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Loss - 5. My First Christmas Without You
The tree stands in the corner of the room,
in a different room,
in a different house,
in a different life.
There are no presents under the tree.
You were the one who put them there
on Christmas Eve.
You liked to tease me,
to make me wonder what was in them.
And you would shake each one
and try to guess what I got you.
You were always right,
and I would wonder how you knew--
until I noticed the torn paper.
And even though you blamed it on the cats,
I knew you always peeked.
You were always like a kid
on Christmas Eve
I always let you open one present,
because I knew you couldn’t wait.
But I would never open any of mine,
and I knew that drove you crazy—
which is why I did it.
I don’t even want to look at the tree
this Christmas Eve.
It isn’t mine
because it isn’t yours,
because it isn’t ours.
And I bought all new things for it this year
because I couldn’t touch the old things
because I couldn’t touch anything you had touched
Maybe that will go away in time
And I’ll be able to hear “Listen for reindeer on the roof!”
But maybe not.
No, definitely not.
And tomorrow morning I’ll pretend
that I forgot to charge the batteries for the camcorder
because there is nothing I want to remember
of this Christmas.
Nothing I want to remember
of my first Christmas without you.
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