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Time for another blog! Woo! Nothing really too important to say except to tell those that haven’t already heard, that I’m a vegetarian for the summer. Yeah, weird right? I’m going to start out with the summer and see if I can do it, and if it’s not that big of a pain in the ass, I’ll see how long I can keep it up until I fall off the bandwagon and devour a cow. This is day 11 without meat for me. Not really a milestone by any means, but I haven’t had much trouble to be honest. I’m not craving it or anything even when I’m working around it constantly, so I’m taking that as a good sign. Granted, I do crave chicken nuggets when Michelle so politely eats 20 of them in my car while I’m starving, but other than that, I’m fine. And before anyone else asks me, yes… fish is meat too. I’m not eating any animals damn it! I don’t care what the Catholics say! I’m not on a ‘no-red-meat diet’ or any of that crap, so chicken and fish count! Which really does suck because I can’t eat sushi anymore =( But oh well. ------- Yeah so my dog ate 6 of my donuts this morning. I had 7 left when I went to work. They were in a box in my room on my shelf. When I came home, I let him inside, grabbed something out of my room and went back out to my car to fix my subs. This took about 3 minutes. In that time, I came back inside, the box was on the floor, void of any donuts. When I went looking for the little f**ker, there was one donut left, uneaten, at the bottom of the stairs. Next to a pile of shit. Apparently, he ate six of them, got full, took a shit, then left the 7th one as a gift to me. All in under 3 minutes. f**king dogs. ------- In other news... that guy I mentioned last blog? Yeah, ignore that. Didn't work out like I planned and I broke it off once, but in my quest to put him down easy, I left an opening for us to get back together. It wasn't until after I said my whole speech that I realized I'm giving him an excuse to keep talking to me and eventually have him ask me out again. Which he did. And me being the idiot I am, couldn't say no. So we're back together, but technically not 'official' because I refused to say the magic words and specifically ask him to be my boyfriend. Which irritates the hell out of me because at the time I pretty much considered us together and a couple, so I didn't think the words needed to be said. But now, I guess it could be a blessing because I can't really add him to my list of ex-boyfriends. It's his fault I can still tell everyone I'm single, even though it feels like I'm not. But I'm still stuck in this 'relationship' I guess you could call it because I'm either too nice to dump him, or I'm too much of a coward to do so. I don't like the idea of being single, but it's frustrating that I would have to work so hard for things with us to work when I don't really feel that much of a spark between us. I don't really want to rag on him because he really is a nice guy, but he's not the type of guy I'm looking for. He's too clingy sometimes and fell too hard too fast for me. It was 3 weeks when I tried to break it off the first time and he pulled the "but that's the Joe I fell in love with" card and I got even more freaked out. I've been there, done that. I can't handle someone like that. He has too much time on his hands and doesn't understand that I have a full-time job, full-time school, GA, and I have other friends that I want to be with and it's hard enough to find time alone as it is. And when he's sitting there bugging me to drive my happy ass out to Forth Worth every spare chance I get, I can't handle it. So I know it's not going to work out with us, and I'm trying to distance myself from him by slightly ignoring him. He doesn't have a cellphone so that helps and prevents him from texting me. I disabled the AIM forwarding to my phone, but he can still send me messages through it periodically. I didn't talk to him all day yesterday except a few minutes at night before I went to bed, and then I haven't responded to any of his messages or phone calls today, so I'm hoping he gets the message. But I know he won't. He won't give up, and it frustrates the hell out of me that some people can't take a hint that they're being let down easy. I can't do a harsh breakup. It's just not in me to say the words. I choke up and swallow them. And I can't exactly say this in person to him because he doesn't have a car and can't meet me anywhere to talk. So I'd have to drive to his house, break it off, then drive back home. And it's damn near 30 minutes away from me and I'm broke enough as it is without having to pay for gas there and back. I don't want to do it over the phone or over AIM, but I don't really have any other choice. If he doesn't get the hint soon enough, then it'll be tough shit and I'll have to force myself to get over it and just tell him to f**k off. After all that, my question to anyone reading this is... how would you suggest I go about breaking it off? He can't exactly just pop over to my house. Granted, he can have his friends drive him over, but there's a good chance I won't be at home anyways. And he does know where I work, so if I just stop talking to him altogether, then it'll be pretty easy for him to track me down and give me hell. Help? Anyone?

