Scars - The things we bare - 5. Reality

Reality

You said you loved me for who I was

I waited for you night after night

Just seeing you gave me a buzz

But that has come to an end

I took each word and held it close to me

Feeling lavished by you and wanted too

Yet you had him and are his husband to be

Why did I feel I stood a chance?

The tower door had been opened happily for you

And all my dreams were laid at your feet with my heart

Still you smiled, still you asked, and I gave my soul too

Now I drag this form back into the darkness again

For you I let myself believe in happily ever after

I took pride in me again, feeling I had made my choice

But you are gone except for your echoing laughter

I’d fixed your heart, yet you left mine shattered

I let myself pretend I was human, to allow myself to feel

I let down all the walls and came totally unarmed

Yet you had already made another happy, made a different deal

You have what you needed and have flown away

I seal the wounds again and promise no more harm

I hideaway the hideous form from prying eyes forever more

No longer will a smile, a word, and a promise charm

For what do you do without a heart?

I seen you kiss so warm and tender wrapped now in his arms

Yet you talk to me like it shouldn’t hurt

I’ve lost the sun, a love, and nothing keeps me warm

The smile and nod help hide the hole

For you there is now wedding bells and love

Smiles, hopes and dreams for all to see

Your heart flies before you, radiant like a dove

I lock my door and climb the tower once more

For now we stand each back in our own worlds, today

You with sun and light for all that things you want

Me behind the curtain in the dark as is my way

All is as it should be again in our reality