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  1. Meeko

    A Sad But Happy Story!

    By Meeko,

    So i was checking my email and got this from work, it was sooo touching that i want to share it with you guys <3
    Just remember the below is not my work at all. And is a true story...
     
     
    We all know or knew someone like this!!
     
    One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
     
    I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
     
    His name was Kyle.
     
    It looked like he was carrying all of his books.
     
    I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?
     
    He must really be a nerd."
     
    I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
     
    As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.
     
    They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
     
    His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him.
     
    He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes
     
    My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.
     
    As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. "
     
    They really should get lives.
     
    " He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"
     
    There was a big smile on his face.
     
    It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
     
    I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
     
    As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.
     
    He said he had gone to private school before now.
     
    I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.
     
    We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.
     
    He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
     
    I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends
     
    He said yes.
     
    We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
     
    Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
     
    I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!
     
    " He just laughed and handed me half the books.
     
    Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.
     
    When we were seniors we began to think about college.
     
    Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.
     
    I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.
     
    He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship.
     
    Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
     
    I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
     
    He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
     
    I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak
     
    Graduation day, I saw Kyle.
     
    He looked great.
     
    He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
     
    He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
     
    He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
     
    Boy, sometimes I was jealous!
    Today was one of those days.
     
    I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
     
    So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"
     
    He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.
     
    " Thanks," he said.
     
    As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began
     
    "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.
     
    Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...
     
    I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.
     
    I am going to tell you a story."
     
    I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.
     
    He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
     
    He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.
     
    He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.
     
    "Thankfully, I was saved.
     
    My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."
     
    I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.
     
    I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
     
    Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
     
    Never underestimate the power of your actions.
     
    With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
     
    For better or for worse.
     
    God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
     
    Look for God in others.
     
    Hope you all enjoyed it as much as i have, take care guys.
     
    -Mike
  2. Meeko
    So the saying really is true, how do i know? We'll i'll gladly tell you.
     
     
    So i woke up this morning and did my daily routine, check the common areas clean up etc.
    So as i make my way to the penthouse (Office) Upstairs. I overhear one of my bosses talking on the phone about a cat. Later on a find out that a cat fell onto a car, so i figure ohh no big deal right?
     
    WRONG
     
    Turns out the cat fell from the 10th floor lani right into this ladys car. Pretty much the cat slamed hard into the ladys windshield. So to make things better, the cat somehow was still alive.... Amazing right? I'm still shocked.... So they took the cat to the vet asap. But man what a way to start a morning.... So i sat there and watched the vet trying hard to get the cat, but the cat kept running away from him LOL Finally a cop came and helped him.
     
    So i guess the saying really is true, a cat has nine lives....
     
    -Mike
  3. Meeko

    Thank You

    By Meeko,

    To all the guys I ever liked or went out with thank you.
     
    Thank you for ignoring me.
    Thank you for using me.
    Thank you for all the pain you caused.
    Thank you for the lies.
     
    But most importantly...
     
    Thank you for everything you taught me, Thank you for teaching me how to be a better person, and thank you for showing me my wrongs so I can turn them into rights....
     
    Thank you for showing me how to be ...... Me
     
    -Mike
  4. Meeko

    Yay Me!

    By Meeko,

    Hey Guys
     
    So im over him, i guess he decided he just wanted to play the ignore Michael game, which is fine. Idk really im not even looking anymore. If some guy wants to come up to me for once he can but other than that im done looking ><
     
     
    So a co worker sent me this and i thought it was pretty cool..
     
    So all you have to do is repost this and fill in the blanks!!!
     
    Have fun
    -Mike
     
    Dear__________,
     
    I__ you. You have a pretty ______ . You make me _______ . You should_______ . Someday
     
    I will _________ . You + me = ____________ .
     
    If I saw you now I'd __________ . I want to ________ you. I would build a __________ just
     
    for you. If I could sing you any song it would be ____________ . We could __________
     
    under the stars.
     
    Love,
    ________________
     
    (P.S. _________________ .)
     
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    Car Accident And A Date?

    By Meeko,

    Confusion seems to be the one word to sum up my life lately.
     
    So about my life, it has been okay as always. Working a lot more dealing with the life of being a resident manger, is not all its cracked up to be. But it's what I have to do to have my own place right? So I will keep it.
     