Alright so I'm not going to lie... I've never heard anyone say I was a bad kisser. I've even made out with a few of my (female) co-workers and they seemed to enjoy it, but we were all drunk so I'm not sure if that counts But I tend to adapt to how the other person kisses. I usually let them lead until I learn how they like it, then adapt myself to their style so it all works out. But I'm with Kevin on the gentle biting and pulling. It's really hot when the other guy does it to me and I tend to go a little nuts on them in return One thing I hate though, is licking. Don't lick my face! If I wanted someone to lick my face, I'd come home and cuddle with my dog! Even if it is on the lips, it gets annoying! As for the question... closed for sure. The air-tongue-hockey thing displeases me greatly unless it's necessary to get some air in there without wanting to break the kiss

Joe has only had sex with one person for all of 2008 and 2009 to date. So hush. I don't do hookups

I had to read this on the forums instead of you telling me? You sick bitch! (That's a joke for all the mods reading this!) Woohoo for getting laid!

Screw you guys. 1. He's not jail bait in the definition most used. He's older than I am. 2. It was for traffic violations, which most cops won't even arrest you for but we were in a low-crime city where cops have nothing better to do. 3. You all suck!

I forgot to add in my last blog that I quite possibly sort-of kinda maybe have a boyfriend. Yeah. That's it.

So I'm sitting in the hotel room waiting for Michelle to wake her ass up. I told her I'd let her sleep in today but it's already almost 10. I've been up since 8 and walked around the city for an hour and a half. I came back expecting her to be awake and ready to go do stuff, but she's snoring like a chainsaw on concrete. My one vacation and she's sleeping it away! Of course, I could just say f**k it and wake her ass up, but then I have to deal with her moody shit all morning until I feed her. She's going to read this later and beat me for it, but it was worth it So we got in Thursday morning around 8am. Turns out a friend from Dallas (named Josh that's probably in one of my early early blogs) was on the same flight here and we're all on the same flight back. It was kind of awkward to see him, but we gave each other our numbers and said we'd hang out once while we were here. I'm kind of doubting that will actually happen because he's pretty flaky when it comes to things like that, but we'll see. I used to have a huge thing for him and he's pretty hot, but I don't think I'd actually do anything with him at this point. Anyways, Thursday we spent the day randomly exploring the city. We got bus passes for the week but we ended up walking everywhere instead. I had a blast but Michelle started bitching from the walking We hit the usual hotspots of Pier 39 and Fisherman's Wharf and eventually wound up back at the hotel around 3. Neither one of us had slept the night before and I didn't sleep the night before that so I was going on the 3 hours of sleep I got on the plane. We took a 'nap' that lasted about 5 hours, got up and ate dinner, then went back to sleep. Wasted most of the first day of our vacation, but it was still worth it. It gave us the energy for the next day. Friday we went to Alcatraz and walked around for a good hour and a half or two hours. Apparently we didn't go the right way when we walked in so we didn't do the audio tour. We just explored the island instead. After that we went to Ghiradelli and some pizza place, then did a little bit of shopping (and by a little bit I mean 2 stores so it doesn't really count!). Dan and Robert came in town while we were walking around and ended up meeting them near Broadway, which is where all the titty bars are. I think I got winked at by a prostitute, but I don't know if it was a man or a woman. Or both. After they picked us up, we went to watch the sunset over the Pacific and it was absolutely amazing. That was probably the highlight of my trip so far. And Michelle's too since she got to see a midget with a beard in the Russian district. We ate dinner at the Sausage Factory in the Castro district which was good. The desert was better, but Robert and Michelle kept laughing at me Then we came back to the hotel, went to bed, and here I am posting this while Michelle is still sleeping. I'll give her another 15 minutes or so before I wake her happy as up and probably get beat for it. I posted one picture in the Show Me thread, but I'll post a few more here. I think my MySpace is public so if you guys find it, there's plenty more on there.

It's a little chilly. Highs are in the low 60s so the hoodie isn't really necessary, but on the water I'm glad I had it!

Taken yesterday while coming back from Alcatraz:

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I'm stuck in class and can't find anything to keep me entertained so I went through the Internet Archives for GA and found it interesting to see how much it's changed over the years. November 27, 2002 GA's creation date November 28, 2004 August 9, 2006 August 19, 2007 Today Lots of looks, but it just keeps getting better!

