Unbeliever

Without music, Neal's life would be a mistake. Is Greg more important to him than his music?

A/N:The songs mentioned here exist in reality. They were all created by Martin Grech . The song that is the main inspiration for this is Guiltless [www.savefile.com/files/707693]. The other songs mentioned, are:Only One Listening[www.savefile.com/files/707784]andHoly Father Inferior [www.savefile.com/files/707785]. His music is most certainly not everyone’s cup of tea, but do listen to Guiltless—the atmosphere of it may have you looking at Finishing Lyrics in a slightly different light. You

I was asked to bring people's attention to this and haven't seen this posted here. The original Bloomington Alternative article The LJ post with more information. Basically: Indiana man beaten to death over several hours and his killers are claiming the "sudden heat" of "gay panic." Even though he might not have been gay. Even though they took their sweet time torturing and beating him. Even though they took camera-phone pictures mid-beating and texted them to a friend. And this was two months ago. Either Aaron Hall was brutally beaten to death because he was gay, or else his murderers are attempting to exhort a sick sympathy from homophobic jury members by portraying beating a man to death as a natural response to homosexuality. The Indianapolis Star won't print this story. The Herald-Times won't print this story. The Associated Press won't print this story. What did Aaron Hall die for? And what will his murderers learn from their trial? Will they learn that Indiana is a state where you can get away with murder, as long as you murder the right person in the right extenuating circumstances? Tell everyone you know about Aaron Hall. Tell everyone. Tell them that he was beaten over 75 times and left to die in a field like Matthew Shephard and the press has done nothing. Email your local paper and ask them why they aren't reporting the Aaron Hall story. Talk to everyone you know.

You put your gear on, get in the plane, when you're nearly at the designated height everyone checks their gear. You check your own gear/you get attached if you're doing a Tandem/etc. You wait for the pilot to signal you, the plane goes one side up, you take a deep breath and jump out. You feel like you're floating, not at all the way you might feel when wind is blowing in your face and you can't breathe. You freefall for what feels like an eternity and nearly not enough at the same time. Then you lurch upwards when the parachute is opened and it might knock the breath out of you for a moment. The ground seems to be approaching way too rapidly, but then you slow down and hopefully land carefully. And sometimes the next day you wonder why your careful landing doesn't feel as though you were doing ballet. Hope that helps. If you have some specific questions about what it feels like, let me know, hard to describe it in general form.

Putin is far from wanting to see a Socialist Russia, which the Soviet Union was. I'm pro-Putin, because he's the best thing that could have happened to Russia after the Soviet Union and Yeltsin. Undoubtedly, with him in power, it is a very latent liberal autocracy more than a semi-presidential federal republic. He addressed homosexuality only once and in a very vague way, but not a hateful way. It is not his problem at the moment and he does not fuel up the hate in Moscow, or anywhere else. The problem is the attitude of the society. It is one thing to live under a conservative government, knowing these things exist, and knowing they're bad and then making logical progress with time and experience. It is a different thing to live in a box with no doors or windows and no information. To most of the society [and the generation that fully lived in the Soviet Union is right now in their 40-50s] these things did not exist, maybe only as some sort of a backdoor perversity in the dirtier places of the Western World, but you know, even then no, because only the people who were more free in being allowed to travel would know. The influences of the Western World were always hated, they still are to a degree, which is what homosexuality is to them. There will come a point when outright violence will be replaced with mostly indifference, but considering the mentality, I am inclined to think that that will not happen until the few generations living strong right now will die out.

Thank you for reading, I'm really glad you guys enjoyed it. And I'm glad to know people enjoy edgy. Though I do not think there will be more Neal to come here, he has mostly written himself out for the general public.

I'm not dong of the concept of a 'crush' and I cannot say that I ever had one, by definition. But there were a few celebrity figures that appeared in some of my dreams before any others. The main one was Jean Marais. French actor.

I just made mine today. It is a photoshopped version of a previous photoshopped drawing of mine. Represents me quite well, I think. Photoshop and me love each other passionately.

You know, I liked these. While when I read each one I had to take some time to really get into figuring out how to read them and trying to come up with a rhythm, though most of the times there wasn't any, which I'm just not used to, it still created images and tangible atmospheres. I'm not a huge fan of syncopation in poetry, but in some cases that's how they read to me. I adore the fact that the imagery used in these poem is very every-day/accessible. I'd have to say I liked The Sun Sometimes Rises the most. "We are Betelgeuse We are M

Zoo. It's more exciting, cute animals, always lovely to see some grey wolf staring through the glass at an unsuspecting little child while their parents go 'Oh look, he wants to play hide and seek with you.' And fish are stupid. Eyes open or closed?