Believe me, I know damn well that my first draft (the Sims version) is garbage which is why I never posted it on any Sims websites. I was actually going through it a little bit the other day and all I could really see were things that I wanted to do differently. Even with the improvements I've made over the 12 and a half years I've been working on it, there's still a ton of exposition dumps (especially in the second half), character arcs that go nowhere, unnecessary graphic sex scenes just for the sake of having them, ellipses where there are supposed to be commas, probably a lot of typos and grammatical errors, the character of Damien Marshall in my early EARLY drafts was basically the male Bella Swan because my main focus was the dynamic between the two muscle bear teachers plus, I was scared of digging deep into my own high school experience and the trauma and drama that came out of it to actually make him a relatable character, he ended up being what was essentially a human plot device.
I've had friends of mine read the first draft and the consensus is that it has a lot of potential but it also needs a lot of work, and that's what I'm trying to accomplish with the draft that I'm posting here in dribs and drabs, I'm trying to make this unpublishable mess that was my first draft into something potentially publishable.