Comicality

Hehehe, you guys certainly know how to apply the proper salve to a wound. Thank you. ((Hugz)) Now I feel like a brat that got to have his ice cream for breakfast. Tempermental Comsie...

Might as well have a bit of Halloween fun before the holiday hits us! Hehehe, definitely worth a few laughs! This one definitely made me giggle out loud! A couple of times, actually! Brilliant way to handle a bully! https://youtu.be/Vj9UYy654Eo Smile for me, k? Life is good...even when it's not.

I truly, TRULY, appreciate all of your comments on this! Oh God, I'm so happy that I don't just sound like some raving lunatic when I talk about this. Thank you for letting me know that I'm not totally crazy or being oversensitive when it comes to this kind of thing. I understand that you just have to ignore certain comments from certain people, and brush it off of your shoulder so you can keep pressing forward. But this is a growing TREND in people in general, and it has to stop. People consume soooooo much that they're draining their creative resources dry. And they don't even have the common courtesy to say thank you when they're finished. That's so wrong. It's disrespectful to think that people have forgotten what a 'gift' is. Please don't think that I want 150 responses to every chapter I post online. That's not necessary. I've said many times in the past that if I get FIVE reviews out of 200 people...I'm doing GREAT! That's enough to keep me grinning from ear to ear for the rest of the week. I don't mind people appreciating the stories from the background. It's totally cool to be a lurker, or to enjoy the stories from afar. I understand. Some people get busy, some people get tired, some are just 'internet shy'. There are a million reasons not to be vocal about every story you read, and that's fine. But what really bothers me when people are too busy, too tired, too shy, too uninvolved, to give any POSITIVE feedback...and yet have all the time, energy, and courage, in the WORLD when it comes to complaining about not having enough. All of a sudden, these people bloom and send rants about me not putting in enough work. Not being kind to my readers. Not caring about my fans. Letting everybody down. What are they TALKING about? I've made posts on this forum just DAYS ago! I'm on the Shack almost every day! I just released "Final Hour" as an ebook as a memorial to a friend of mine who committed suicide when he was only 17! I just put out a new chapter of "On The Outside" on MONDAY! What do they have to complain about??? I don't understand. I'm CONSTANTLY adding stuff to the site. And if I've been absent for any length of time, instead of asking if something is wrong, or if I'm hurt, or sick, or DEAD...their first instinct is to yell at me as if they can 'shame' me into putting out more new material at a faster rate. It sucks. They have no idea how much it sucks to put two or three hours of hard, emotionally draining, work into a new chapter...and then go to my email and read that shit. It makes my whole night feel wasted. People who barely speak up to give me a single word of encouragement think it's a 'threat' to tell me they're not going to read or support me anymore. How is that any different from what they're doing now? They don't give anything back at all...so, like Heath Ledger's 'Joker'...they have NOTHING to threaten me with! Nothing. What is it about them that I'm going to miss when they never gave me any support to begin with? The whole idea is ludicrous, and I'm tired of being treated like some loser who fell asleep at his desk during work hours. I've been working my ass off on a massive Halloween update for the site, and already planning more for Christmas. If angry people could just be angry and leave me alone...the rest of us can have a PARTY in the next two weeks! Instead, I'm pissed and borderline depressed and too frustrated to write creatively without this bullshit seeping into every word that I type on the screen. so...you know...thanks. I know what it's like to pour every bit of your heart into something special and not have anyone notice. It hurts. And while my own reviews have fallen waaaay behind (I like to be really thorough with the story reviews I put on the Café), you can go through this message board right now and see that I stepped out of the way and made a real EFFORT to review stories by other authors too. I stop by the GA chat when I get a chance. I try to add stuff to the anthologies here and premium content. I use Imagine Magazine to give other writers some exposure too. I believe that artists should be appreciated and supported at all times. I can't be everywhere at once or add more hours to the day, but everybody who's passionate about what they do should be able to take center stage and get rewarded for the effort they put in. Haters are a dime a dozen. But I'm being serious when I say that all writers get sometimes is hate or silence. And sometimes the silence is worse. It's just something that has to stop. If we don't cherish our artists, then we are destined to lose them. All of them. You'll be surprised how HARD I have to work to get a few people with some really good ideas to actually sit down and write something incredible for you guys to read. And after all the pep talks and support that I give them...they make the post and get excited to see what'll happen...and it gets ignored. By not supporting them, you've lost the next great internet author. The stories you love that just stopped in the middle and never continued...? Lack of support. We spoil the formula by not taking the occasional moment to say thank you, and yet taking every opportunity to scream "HURRY UP! I WANT MORE!" It's just something to keep in mind. Because, I for one, am sick of it. And I stand by any other author who's sick of it as well. It takes so little to make the effort worth our time. SO little. You have no idea. Anyway, sorry for rambling. I know that I'm sounding all bitter and mean again. I just know that if you don't say anything, the abuse continues. This is something we all need to change. Me included. I support GA and it's authors because I believe in everything that they do here. I believe in you guys. And you've given me enough entertainment to last the rest of my life. Why WOULDN'T I take a few minutes every couple of days to support a website that I love? Why not do my part to keep it going? Why not encourage the writers I love and respect instead of complaining and tearing them down? It just doesn't make any sense to me at all. Protect what you love. The moment you take a site like this for granted is the moment you lose it. It's too late to cry about it then. Love you all. I'll put my happy face back on. K? Promise. (( Hugz ))