    So i got into a Car Accident the other day. Branden and i went to work to teach our class as always and i always work Friday nights after the class, so Branden wanted to go out afterwards, so he decided to keep me company that night. Which was great, i kicked his butt in football muwahaha. Anyway, i ended work at about 9pm, so we headed out and to the mall where we were going to meet up with a friend. So as we are driving over this bridge that leads to the mall, there is a baseball field to our left, and a stop light right in front of us. So i guess Braden thought it was a green light because he kept his speed of 30 going while looking at the baseball field to see what they were playing, until BAM we smack the car that was stopped at the red light in front of us. We were both fine, and so was the other person... but Dang did that scare the shit out of us both
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    Birthday Rant!

    By Meeko,

    Hey All
     
    So I would like to start this blog by thanking all of you who have wished me a happy birthday, it really mean's allot.
     
    So I started today as i would start any other normal day, get up look at the time, go back to sleep rinse and repeat 5 times haha. Anyway, i finally got up and took a shower. I got dressed and headed out the door to start my day. I went around and did the basic cleaning things that are required of me to do for the job.
     
    However, today I noticed one of the lights in the elevator were out, so I got the stuff so i could change it for the first time. So i turned the elevator off and put up a sign by the door stating that it was off for the moment. But anyone could turn it back on just by walking into the elevator and hitting a button. Lucky me a woman decided not the read the rather big sign I posted and did exactly that. She walked right in and started it up right as i was putting the light into place. So since i was putting the light into place by the ends (which i later found out was a bad idea because that is where all the power comes from) I get shocked. I nearly fell off the stool i was on and almost knocked the woman down with me, but i was quick enough to fall in the other direction. So she turns to me and starts yelling about how I almost hit her and that, i was crazy for as she called it, fooling around with the elevator.
     
    At this point i was pissed, how dare she have the nerve to bitch me out when she clearly was the reason I had to go to the hospital. So after yelling back at her (which I shouldn't have done) one of my bosses walked by and saw me sitting in the elevator and asked what was wrong, so i explain it to her and she gets very upset. So i assured her that i was fine, but she wouldn't have any of that, no instead she calls 911 and has them pick me up. So by the time they got me, all checked out and gave me the okay, I got back home and decided to take a little nap.
    About an hour later i got into the shower again and got dressed nicely. I had to be at the park by 2:30pm to teach the arts and crafts class, then right after that i had to go to a family dinner, which started at around 5:30pm.
     
     
     
    So surprisingly the dinner went okay, nothing special or interesting happened. at around 8:00pm I left the restaurant and headed over to the Pool hall were i was going to meet up with Rayna and Cookie, and that was the highlight of my day. Only that is where everything seemed to go wrong. So Rayna and Cookie have their difficulties just like any other couple. And not to be mean, but after you spend a period with these two you can pretty much tell that they will not last. So that's exactly what happened, Rayna decided right as i got there that today of all days was the day to brake up with Cookie. Therefore, I spent the remainder of the night trying to comfort her, and for a while, everything seemed to get better. A few of our other pool friends that we knew (mostly because they were all checking out Rayna) Decided it was time to get close to her now that she's single. And so one of them decided to stay by her 24/7 and she didn't seem to mind at all, and most of the times i wouldn't either, only i felt totally uncomfortable, I mean sure i know all of them, but not really that well. And so since Joe (Not his real name) decided to be Raynas new best friend, i pretty much felt like shit. Here i was spending what was suppose to be my special day with her, and she goes and pretty much just ditches me. So when she went outside to smoke i decided i had enough and just left. She called once i got home, and left a message asking why i just left like i did, but i really didn't want to get into it with her so i just didn't call her back.
     
    I guess the reason i felt so hurt was because i felt as if she was trying to replace the friendship we shared with someone else, and just before these other friends came, she even finally admitted that she loved me. Nice way to treat someone you love huh? I don't know maybe I'm just going around sounding crazy again, but really i just can't wait for this day to be over.
     
    So here, i am now, spending the rest of my birthday alone!
    So much for a great birthday huh? At least I'll remember this one for a while...
     
    Hope everyone else is having a much better day, take care and have a good week!
     
    -Mike
     
     
     
    "Everything" By Michael Buble
     
    You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
    You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
    You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
    And you're the perfect thing to say.
     
    And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
    Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
    Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
    Cause you can see it when I look at you.
     