Sounds kinda like GA

I'd rather not give a speech, but no I haven't thought about it lol.

So I’m in a random good mood and decided to blog about it. Less bitching this time around, I promise! Well… I think so anyways. California is in 2 weeks! 13 days and 6 hours until my flight leaves to be exact I honestly can’t wait that long. I want to go now and these last 2 weeks are going to drag by so slow. Every time I hear certain songs on the radio, it reminds me of it and I can’t get it out of my mind for a while. It’s irritating! Once I step on that plane though, all will be well in the world and I’ll be the happiest I’ve been in a long ass time. Coming back will suck though. I feel sorry for Michelle. She’ll have to sit next to me on a plane for 4 hours will I sulk and hate the world again haha. We still don’t know exactly what we’re going to do, but I figure if we plan it all out now, I’ll get even more excited and it’ll take even longer to get there. If only Viv was coming so I wouldn’t have to do any of the planning! Work is the only thing keeping me busy enough right now to keep me sane. Some of my co-workers are freaking amazing and so much fun! The others kinda suck, but the good ones out-weigh the sucky ones haha. The good news is, I’ve been getting faster at closing and it never takes me more than half an hour no matter what I’m closing (usually). The bad news is that it’s killing my hours. If I was as slow as some of the other people, I’d have a hell of a lot more hours, but I can’t be lazy like that. If I’m not doing something then I get annoyed/annoying lol. I don’t know if I said this before, but I got the first Employee of the month thing that they gave out. I would have like to get a raise out of it, but a free dinner and T-Shirt works too I guess… My room and car are a mess. I’ve been lazy lately and haven’t really been wanting to clean anything outside of work so I’ve let them get pretty cluttered and full of random crap. I should blame Michelle for always wanting to do something when I actually do have the time, but I’m the one that keeps suggesting we go bowling haha. Speaking of, I beat my record and made a 175 the other day! I haven’t been able to repeat that, so it was probably luck, but I still got it! Oh… to all of you people who are on Spring Break… f**k You! I’m stuck in class from 8-12 Monday-Thursday while y’all are out having fun. Or more likely sleeping. So bite me. We had our ‘Spring Break’ a couple weeks ago when everyone else was finishing up their terms so I didn’t really get to have fun on mine. But I guess I shouldn’t complain too much. I talked to my counselor today, and she told me I was going to be the valedictorian for my class. We’re getting our Associates at the end of the term before we get our Bachelors in 2 years, and apparently I’m graduating with a bunch of f**king idiots. I honestly would not have expected to get this. My GPA isn’t that great (to me at least) so I guess Northwood people are a bunch of idiots. Which doesn’t really surprise me, but still. I’m just hoping to get some extra money and scholarships out of it. It’d be nice not having to keep getting student loans every year. Juanita is fixed!!! Juanita is my Explorer for those who don’t know. She died on me on the way to work one day. Then Ford said they fixed her, but as I was driving home from the dealership, she died again. And I waited about an hour for a tow truck to come get me when I was 6 miles down the road. Then they wanted to charge me $2,500+ to fix her the right way this time. I told them to shove it. Took her to a place in Fort Worth and got her fixed up for around $300. So I’m happy now. She’s been running like a beast even with 95,000 miles on her. Doesn’t look a mile over 20,000 though Gotta love how the Explorers don’t change designs often. One bad thing though is that everyone keeps telling me I’m getting fatter. It’s annoying! I walked from the Ford dealership to work when Juanita died, and Kris told me it was good for me because I needed the exercise! And Michelle keeps calling me a fat f**k every time I eat something! And Mason said I put on a little weight. And then Tree’s scale confirmed it all by telling me I gained 15 pounds in the last few months. Well fine. Screw you guys, I’m going home! Well… I am home, but it’s not nice to point out that someone is gaining weight! And I think a lot of it is going to my ass… which is kinda good since they all said I didn’t have one before. Now I’m hungry. Damn. That’s enough rambling for the night so I’m going to stop there. WOO! Joe

Haha! I thought the same thing... I was expecting a picture of his actual parents.