Despite a lot of harsh criticism over the years, I'd like to think that I've developed a thicker skin since I've started writing. But I will admit...there are times when I get hurt to the point where I just don't see why I keep going. Why this is even worth my time anymore. I'm starting to realize that some people will never be happy with what I do online. And...it only takes one or two voices to destroy an artist from the inside. I just wanted to write. To entertain. And I get bashed and battered and insulted for it, but I keep trying to be the best I can be. Sometimes...the selfish people win. They try to tell me how to do what I do and instruct me on how to give up even MORE of my life for their benefit...even when they give so little in return. And yet, I protect them. Like an IDIOT I let them humiliate me...but I don't want them to be subjected to the same harsh ridicule that they put me through. I'm not 21 years old anymore. But I'm online every day. I've given all I can give. And for some...that's not enough. We live in an age where people want to DEVOUR fucking MONTHS worth of work in a matter of hours and get MAD at the creators for not giving them more. I've been abused for half my life...nothing hurts me more than having someone tell me that I'm STILL not good enough. Listen...if anybody here wants me to go away...then I'll go away. Maybe it's time for the next internet writer to come forward and step into the spotlight. I'd welcome that with open arms. But these...'people'...want me to believe that I take too long between chapters. They tell me that people are boycotting everything that's not finished. That they've 'given up on me'...even when I've never given up on them. they want me to believe that the fans share their point of view, and that I am no longer relevant because I tell as many stories as I do. Many of them in progress. Listen, I won't feel bad if you decide that you want to move on. Promise. I just want to know. Is 'Comicality' no longer something that you look forward to? Are you done with me? I'm not going to stop writing. I'm riding these stories out to the bitter end. And despite what a few selfish brats tell you about the work that I've done, they're so busy focusing on the gap between chapters that they totally DISMISS the fact that I've been loyal and true to these characters and these stories for nearly 20 YEARS now!!! The forget that! They don't tell you that part! Because they fucking spit in my face and demand an immediate ending. They can't get what they want all at once, so they throw a childish tantrum and expect me to jump whenever they bully me into thinking they won't read anymore. Then stop reading. I implore you...if you're going to treat me or any other author that way...please stop reading. you are the bane of our existence and the reason that we, as artists, can't create the tapestry of amazing work that we want to create. It is your hurry to burn through everything in a day and your pointless rush to return to fucking BOREDOM and future complaints that there's nothing else for you to absorb like a leech with a tapeworm that keeps your creative minds feeling unappreciated, exhausted, and void of inspiration to every write another word for you ever again. so, strictly off the record...have any of you given up on me? Is that where we are? Does your need for constant free entertainment overpower your need to see me as human? Is the wait too long, when 