    [Chorus:]
    And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
    It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
    You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
     
    You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
    And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
    You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
    You're every minute of my everyday.
     
    And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
    And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
    Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
    And you know that's what our love can do.
     
    [Chorus:]
    And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
    It's you, it's you, you make me sing
    You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
     
    So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
    So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
     
    [Chorus:]
    And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
    It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
    You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
    You're every song, and I sing along.
    'Cause you're my everything.
    Yeah, yeah
     
    So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
    So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
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    Tis The Job

    By Meeko,

    Hey All
     
    So I thought I would stop by and update you all on a little that's been going on.
    So last week Monday, I started my new job, got everything packed and unpacked in a matter of hours, which is a very good thing. So let me just start off by saying I love my new place. I mean I feel so free, so alive, and for once so happy!!! I got a place all to myself and I don't have to share with anyone!
     
    So now moving on to the job, I must say it isn't what I thought it would be at all. I mean then again I don't really know what I thought it would be so blah. Good news is that there are some really nice people who live here, as we'll as the two faced people who are nice to your face and a bitch behind your back, yup I'm met them too!
     
     
     
     
    So overall the job is going good, it's only been a week so far but I think I can handle this, I mean over this past week I've been finding myself with a lot of free time still and I like it, at least I'll have time to write now! Won't be as much time but hey, time is time.
     
    So on to today, I feel kind of depressed. I don't know... It seems every since I moved out onto my own I feel a lot more alone? (Does that even make any sense?) Like it kind of feels like my friends aren't really my friends, I don't know. I mean maybe I'm just overreacting. I know we all have our different lives and different plans but do you ever get that feeling where you feel you're not really wanted? Like I said maybe I'm just overreacting, who knows.
     
    So today at work, pretty much the whole time I was planning out in my head this story that kind of came to me in a dream, I mean a lot of it's from bits and piece of my life, but somehow it got me really motivated and interested in writing again... So Conner I know I said this before but get ready for some load, because when I get my internet back on Oct 3rd, we are going to have to bust out that red marker and work overtime!!!
     
    Best news of all is that Heroes season two starts tomorrow!! WOOOHOOO I'm so thrilled.
     
    That is all for now, hope everyone's having a wonderful night!
     
    -Mike
     
     
    P.S: Did I mention there are some hot guys who live in this building? Things are going to be getting interesting ...
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    Shades Of Blue

    By Meeko,

    TEN EMOTIONS.
    1. are you missing someone right now?: no
    2. are you happy? Somewhat yes.
    3. are you talking to anyone right now?: Ashlee!!
    4. are you bored?: Nope
    5. are you German?: Nope, tho i have been to germany ^^
    6. are you Irish?: Half
    7. are you French?: No
    8. are you Italian?: No
    9. are your parents still married?: Yes they are ><
    10. do you like someone right now?: Define like =P
     
    TEN FAVORITES.
    1. store: Hmm I guess AE or T&C.
    2. flowers: ???
    3. color: Blue!
    4. sport: Basketball, Baseball, Tennis, Pool.
    5. mall: Ala!
    6. movie: Hmm, I'd have to say Transformers.
    8. season: Summer/Winter
    9. animal: Dogs!
    10. state: Not sure.
     
    TEN FACTS.
    1. hometown: Born and raised in Honolulu Hawaii.
    2. hair color: Black =P I know I'm plain like that
    3. Birthday: September 25
    4. hair style: It used to always be really short, until i decided to grow it longer.
    5. eye color: Light brown.
    6. best friend: Rayna, Ashlee, Alex, Brandon.
    7. mood: Content
    8. skin color: Ugh i used to be really dark during the summer, but i got white agian =(
    9. available: Yes, but i'm enjoying the single life.
    10. left/right-handed: lefty!!
     
    TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
    1. have you ever been in love?: REAL love? Noper
    2. do you believe in love: Sure do
    3. why did your last relationship fail: He only wanted sex.
    4. have you ever been heartbroken: I have...
    5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: I was told so, although i don't beleive it.
    6. have you ever fallen for one of your best friends: Yes
    7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: Yes
    8. are you afraid of commitment: It depends really.
    9. has someone ever kissed your hand: Nope
    10. have you ever had a secret admirer: Not a clue.
     
    TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
    1. love or trust: Both
    2. hard liquor or beer: Haha here's a hard question... it depends on how drunk i want to get!
    3. night or day: Night it's so much better!!
    4. one night stands or relationships: Relationships
    5. television or internet: TV for Heros, Internet of everything else.
    6. pepsi or coke?: I don't drink soda, Ice Tea!!
    7. wild night out or romantic night in: It depends
    8. chocolate or vanilla: Both
    9. phone or in person: In person
    10. Love or Lust: Love, but lust is always nice too ><
     
    TEN HAVE Y0U EVER
    1. have you ever been caught sneaking out?: never had to sneak out
    2. have you ever skinny dipped: Nope, but i would like to try it one day
    3. have you ever done something you regret: Haven't we all?
    4. have you ever sky dived: Nope, but i plan too
    5. have you ever been on a house boat: No
    6. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: I don't remember!! haha
    7. have you ever liked someone so badly it hurt?: Yes
    9. have you ever danced in the rain?: I do it every night as i walk home from work =P
    10. have you ever had a hang over?: Not yet
     
    WHO
    1. Who was the last person you laughed with? Rayna and Tammy
    2. Who can cheer you up instantly?: Only two people can, and they are Ami and Rayna.
    3. Who do you think will make you smile tomorrow: A Co Worker for sure, we have a big meeting tomorrow so we'll all be there ^^
    4. Who is making the world a more terrible place to live in: My Family
    5. Who dominates the family: ><
    6. Who is like a brother/sister to you: Ashlee <3
    7. Who is the youngest person you know: TJ he's 2!!
    8. Who makes the best dinner: My Aunty
    9. Who needs to chill: EVERYONE!
     
    WHAT
    1. What do you hope will happen next week: Nothing!!
    2. What would you name a newborn puppy: Jazz
    3. What relaxes you: Shooting Pool, MUSIC!
    4. What is the most difficult decision you had to make: Moving away from the family
    6. What's your style: It depends.
    7. What is your number one priority: Kids!
    8. What is the worst movie you've ever seen: I don't remember the bad ones!
    9. What do you want for Christmas: Being surrounded by my friends.
    WHEN
    1. When is it a good time to be truthful: All the time?
    2. When was your last break-up: A few months ago.
    3. When do you take time for yourself: Whenever i get free time.
    4. When is the next time you'll see your best friend: We'll considering i'm at her house, and sitting on her atm, a few seconds?
    5. When will world hunger end: The day i stop eating
    6. When was your last bad hair day: EVERYDAY!
    7. When do you usually take a shower: Mornings,afternoon and at night.
    8. When are you going to go on your next date: Most likey not for a while.
    9. When will emo kids grow up: ?
    10. When did you first learn about sex: Hmm around the age of 13 or so? Yes i'm slow i know!
    WHY
    1. Why do you feel the way you do right now: Because i always feel good when listening to music i like.
    2.Why are teenagers becoming more apathetic: They are?
    3. Why did you say the meanest thing you've ever said: Because i mean't it??
    4. Why can't perfection exist: Who said it deosn't already.
    5. Why is gay marriage illegal: Becuase people are stupid?
    6. Why, in your opinion, are some countries more privileged than others: Beats me
    7. Why is your father the way he is: Becuase he's old fashion.
    8. Why do bad things feel so good: I don't know
    9. Why would you hurt someone, if you ever did: It's not something i do on purpose, but somethings you just can't help it.
    10. Why did you go online today: What else would i do ><
     
    SPILL YOUR GUTS
    Q. First thing you did this morning?: Talked to Ashlee, ugh she woke me up at 5am!!!
    Q. The last thing you ate?: Kailua pig and cabbage YUM!
    Q. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?: My Birthday
    Q. What's annoying you right now?: Nothing!
    Q. What's the last movie you saw?: Rush Hour 3.
    Q. Do you believe in long distance relationships?: Sure i've been in one, and all i can say is it's hard.
    Q Where is the last place you went?: Pool Hall
    Q: Who is the last person you called?: Rayna
    Q: Been cheated on?: Nope
    Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?: Nah.
    Q: Do you wish on stars?: At times yes.
    Q: Did it work?: no, not really
    Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?: Nope =P
    Q: When did you last cry?: This morning, it's something i haven't done in a few months now.
    Q: Do you like your handwriting?: No ugh, it looks like a 12 year olds.
    Q: Are you a friendly person?: I try to be yes.
    Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?: Yes
    Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?: My own bed!
    Q: What color shirt are you wearing?: Not wearing a shirt ><
    Q: Do you have any pets?: Yes my dog Jazz and Meme, tho they live with my parents =(
    Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?: Green and Yellow
    Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?: At the Pool Hall
    Q: Last person you talked to: Rayna <3
    Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?: Last Week
    Q: Look to your left: My Bed! *sigh* It's calling me agian....
    Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes i have
    Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder?: Yes
    Q: Song that makes you cry?: The hawaiian song Friends, it gets me every time.
    Q: Are you a normally happy person?: Agian i try to be!
     