That's all non-alcoholic of course I do believe that's a woman I'm kissing... and my General Manager we're laying on top of

Guys. Picture thread. Post pictures and stop being perverted!

Michelle and I booked our flights and hotel rooms for Thursday, April 2nd through Monday, April 6th in San Francisco. This is kind of last minute notice, but we weren't quite sure when we were going to be able to make it out there until a couple days ago. We went through Expedia and it ended up being $338 per person for round trip flight and 4 nights in a hotel so it still wasn't too bad for only being just over a month away. If anyone can make it out there during that time, just let me know and I'll give you some more information on where we're staying Joe

Two blog entries in the same month? No way! But this one is short. Ever have one of those nights where you're laying in bed at 1:30 watching CSI and it's a creepy part when someone starts tapping on your window? So you pause the show thinking it was just your mind, but the tapping happens again. Then you can't turn the light on so you throw clothes on and open the door to pitch black and all you see is someone standing there crying. No? Well it happened to me... Turns out it was my general manager. She and he husband got into a huge fight ending with her throwing her ring at him and leaving. She ended up at my house so I let her sleep in my bed after we talked for a while. Couldn't really sleep that well and we both had to open the store together, so she went to Target to get some clothes to wear while I went to open alone. I've never opened before so I was clueless on what the f**k to do. But I opened everything perfectly by myself and still had time to spare The rest of the day just flew by and here I am now. Running on caffeine with a sore left ass (from bowling, nothing fun...) and a killer back ache. What a wonderful Valentine's Day so far. But I did get a free shirt from work And a cookie. Joe

Congratulations to Mark on becoming Hosted! His site is now up at: http://markarbour.gayauthors.org

I agree with Jack. Any hard surface will do. Then my dog tends to dig the shells out of the trash and eat them, so it's a win-win for both of us. I think of it as going green and not having as much trash

