My interpretation of this piece is a man in which sadness, perhaps even suicide, is his familiarity that he has worked hard to keep suppressed.

Absolutely stunning. It's not often I come across great poetry like this.

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This one feels somehow more deeply autobiographical. Sometimes I wish my inspiration weren't so one-sided but there it is. It wells up on its own or not at all and this seems to nearly always happen in one particular soil (see my profile feed for my blithe explaining away of mixed metaphors) . Exorcism isn't meant to be pretty, I suppose.  Of course reading these it looks like this is the only state I am ever in instead of it being the exception.