     
    1. Smoked a cigarette: I took a puff and never did it agian
    2. Smoked a cigar: Nope
    3. Drank so much you threw up: A year ago ><
    4. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back: Yes
    5. Been arrested: No
    6. Gone on a blind date: Nope
    7. Skipped school: *Bites Lip* Yes
    8. Seen someone die: No
    9. Been to Canada: No, but I'd like to.
    10. Been to Mexico: Nope
    11. Been on a plane: Yes
    12. Been lost: I'm always lost, look at my name silly!
    13. Been on the opposite side of the country: How about the middle of no-where?.
    14. Swam in the ocean: a while ><
    15. Felt like dying: Not for a while.
    17. Played cops and robbers: Yes, of course
    18. Recently colored with crayons: Nope
    19. Sang karaoke: Yes Friday night!!
    20. Paid for a meal with only coins: Noper
    21. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't: Had to eat those twinkes ><
    22. Made prank phone calls: Long time ago
    23. Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose: haha yes!
    24. Caught a snowflake on your tongue: I wish
    26. Written a letter to Santa Clause: Yes
    27. Been kissed under the mistletoe: No, though I'd love that to happen *wink*
    29. Blown bubbles: Of course
    30. Made a bonfire on the beach: Heck ya
    31. Crashed a party: never!
    32. Gone roller-skating: A while back
     
    Personal questions to know you better:
     
    1. Nicknames? Winky, R _ _ _ y, Mikey, Meeko
     
    2. Mother's name? Suzie
     
    3. What is your favorite drink? Water/Ice Tea
     
    4. Tattoos? I get chicken skin just thinking about it.
     
    5. Body piercing? Nope
     
    6. How much do you love your job? Alot, I mean wouldn't you like a job where you do nothing?
     
    7. Birthplace: Hawaii
     
    8. Favorite vacation spot? Hilo
     
    9. Ever been to Africa? No
     
    10. Ever eaten cookies for dinner? haha not ever.
     
    11. Ever been on TV? For work yes.
     
    12. Ever stole any traffic signs? No way.
     
    13. Ever been in a car accident? A while ago.
     
    14. Was it your fault? Nope, stupid people who talk on cell phones.
     
    15. 2 doors or 4? 4 Door
     
    16. Favorite salad dressing? Ranch
     
    17. Favorite pie? Pumkin, or Custard
     
    18. Favorite number? 5
     
    20. Favorite holiday? Christmas
     
    21. Favorite dessert? Tammy's Crack Brownies ( I swear she puts cocane in them to make them sooo good!)
     
    22. Favorite food? Pizza!!
     
    23. Favorite day of the week? Lately? Friday
     
    24. Favorite brand of body soap? Axe haha.
     
    25. Favorite TV show? HEROES!!!
     
    26. Favorite Toothpaste? umm.
     
    27. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Hopefully in front of a classroom filled with kids.
     
    28. What do you do when you are bored? Many things, mostly clean, then listen to music, then go out ^^
     
    Wow so that took a lot longer then i thought it would. So things are still pretty rough with the family, but i'm trying to look past all of this and continue on with my life. This is the point where i feel i need help the most, and surprisingly i'm getting a lot of it. Not only from you wonderful people on GA, but from a lot others in RL. All your words mean so much to me, and for that thank you!
     
    Another note, I started writing agian, Idk if it was conner yelling at me that did it, but i opened up the folder and just started to write. Thank you Conner.
     