Alright so I haven’t blogged since November and I’ve really been meaning to, I just haven’t found the time. I’m going to end up rambling on and on here so feel free to skip it all I’ll start with all the things that have been causing me to be overly stressed lately. Which in all honesty is a lot of crap and I’m probably on the verge of having an anxiety attack, but f**k it. What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger I guess. School has been alright, nothing major, but we’re nearing finals again and all of these projects and presentations are coming up that I haven’t started on. Yeah I know, I procrastinated so it’s my own damn fault, but who the hell does a project right away when they have 10 weeks to do it? I’ve got 2 papers to write, and a presentation tomorrow morning that I’m not prepared to give, so I could be shooting myself in the foot, but other than that my classes have been pretty easy and I’ve been making good grades. Work is killing me. I have a lot more of an open availability than most of the people I work with so I get shafted with all the shitty split shifts. Like tomorrow, I’m working 11 to 2 and 5 to 9. While I like getting 7 hours in one work day, it sucks that I have a three hour gap in there. It’s not enough time to really do anything, and it takes up both my morning and night so it’s killing my social life. I don’t have time to hang out with basically anyone anymore and it’s really getting irritating for me. Other than my schedule, I got a promotion at work. Yeah exciting right? Not really. They just gave me a shitload more to do, and then took over a month to give me a raise. And what was my raise? A whopping $0.50. Hell yes! I can splurge on shit now! I don’t blame my manager too much because I love her to death, but I blame the company for being a bunch of overbearing assholes that force them to lower their labor to ridiculous standards and screw the rest of us over. The only good thing they’ve done recently is get rid of one of the creepy managers that hit on any girl that moved, jailbait or not. It was disturbing. Let me just apologize to Mark Arbour for not getting his website done yet. I should have had it done by now and I even had a timeline that I was going to follow to assure it was done by a certain date. Well I failed that. I started it, but haven’t had a chance to work on it. I spent all day Friday in bed. Gave up 8 hours worth of shifts and went home because I was sick. Fever, vomiting, aching muscles, headache, the whole shot. I looked like hell but felt so much worse. Saturday I was feeling better so Michelle and I took a trip (more on that later) and I thought I was better. I just had a sore throat and stuffy head. I went in to work this morning and couldn’t make it longer than 2 hours without leaving. The fever came back and I was getting dizzy so I just came home to work on some of my projects and take a nap. I’ve been sick on and off lately and it’s taking its toll on me now. Granted, I haven’t gone to the doctor for anything so I guess that’s my own fault. Nothing really gets kicked out of my system, the symptoms just fade. Anyways… On to the juicy stuff I guess. I know a few of you have caught word or guys I was talking to now and then, but never really got the full story. Well, none of the guys I’ve talked to are really worth mentioning. They either tend to just stop talking to me, or we mutually decide to stop talking and it never goes anywhere. It’s starting to suck since it’s been a while that I’ve been single and I absolutely hate not having someone to cuddle with, but it’s not like I’m not trying. I just get stuck with a bunch of shitty guys. I would blame that on me usually, but recent events make me think that maybe I wasn’t such a bad boyfriend after all. Mason and I started talking a few weeks ago. Just random stuff usually. Asking how each other’s day went and what was going on in our lives, nothing major. We even took it a step further and went to a movie once. I took it all as a good sign. We were really trying to be friends and weren’t letting our past f**k it up too much. Well that changed about an hour ago. He told me he still cares about me and can’t talk to me anymore until he’s completely over me. Well f**k. There goes all the effort we put into it. It’s not that I blame him, because I still have feelings for him, but I’m just annoyed that he keeps doing this. He’ll cut all contact with me for a couple days, and then start talking to me again like he didn’t just say he didn’t want to talk to me anymore. Make up your damn mind! I’m sick of people playing f**king mind games with me lately. As if my head’s not f**ked up enough as it is, these people just try and screw with me even more. Honestly, it’s his decision whether or not he wants to talk to me. I told him I wasn’t completely over him, so the ball is in his court. He knows that I haven’t been with anyone new since we broke up and that I’ve been an emotional wreck and lonely as hell. If he still wants to ignore me and pretend like I don’t exist, then by all means, delete my f**king number and stop texting me then so I can move on with my life. But do my ex problems stop there? Of course not. Now I have the psychotic ex before Mason talking to me again. I haven’t talked to him in almost a year and a half probably and he randomly sends me a text asking me out on a date now that I’m single. CJ’s the one that said he was in love with me after only a few days and wanted me to move in after a couple weeks. He was extremely paranoid about where I was and always needed to be near me when I wasn’t at work. He really was insane so I broke up with him and never looked back. Unlike with Mason, I don’t still have feelings for him. So now he’s been harassing me and blowing up my phone begging me to see him. He even offered to come to my work before I had to go in just so he could bring me breakfast. Normally, I would find that incredibly sweet, but not from someone who I know I don’t like. I haven’t told him to f**k off yet, but like I’ve told Viv, I’m just not the type of person that can let someone down hard like that. I have to do it easy otherwise I feel like a complete ass. Either way they usually think I’m an ass, but at least I feel better about myself when I do it my way. I could go on bitching about boys, but then so can just about everyone so I’ll move on… Michelle and I went to Huntsville to visit her lover in prison. That was kinda fun. The drive wasn’t too bad. Only about two and a half hours. Jimmy’s cool. He seems like a good kid, so I approve of him Michelle. Before we could get in to see him I got pat searched by a huge old guy. Let’s just say he knows damn well I wasn’t hiding anything. His hands follow my body all over and way up the legs. It was the most action I’ve gotten in a while so I won’t complain too much, but damn he must have liked me. After prison, we took a stop down in Houston since it was only another hour or so south. We just walked around for a while, went to a bookstore, and then hit up a Freebirds and Jamba Juice. We were going to meet up with Kevin (AfriendlyFace) that night, but we had to get back home and it was a 3.5-4 hour drive so we left a little earlier than expected and didn’t get the chance. It was fun though so we’re planning on going back. Then Kevin can show us around and we can hang out with him! Well, safe to say that I’ve spoken more than my fair share tonight and I’ve still got that presentation and shit to do so I’ll leave you all to your own devices. No more reading about my drama for now Joe Who can’t wait for all this shit to be over. P.S. Greg told me to add this: http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images0...1982b26a02c.jpg

I'm jealous.... time to go sit in my corner and dream

You know how many times I get that at work!? I wear my hat backwards so I guess it makes it even more so then, but people always tell me that.

It's been a while so I might as well... And before anyone asks, no it's not my puppy, but I wanted the thing bad enough that I thought about stealing it and running out the door! (P.S. That's about as close to a smile as you're going to get when I'm taking a picture )