You don't want to wear the same clothes every single day of your life. You don't want somebody constantly telling you, "Why don't you wear the white T-shirt again? And again? And AGAIN?" Because I don't feel like it today. Is that ok with you? Well, the number of stories that I have going on all at once works the same way. Maybe you wake up tomorrow and you decide to wear a red shirt. Maybe you feel like wearing blue. Maybe you decide to wear all black. It depends on how you feel on that particular day. You fill your closet up with a variety of clothes so that you have an open 'choice' depending on how you feel and what you want to wear. The stories are no different. I write what I feel. It's honest. I don't fake it for the sake of pleasing an impatient audience. I please the audience by giving them the truth about who I am and what I'm feeling. I tell stories that relate to what I went through growing up and my understanding of life in general. When I wake up in the morning, depending on my feelings, or the day I've had, or the problems I'm dealing with, or just a horny itch that I want to scratch, hehehe...I have different stories that I can pour those emotions into. I don't write 'happy' stories when I feel like shit. I don't write depressing chapters when I'm feeling goofy and fun. That would be fake, and you guys would be able to tell immediately. I'd much rather have people wait a while longer than post something fake and rushed and written under pressure so everybody can get online and tell everybody how much it sucked. I worked too hard to get the stories where they are to screw it all up now. I don't think that people realize that the very REASON they read my stories and want more is because I'm sooooo emotionally connected to every word that I write. Mistakes and all. But in order to maintain that emotional connection, I have to write the stories *MY* way. I mean...ugh...does that make sense to you all? I can't *DO* this YOUR way! Your way is not what made these stories what they are. And it may be frustrating for you guys to wait, I get that. But this is what it takes for the stories to come out the way they do. This is why you bother to read or care about the stories at all. So, are you going to cheer me on and enjoy the new offerings, or are you going to slow down the process by attempting to control something that you simply CAN'T control. I can't control it either. You can only hurt or anger me by trying to push harder or ask more of me than what is humanly possible. I write every night. Seven days a week. There is no 'eighth' day! This is all I have to give you. I'm sorry, but it's true. I'm not a soulless computer. There's an actual human being on the other side of your laptop screen. I'm not going to force myself to ruin the reputation I spent nearly 20 years building from the ground up just for the sake of rushing to put something lame out there. I just won't. Please stick with me, k? I've written a TON of new stuff! I JUST started posting new chapters every few days. Three in the past week. "Waiting Outside The Lines" is up. "Billy Chase" is up. A new short story called "Photos Lately" is up. ENJOY them! More to come! Check back tomorrow! And Wednesday! And Friday! And Sunday! Give me a chance. I just re-balanced my whole life in the real world to come back and resume my dedication to you guys. I was hoping you'd all be EXCITED about the new stuff getting posted! Not upset. Anyway, thanks again. I hope you guys can understand me on this. All I hear is what people 'want' from me. But they can't enjoy or appreciate what I've just done. I just want people to be fair to me. Remember...if you think this is easy, my chapters usually clock in around 3500 words. (Billy Chase chapters are usually half that) Come up with an idea, and try writing one yourself. Then continue, every week, for a month. See how well you do. Who knows? Maybe you can do it better than I can. Which would be awesome!

Thanks, you guys, for your input. I can't do any better. I can't expel any more energy, I can't exhaust myself any further, I don't have any more hours in the day. All I can do is keep writing and have you guys choose to come by at your leisure to see what's new. Nobody can FORCE me to write for the site any more than I can force them to comment and review the chapters I put out there for free. So...'give something, get something'. You'dbe surprised how many people forget their half of that very SIMPLE equation. I appreciate the feedback. I just want to make sure that I'm not CRAZY and pissing everybody off with what I do online? I have feelings too. I'm just trying to entertain you...