    I'm going to leave you with a song that's gotten stuck in my head lately.
    Shades Of Blue, By Nick Lachey
    Looks like another day is
    Slipping through my window shade
    Chasing the dark away
    Sneaking into my room again
    Are you a sad and lonely thief
    Come to steal my peace of mind
    The only peace I find
    Is pretending that you're still lying next to me
     
    so why why why
    The sun has got to shine shine shine
    Why don't it just stay away
    Why do dreams have to fade
    Into all these shades of blue
    Where I wait for you
    Pray love reaches through
    All these shades
    Shades of blue
    When you close your eyes
    Feel me by your side
    I will wait for you
    In all these shades of blue
     
    Thinking back on my mistakes
    I can't undo all the days that I misused
    I thought that you'd always stay
    It's hard to face the simple truth
    That
    that time brings no relief
    but time is what you need you said
    Had to go and clear out your head
    While you're trying to decide
    If you'll come back to me
     
    Why why why
    do we have to cry cry cry
    Tell me why this has to be
    Why don't you give in to me
    Baby all these shades of blue
    Where I wait for you
    Pray love reaches through
    All these shades
    Shades of blue
    When you close your eyes
    Feel me by your side
    I will wait for you
    Here in all these shades of blue
    Here in all these shades of blue
     
    Why did you have to leave
    Why did you have to set me free
    Why did you have to go
     
     
    Baby all these shades of blue
    Where I wait for you
    Pray love reaches through
    All these shades
    Shades of blue
    When you close your eyes
    Feel me by your side
    I will wait for you
    In all these shades of blue
     
    Here in all these shades of blue
     
    -LC
  9. Meeko

    My Drunk Life!

    By Meeko,

    So this past week has already started off to being a great one.
     
    One thing I noticed this year was how close I and my co workers Brandon and Ashlee became over the school year. See we all met each other for the first time last year during the summer, and so how we just really clicked. Even after the summer was over, we would still see each other at least twice a week.
    And it's weird because we are each so different yet we get a long so well.
     
    So this year when we all worked together for the second summer, everyone could pretty much tell how close we became. When we would have to do things such as go to camp with our teens, or other activities we all go together and you'll always see us more or less together. But the best thing of all of this was the fact that we were all so close with each other made working together so much easier. When one of us would have to run an activity we would all lend in a hand. It just made the work environment that much better.
     
    Okay so getting on with my point, yesterday was Ashlee
  10. Meeko

    Perfect

    By Meeko,

    Have you ever listened to a song's lyric, and were able to relate to most of what the lyrics say?
     
    I know most people base there music on themselves or something that has happened to them, so sure a lot of people would be able to relate right? I know on many occasions i've listened to a song and thought "Hey, thats just how i'm feeling."
     
    But this one song really got to me. :wacko:
     
     
     
    Hey dad look at me
    Think back and talk to me
    Did I grow up according to plan?
    And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
    But it hurts when you disapprove all along
     
    And now I try hard to make it
    I just want to make you proud
    I'm never gonna be good enough for you
    I can't pretend that
    I'm alright
    And you can't change me
     
    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
     
    I try not to think
    About the pain I feel inside
    Did you know you used to be my hero?
    All the days you spent with me
    Now seem so far away
    And it feels like you don't care anymore
     
    And now I try hard to make it
    I just want to make you proud
    I'm never gonna be good enough for you
    I can't stand another fight
    And nothing's alright
     
    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
     
    Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
    Nothing's gonna make this right again
    Please don't turn your back
    I can't believe it's hard
    Just to talk to you
    But you don't understand
     
    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
     
    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
     
    From this song i get the message that the singer has an issue with his dad. His issue is clear, his dad disaproves of who he is, and what he's doing. The singer trys to make his dad proud, but no matter what he does he'll never be what his dad wants.
     
    The reason this song got me soo tied up is becuase of how much i can relate to it. My dad never accepted me, and it's not that he didn't accept me becuase i was gay.. He doesn't even know that part of me.... He just doesn't accept me as a person. No matter what i do to try and make him proud, it's never good enough for him, I'll never be the perfect son he wants.
     
    It scares me becuase it's not only one or two lines in the song that i relate too, it's the whole entire song. Every single word. It's something i've always noticed about music, it's the beat and the lyircs. Then agian i guess a lot of people do this right? There able to relate to a song soo much it's hard to listen to the song, to know how much truth comes from it.
     
    -LC
  11. Meeko

    A Long Day!

    By Meeko,

    So it has been a while since I have posted a blog, and a lot has been happening since then.
     