'waiting' is all you have to do to reap 100% of the benefits of my hard work? Are you 'disappointed' in me? Will you abandon me because what I do is not enough? I'd really like to know. If you think I'm a bad writer or that I don't care about my fans...you're more than welcome to say so. no hard feelings, I swear. But after the bashing and the rudeness and the bullshit that I've had to endure over the past 18 years of me doing this, I would seriously like the people who send me this garbage to stand up and EXPLAIN (In a public forum) what the fuck it is that they have to complain about. Because, despite the long hours and hard work that I put into these stories, I have worked hard to keep them as free and as available as fucking OXYGEN! So please...let me know what I'm doing wrong. I'm listening. What the hell are you bitching about? I'm online EVERY damn day! Ask yourselves what you're asking of me. And when I ask you to balance things out by giving a fuck about my website...are you willing to meet me half way? If not...then SHUT UP! Never ask more of another person than you're willing to do yourself. It's FREE! It's here for you're enjoyment. And if you're upset with me and don't want to read my stories anymore...then that sucks. But I wish you the best. Don't TELL me about it. Just fucking go away! It's not like you cared about me in the first place. Just leave. I don't need to hear about it. If you don't send me an email, or participate on the boards, or go to the chatroom, or contribute to Imagine Magazine, or leave me any reviews on my stories...then you don't give a shit about me anyway. How am I going to miss you when you're gone? Fuck you too! I love what I do, and I'm passionate about it. I'm going to give you my best EVERY single time! You have my word on that. But I EXHAUST myself for my art, and a bunch of people don't give a shit. If you're one of those people, that's fine. Read. Enjoy. I love the audience and I wish you the best. But don't you DARE fucking 'complain' when you haven't given me an ounce of support to warrant you getting an attitude with me. My fans aren't disappointed or losing interest. they stand by me and keep in touch on a regular basis because they care about somebody other than themselves. They ENCOURAGE me to keep writing and ensure that more chapters will come along in the future. To you folks who want to make demands and threats and think you can BULLY me into working faster...just know that I don't ever have to write another fucking word on this website for as long as I live. I would LOVE to toss up a middle finger and get back to living my life instead of playing the court jester for a bunch of control freaks who don't appreciate it. You want me to shut this shit down...? Keep treating me the way you're treating me. But if you want more quality content and me working at the best of my ability to finish off these stories and build the legacy that I've been planning for years now...then just relax. And one day, you'll be able to click a button and get my heart and soul delivered to you, free of charge. All I ask is that you not be an ASSHOLE to me!!! How hard is that? Take your frustrations out on somebody else. Stop making me the scapegoat, or I swear to God, I'll stop writing forever and quit giving a fuck about ALL of this!!! How's that for a threat? Calm the fuck down and leave me alone! If you don't have something nice to say...don't say anything. Have some class.