<p> Now...this was a comment made about the "Billy Chase" series last night, and I'm not taking any offense to it. I just want to know what you guys think as readers and fans of the series. It has been a long long time, and you guys know how hard I work to keep Billy's life, his attitudes, and his approach to problems that he's never dealt with before as a 15 year old boy, as realistic as possible. He's not an idiot, but he's not a super genius either. Billy is supposed to be your average teenager, trying to navigate life as best as he can. Period. Now, I only have one life experience to draw from, personally. I was a shy kid. Insecure. Boy crazy at times, but I'd like to think that I had some heart in the way that I dealt with things. And I'm constantly trying to instill those values in the characters that I create. But...when I'm busy or exhausted, it does take me a really long time to get new chapters out. And in this 'Netflix Binge' era...I can't ever hope to keep up with the demand of folks looking for an 'ending'. Imagine if someone had bought the first <I>Superman</I> comic book nearly 80 YEARS ago, saying, "When is this story going to be OVER already???" Yikes! Sucks to be that guy! LOL! Anyway, this was the comment: <b>"You know I love your writing, however, are these people intellectually challenged? Can they not make rational decisions or work through anything logically. I know even adults cannot do that a lot of the time. But really, both Billy and Brandon are smart-- why do they make things so hard? I'm getting tired of this dragging out. The whole Jimmy thing is just an irritation that will never end, he lost all credibility. Why do they all use the phone so much when trying solve problems. The face-to-face is so that they cannot just hang-up on you. The short chapters are a killer-- nothing gets done. I'm about willing to pay to get to the end of the story quickly. There are too many stories in progress. How about a schedule of which story get a new chapter next. I really do appreciate you."</b> I doubt this was meant to be mean. It brings up some points that I want to know about. I want to hear from you guys. Everything doesn't have to be positive 100% of the time. Let me know. Is this story going in the wrong direction? Are you aggravated by the pacing? Are things not moving fast enough. I mean, every chapter is just one 24 hour period. One day in the life of a teenage boy. He's 15. Please keep that in mind. Still...it's a fictional story, and it's meant to be entertaining. Not frustrating. So if there's something that <I>truly</I> bothers you to the point of tearing your heart out from week to week, please let me know. Either here or in a private email. I want to hear what you have to say. That does not mean that I'll feel insulted by anything you have to say. Nor does it mean that I'll cave and do things your way instead of mine. Because if you guys knew how to write the perfect story...you'd be writing it yourself. But I'm always interested in what you all have to say. K? You guys KNOW that I always write every word from the heart. These stories are a direct and honest reflection of who I really am as a person. I don't expect to please everybody, but I also don't want my emotions to get in the way of writing a competent story for others to enjoy. Anyway, let me know what you think down below, or send me a private email at Comicality@webtv.net if you don't want your comments to be made public. K? Also, this is JUST about the "Billy Chase" story itself! K? Don't go into attack mode! Hehehe, it's ok. This is someone who's been a faithful reader, and I welcome his input. Just as I do yours. So let's stay focused, k?

Hehehe, too late. I really do want to hear more about this, though. I didn't include a name though. I just...I don't get it. I'm desperate to understand the frustration. Maybe I'm out of the loop on this one.

Well, I'm not sure what the answer would be. Hehehe, if you were writing this series, what would your solution be? Would you mind if I quoted this on the Comicality Café so some other folks could chime in on this? I'm sure they're just as frustrated and angry as you are. But...if you add up every single "Billy" chapter from the very beginning, you're talking about a 14 year old boy who has been dealing with his sexuality for a year and a half. To me, Billy has come a LONG way and matured a lot since that first chapter. But I can't promise to rush and hurry and have him reach adulthood in a three chapter arc. I mean...what part of the story is it that you're looking to hurry up and reach? That happily ever after? I can do that on Wednesday. "Everything turned out great, they talked, made love, and they lived happily ever after." Done. There ya go. You can move on to the next story now. Anyway, let me know if I can quote this post. I'd like to hear some more opinions on this. Just for perspective's sake. K? Thanks for the comments!

A brief moment of adult content in this one. So...buyer beware. Nothing pornographic or anything, but, a little naughty. K?

There have been a few times in my life where this has happened, and I wasn't freaked out by it. But it did me feel as though I was on display for that particular person. And sometimes I felt awkward about being too friendly for fear of having it misinterpreted as something else. But I found it flattering. Why feel awkward about it? I had a best friend from when I was younger that I had sex with on a few occasions, which was fun and all...but it ended up being the only thing he wanted to do whenever I came over. It may sound silly now, but I kind of wanted my best friend back. I wanted to play Nintendo and read comic books and watch slasher flicks on VHS. So that infatuation eventually led to the end of our friendship. Not in a bad way, we just grew apart. But that would be the extent of me feeling weird about someone having a crush on me. I guess it falls somewhere between the possibility of hurting them and the possibility of leading them on when I don't mean to. Other than that...you can stare at my ass all you want! Hehehe! I'm proud to have a positive effect on people, even though I might be shy about a lot of things, you never know. I might develop a crush myself. Hehehe! In which case...you should run away! Trust me, I'm no good for you!