    Yesterday I came home from a 3 day camp trip with 100 teens, ages 12-17 and it was a good trip. (If any of you are wondering it was for work and yes I was forced to go!)
     
    Though it was funny, on the last day of camp my co workers and I decided to play a pretty mean prank on our teens, and well..... Ever heard the saying "Boy's don't cry?" it's totally true, first they scream and run around all crazy like, then they brake down and start to cry!!
     
    All eight of our boy's ended up sleeping in the middle of the tent all bunched up together, way too close may I add, which was way fine by me seeing as how my co worker and I ended up having the rest of the tent too sleep ><
     
     
    So today was a very interesting day. I learned something I never would of thought, pretty much one of my kid's that are in the summer program I work, lets call him Bob?
     
    So... Bob and I are pretty close, he is 10 years old and a very smart and cute kid. He isn't in the group I take care of but he is always around me every time our groups are together. Anyway we were playing basketball and he was sitting on back to back behind me on the bench. I don't remember how we got into the topic but he started to tell me about one of the other boy's in his group and how he's gay. When I asked him how he knew that he told me that the other boy told him he liked him, more as a friend.
     
    So I asked Bob how he felt about it, and he said he didn
  12. Meeko

    Randomness

    By Meeko,

    So Hello i am Lost Cause or you could just call me LC, either or works. I decided to start up a blog and get into bloging, it's a way for me to share things with you wonderful people out there, and also to kind of get things thats been bothering me off my chest without hurting anyone's feelings. (As much fun as it is, i have to play nice too!!)
     
    So about a week ago, i started to feel depressed :wacko: like i have off and on these days, and while in my *depressed Mood* I began to listen to the old sappy sad love song music. I know what your gonna say, thats sad..... But i don't care, hehe i usually find that the music i listen to reflects alot off of my moods, and how i am feeling, Strange right?
     
    So while listening to a song that really started to teach me when i really listened to the lyrics, i suddenly found myself typing. I just typed the frist things that would pop into my head, and later tried to make it into kind of a poem. It's pretty bad i know! but tell me what you think.
     
     
     
     
    I am the same person I've always been
    Only today you learn something new
    You learn who I really am, and what's really true
     
    You'll see me as someone different
    then who you thought you always knew
    You'll look deep into my eyes
    to try and find the truth
     
    All these year's I've been hiding from who I really am
    When deep down inside I've known it all along
     
    You've showed me who I am
    You've showed me what is right
    You've helped me to live with
    This never ending lie
     
    I'm done with hiding
    I'm done with the lies
    I finally found the truth somewhere inside
     
    I may not be normal
    I may not be cool
    But I am happy
     
    Becuase I know who I am
    I am yours
     
     
    As i go back and read what i wrote, the frist thing that comes to my mind is what does this mean, what did you write this about. And surprisingly alot of people don't get it. It's not the best way to be telling people i'm Gay, but it is a start wouldn't you think?
    I mean it's not like i said anywhere in the poem "I'm gay and i don;t care what you think so bite me," you know? Becuase if it were only that easy trust me i would of done it such a long time ago. But really i wrote it to see what people would think, and how they would approach me about it, seeing as how i posted it into my myspace.
     
    But i guess the mood i was in was a confused one, about me and how my life is currently being played out before me. How i am Gay yet closeted to mostly everyone in my life who matters the most to me. And as scared as i am, to finally come out i think in a small way i already did. I mean i knew that i had feelings for guy's since i was 13 year's old. Yet only now when i am 19 going on to 20 soon, am i really opening up to my i guess you can call it Gay side. Only this year have i really realized what gaydar was and how it seems to work. Or only this year have i had my very frist boyfriend, which just ended up using me for sex, but hey... that is a different blog all on it's own. Only this year have i talked to other gay guys/ been to a gay club. And there are more, to me these are just things that help me to believe in myself more and who i am.
     
    Okay so before i start not making any sense and all and just writing random scrible i'll end this with a conclusion.
     
    conclusion, i think in my own way i'm finally coming out and really showing the true me, the same person i have always been, and always plan to be, only now i am more open to how i feel about other guys, no matter who is watching. It's my life not theirs and i will live it the only way that will make me happy, being gay!
     
    Anyway's it's about 2:27 am and i'm pretty pooped, so i think it's time for
    this kid to hit the hay.
     
    Have a wonderful but safe weekend all.
     