Thanks soooo much for taking a few spare moments to contribute to the magazine! I'll have to modify a few answers (Only because you guys had a back and forth conversation and I'm not sure if I can include the pictures in the article...but I'll be working things out soon!) Thank you so much for helping out! You guys made all of the effort worthwhile!

((Hugz)) He would have liked this a lot. Thanks, M

Thanks, you guys. I think I needed that today.

...The biggest fear I have is death, I think. Not just my own but of the people around me that I care about. It's weird, because I'm the biggest horror movie fan in the world but that's a total separation from the reality of the situation. I remember being pretty young and was basically just starting to understand the actual concept of death and what it was, and (without going into much detail) there was a situation with my father where I actually thought that I was dead. I freaked out. No more toys, no more friends, no more Mom...all gone in an instant, forever. And to this day I fear that I won't live to a ripe old age. Or that I'll never be able to accomplish everything that I wanted to accomplish, or that there are people that I never get to say goodbye to. The idea that the people I love most could just suddenly not be there anymore...it's always been something that worried me. The second thing is total exposure. I'm guessing that it's a feeling that's steeped in fear, but it mostly just really gets under my skin and bothers me intensely. I've never been a 'full disclosure' kind of guy. Some people are, and God bless them for being able to do that. But I'm a private person. There are things that I keep to myself. There are conversations that were only intended for one or two people exclusively. I have secrets. Nothing shocking or explosive. I mean, it's not like I've got bodies hidden in my basement or anything. I just feel that cold information without context is a bad thing. Cold facts can explain themselves. Words can be misquoted, ideas can be misrepresented, personalities can be misjudged. There are things that I can talk to you guys about that I don't want to share with my mother. Family stuff that I can talk to my mom about that I don't want to share with my boss at work. Work related issues that I don't want to share with friends I went to high school with years ago. Which is why Facebook doesn't really appeal to me that much, because there isn't much that I can talk about that I want EVERYONE in my life to know outside of sharing a cat video or some music. So I guess I have a fear of not being able to be to maintain a sense of discretion or privacy when I need to. People try to force their way into your life sometimes. You can be Googled, you can be tracked, your emails can be read, your chat logs can be recorded, your silly Youtube videos that you made when you were 12 will still be around when you're 60. Your computer knows every site that you visit, where you're came from to get there and where you go when you leave. I was looking at PORN once, and underneath the video was a comment box with a personal Facebook profile attached! (What the...? Who shares their porn habits with everybody on Facebook???) Anyway, I grew up hiding stuff at home, hiding my sexuality, hiding my attractions when I got older and my desires err...didn't, and plus I think it's just a matter of class to not spit out every thought in your head at the feet of everybody around you. I'd rather people come to me directly and ask so I can either give them the proper context for the info given, or simply say 'that's private' and leave it at that. People swapping my private details and gossip or seeking me out without my permission is something that grates on me pretty quickly. Anyway, those two things are the biggest for me. Oh, and insects! All insects! I'm not really afraid of animals so much. Not even snakes or lizards or wild dogs or any of the scary ones. But spiders and roaches and mosquitoes and stuff? No way! Souless creatures, insects! SOULESS! Hehehe!

Quite a few years back, on this very night...I lost a close friend of mine to suicide. He was only 17 years old, and I saw him just hours before it happened. Every year, the Shack takes out some time to remind people that they are loved, that troublesome times don't last forever, and that sharing a bit of our light with someone else costs us nothing at all. A small tribute to 'My One Fallen Angel' is here - https://www.voy.com/15900/80777.html No matter where you are, take a moment and let somebody know that you care about them. Don't wait. You'd be surprised how many people need to hear that from time to time. Love above all things, always, Comicality

Quite a few years back, on this very night...I lost a close friend of mine to suicide. He was only 17 years old, and I saw him just hours before it happened. Every year, the Shack takes out some time to remind people that they are loved, that troublesome times don't last forever, and that sharing a bit of our light with someone else costs us nothing at all. A small tribute to 'My One Fallen Angel' is here - https://www.voy.com/15900/80777.html No matter where you are, take a moment and let somebody know that you care about them. Don't wait. You'd be surprised how many people need to hear that from time to time. Love above all things, always, Comicality

Now, I realize that I asked this question a few weeks ago over on the Shack board, but I was stuck in 'crisis' mode at the time and couldn't really keep up with it as much as I wanted to. So, I'm giving this another shot tonight, and hopefully we can get enough answers to use for an article in the newest Halloween issue of 'Imagine Magazine' (https://imagine-magazine.org/releases/)! If you have a moment and want to add your two cents to the next issue, be sure to answer in the replies below! If you guys already left an answer the first time around, no need to answer again! I read them all, so I'm holding on to those! Cool? All posts must be in by this coming Friday! And this month's issue will be released on Oct. 30th! Thanks in advance! And I'll seezya soon! Be sure to check your closets for monsters before you go to bed tonight! There are MONSTERS in there! GAY monsters! Hehehe!