This is a question that I've asked from time to time whenever the issue came up in conversation, but I'd like to get a bigger answer from you guys who might not have replied n the past. Might as well add it to the magazine! So here goes: Imagine that someone that you don't have any real feelings for or any relationship...maybe even someone you barely know at all...decided they had the hots for you. They could have picked anybody, but they chose you. And their crush exists whether you return it or not. How does that make you feel? Now don't bother saying, "I'm old and ugly and stupid and no one will ever want me," because that's just not true. Everybody is somebody's dream boy! And pessimism is unattractive, so...focus! Hehehe! If you knew that someone was seriously interested in you, how would you react to that? Does it make you uncomfortable? Do you feel the need to return those feelings? Maybe you like it! It makes for one hell of an ego stroke, doesn't it? Are you shy about it? Do you find a sense of humor about it? Do you rush to tell them you're not interested so they can stop? Or maybe you think it's harmless and keep from mentioning it. Some people are truly <I>flattered</I> by the idea of having someone else find the beauty in who they are. Then again, some people are creeped out by the fact that some stranger might be stroking himself silly to thoughts of you naked every night before bed! There's a wide spectrum of feelings there. I was just interested in your thoughts on this. And remember, we're not talking 'sexual harassment' here. No inappropriate touches or dirty comments, nothing like that. This is just someone that thinks you're really cute, and a good person, and they chose you to be the object of their affections. Let us know what goes through your heart and mind in these situations! Inquiring minds want to know!

Enjoy, folks! Let me know what you think! https://www.gayauthors.org/story/comicality/thesecretlifeofbillychase9/

Tuesday - Nothing makes a teenage boy more uncomfortable, more insecure, than yet another red blotch on his face! I sear to GOD, it wasn't there last night! This one is on my forehead, just above left eyebrow. But it's too far over for me to, like...effectively comb my hair over it. What the hell is going on? It doesn't hurt yet, but I saw it in the mirror this morning and I can feel the emerging 'bump' of this newborn zit as it proudly stuck out against the normal color and ton

Thanks! And no worries. That laptop issue was at the beginning of the year. And donations from the fans fixed it almost immediately! So the last six months have been a true blessing! And that's kept me going! The "Too Cute" post? Did I miss one? Hehehe! I'll check later on tonight! Cool?

Imagine Magazine is still accepting short stories for aspiring authors looking to have their work promoted and showcased for the masses! It's something I truly believe in, and if you're looking to gain a larger fanbase, I want to help! Cool? BIG thanks to those of you who have sent stuff in for the January issue! We've got some really cool stories that surprised me! MasterM is our featured author for January, so interview questions are coming your way soon! And we are always accepting more exclusives from you guys! Add your sites, stories, social media info...and let's make superstars out of you all! As for Imagine Magazine's short stories, I've written a BUNCH of them, to be released once a month, for the rest of 2018! These are the kind of stories that we're looking for: https://www.voy.com/17262/25522.html Cool? Enjoy! Let me know what you think! And if you're interested of adding your two cents in, whenever the muse moves ya...drop me a line at Comicality@webtv.net! This has been MONTHS in the making, so jump in as soon as you can! Now then, the new story! Hehehe, and let me get back to work! https://www.voy.com/15900/1/88874.html

THANKS, Lamps! And don't worry! I didn't abandon "Savage Moon", promise! Hehehe! I've been turning the chapters into ebooks and practically rewriting them from scratch to make a better version out of the chapters I have written so far! So I'm just waiting for the rewrites to catch up to the current new material so everything matches up in a decent way! I'm also doing the same with "Gone From Daylight" (Which, if you haven't checked it out yet, it might get you through your "Savage Moon" withdrawal for a while. Hehehe) Anyway, thanks again! The compliments make me giggle and dance and work even FASTER! So look for something new soon. K?

Thank you guys SO much for giving me some breathing room while spending the last 6 weeks or so getting familiar and straightened out with a brand new job, as well as setting up stuff Imagine Magazine in 2018! I sincerely appreciate your patience! Now then, let the festivities begin again! A new "Waiting Outside The Lines" chapter brings Evan back to his sweetheart, Greyson Chance! Check it out, and let me know what you think!!! https://www.gayauthors.org/story/comicality/waitingoutsidethelines/ Enjoy!