    -LC
  13. Meeko

    Becoming A Bully

    By Meeko,

    Just a little something I wrote for school, and thought I would share, oh and please disregard all the grammar errors, I wrote this for a presentation and figured since only i was reading it I didn't need to fix them, and now I'm just lazy.
     

    I live, I lie, I make you cry,


    It makes me stronger when you no longer,

    Have any power, to fight back

    To attack, to react,

    To stand up through my attack,

    Cuz if you did then you would see,

    That what I do, is not because of me, it’s because of you.

    Much like you, I was beaten too,

    With words of hate that discriminate,

    The way you look, the way you talk,

    Sometimes even the way you walk,

    It’s different, it’s unique, it would make me weak,

    When everyone would realize,

    How much cooler you are,

    Through their eyes,

    I won’t let you take away,

    All the friends that I have made,

    Through your suffering, through your pain,

    Because you’re the bully who stood close by

    and made me feel like I want to die,

    And this is why I hurt you,

    Because the pain I felt inside,

    Is what you used to make me cry,

    When I was smaller, when I was shy,

    When I was weak because I’m meek

    When all I wanted was someone to say hi,

    To play with, to guide,

    But you helped me realize,

    That I’m not that guy, who was kind,

    And just stood by, so now how does it feel,

    To be on the other side,

    To feel the pain, that you used, to make others cry,

    Now that I act more like a guy,

    Who could deny,

    My masculinity, my identity,

    There’s no need to hide,

    Your true side.

  14. Meeko

    Lazy.

    By Meeko,

    No matter what you say, no matter what you do, you're never going to stop me.
    You know why?
    Because I'm going to stop myself.
    You know why?
    Because I'm lazy...
    The End.
  15. Meeko

    My Guardian Angel

    By Meeko,

    it's pretty bad when you can't sleep because your too busy worrying about a fictional character from your own story, and the way you left him in his current situation. When you get so caught up in the story that you can't write anymore because it hits way to close from home, and you don't want to ever relive the pain even if just though a story.
     
    that being said, no I have no forgotten about Last Goodbye, I just honestly haven't had the time. I know yet I have time to write a new story right? we'll in my defense this story is for my creative writing class, it's my final project. it's a very emotional story, it's touching, it's real world unedited t its finest.
     
    Can you believe summers right around the corner? it's unreal but I'm so excited for it and everything else that's been happening. I've started off this year really really rough, but I can see the light and things look a whole lot clearer now than they ever have before. Maybe it's just the fact that I now have another guardian angel watching over me. One that i miss very dearly, one that changed my life. One that no matter how hard I try not to cry just the thought of her brought tears to my eyes.
     
    In my 22 years of living, the worst pain I've ever experienced was to sit around helplessly just waiting for her to pass, watching her in pain, struggling to breathe, knowing that there wasn't a damn thing i could do to help her. It was the longest two days of my life, the most memorable and miserable. it's something i never want to relive and yet i know i will, someday.
     
    it's just a part of living right? we'll you know what? it sucks. but, I'll live, I'll moved on, i just won't ever forget.
     
     
     
  16. Meeko

    Gigantic Penis

    By Meeko,

    Today was very eventful: Got my school id. Went jogging. Bought a planner. Ate free pizza. Helped fix the elevator at work. Went to the beach. Assisted in making a gigantic penis. Then watched the wave take out one of it's balls. Today was a good day.
    Picture Below!
     

  17. Meeko

    My ass hurts!

    By Meeko,

    The title says it all, my ass f**ken hurts. I went to a club and actually danced for the majority of the 5 hours we were there, mostly with girls, but on occassion some guys? hahaha.
     
    I blame it on those damn free patron shots...
     
    Bed... Where Are you... Stop moving dang it!
     
    *falls* Ahhh floor, so comfyyy *Snuggles the floor* Nighty night. Or should I say morning since it is now like 4am? =(
  19. Meeko

    FREEDOM!

    By Meeko,

    Fair warning to all those who live around hawaii.
     
    I am now A Licensed Driver!!!
     
    So for those of you who don't understand...
     
    STAY OFF THE SIDEWALKS AND IN YOUR HOMES RWAR!!!
     
    <--- Thrilled to finially have total and utter FREEDOM!
     
    Will blog more after I'm done joy riding thru North Shore =P
     
    -Mike
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