Oh Sweetie,
I wish I was there to help you. I know it's hard to be a teenager
let alone a gay one. You don't need this on top of everything else.
I will tell you that when I was pregnant with my son his father left
me. I've seen $3.00 out of that man and that was 15 years ago. I don't
resent my son. But, I do resent his father. I didn't want a child then and
I asked him to use the condom that I had. He didn't and I should have
walked away but, I didn't. Now, I have the most wonderful 14 year old
boy and I wouldn't trade him for my youth ever.
One thing you have to understand too is that your mom didn't get herself
pregnant. She was there and took part in half of it. If your dad really wants
to get bitter about missing something he shouldn't take it out on you. He too
could have used protection. He needs to see what he has before him and
what you have accomplished in this short time. If you were my son that would
be the best thing in the world. I love being MOM. I might have missed out
on some things but, they aren't important.
As for Taylor, he will always be hurt. Not that you moved on but, that it
is with a girl. He saw the two of you in his future. Now, he doesn't know
what to do. He's insecure about things. He wanted things to work out
between the two of you. For y'all to get back together. I'm sure if you
said something to him like 'Let's talk please.' and the two of you listen to
each other it will work out. Be back to friends and maybe someday boyfriends
again.
I'll always be there for you to talk to and to be the shoulder for your tears.
I wish you a better tomorrow.
HUGS!!!!!!!!
Love,
Laurie