Enjoy! And if you get a chance, let me know what you think! https://www.gayauthors.org/story/comicality/ontheoutside

Hehehe, actually, this is just a test run and some highjinx for now...but who knows? Imagine the possibilities of a "Billy Chase" animated series in the future! Are ya smiling? Cause I am! Hehehe! Be sure to read up some more on this ambitious project and MANY more like it in the "Branching Out" article of the newest issue of 'Imagine Magazine'! (https://imagine-magazine.org/releases/volume-31/) There's much more to come soon! So stay tuned! (Hehehe, I added the audio as a joke, to see what it would look and sound like. But it was just a tongue in cheek moment. Hope it makes you smile) [media]https://youtu.be/zV-4twbsj-E[/media]

Hope you guys like it! Feel free to let me know what you think! https://www.gayauthors.org/forums/story/comicality/leftwithoutwords And don't forget to grab your copy of "On The Outside" (Book One) in the Comicality ebook section! http://www.imagine-magazine.org/store/comicality

"Left Without Words 6" It was that tightness in the center of my chest that kept me from speaking. Not one intelligent word could fight its way to the surface. And yet, the bubbly joy inside refused to be kept silent for a long enough period for things to become awkward. If nothing else, I wanted to keep Deme talking for the simple gift of hearing him speak. The fact that he spoke any words in my direction at all was a blessing, and I cherished every euphoric moment of it. And yet...I was

So be sure to check it out, and let me know what you think! https://www.gayauthors.org/story/comicality/shelter Also...if anyone had trouble finding the "On The Outside" ebook on Amazon, I posted all the appropriate links for your area of the world on the forum! I'm super sorry about that! You can find the links here: http://www.voy.com/15900/80320.html Enjoy!

Chapter 6: The Kiss & The Coming Storm Was it my muscles that were trembling with this much activity? Or was it the pounding vibration of my over-excited heart that was doing that, shaking like an out of control jackhammer in my chest, rattling my bones until I could hardly get enough breath in my lungs to stay conscious? I was soooooo ready to fall apart right in front of him, but I was too scared to hesitate as Alex spun me around in the center of the dark room. Wow. I can remember the un

If any of you guys had trouble finding the "On The Outside" ebook on Amazon, I've posted the links for every part of the globe to make it easier to locate. Cool? Sorry for the inconvenience folks. Ugh! Here's the link: http://www.voy.com/15900/80320.html Let me know if you have any further trouble!

Since we're now in 'back to school' mode, I'm just adding this fun short story that I posted exclusively for Imagine Magazine last year! It's called "Welcome Back To Shacker High"! How many Easter Eggs can you guys find in this one? Read and find out! Life has been a bit of a struggle lately, but I'll post more this weekend when I get a chance. Until then, smile for me, k? Enjoy! https://www.gayauthors.org/forums/story/comicality/welcomebacktoshackerhigh

"Welcome Back To Shacker High" Some of my friends, and the cousins I have my age, always moan and groan about having to go back to school after Summer vacation, but *I* don't! I LOVE going back to school after a long few months of being away from everybody I know! School is my life. It's my 'job'. My entire social circle revolves around it. I might enjoy a break from the monotony of it all for the first few weeks...but by the time school is ready to start up again for the Fall, I'm usually

Since it's 'back to school' season, I'm just adding something to the site that I wrote exclusively for Imagine Magazine last year! Just something that I did for fun! How many Easter Eggs can you guys pick out of this one? Hehehe, read it and find out!

The new ebook is now live, so be sure to grab your copy today in the Comicality eBook Section http://www.imagine-magazine.org/store/comicality or just search for it on Amazon.com at https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01LLXFBKI#nav-subnav (This is the US Amazon link. If you're anywhere else in the world, try the Comicality eBook section first, as it will have links for the UK, Canada, China, Australia, Germany, Mexico, etc! Cool?) This is the first two long chapters of the story, and there will be more to come soon, as I've already started formatting the next THREE chapters for Book Two! Enjoy! And I'll seezya soon!

The new ebook is now live, so be sure to grab your copy today in the Comicality eBook Section http://www.imagine-magazine.org/store/comicality or just search for it on Amazon.com at https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01LLXFBKI#nav-subnav (This is the US Amazon link. If you're anywhere else in the world, try the Comicality eBook section first, as it will have links for the UK, Canada, China, Australia, Germany, Mexico, etc! Cool?) This is the first two long chapters of the story, and there will be more to come soon, as I've already started formatting the next THREE chapters for Book Two! Enjoy! And I'll seezya soon!

Hehehe, he does look awfully kissable!

I hope you guys enjoy! If you get a chance, let me know what you think! Always appreciated! https://www.gayauthors.org/story/comicality/thesecretlifeofbillychase9