Well, it's totally normal to be protective of something that you care so much about... especially when you probably still feel like you almost just lost it... or were going to lose it due to his health issues. I'm glad that you are confident enough to know that he'll never leave you and if you trust him then... a little bit of worry somewhere in the back of your mind is fine, as long as you don't let it cause you to do anything... stupid or act like an ass, which you would never do to the guy you love so... I'd say you are well within your rights as the boyfriend to be a teeny, tiny but worried, but when he gets home... totally trusting, nonjudgmental, loves Green soooooooooo much Chaz is what you should be...

 

Besides... at the end of the night, it's your arms he'll be in so smile!

 

Hugs, Viv...

 

PS. Welcome to the blogs... and he can add you as someone who can post in his blog by going into his blog settings and under Editors add your GA name...

Heya Chaz

 

I know that you already know this, but I want to reasure you anyway, Green loves you to bits. He would never cheat on you.

 

I understand that you are feeling really uncomfortable with Green being out with his ex, without you. If I was you, I would be too. But I honestly believe, that Green would never do anything to lead Julio on, or let him think that he has another chance with him.

 

The problem is in the fact that I know what I have with him

And Green knows what he has with you.

 

You have both been through a difficult period and your relationship has come through stronger.

 

I dont know maybe I am being too honest here.

You are doing the right thing. Instead of sitting and stewing, you are getting your thoughts written down and out in the open. When Green reads this, he will understand a bit more about you. As you well know, honesty and communication are the keys to a relationship.

 

Am i Worrying too much?

I don't think so. I think your concerns are quite natural.

 

If you can, try to relax a bit. Green loves you to bits. He is probably telling Julio all about you and how much he loves you. It's the sort of thing he does, is it not?

 

Bev

Hi guys and thanks. Deep down I know I am worried for nothing but Julio like I said knows him intimately like I do. Se he knwos what makes him Green and I know Julio still likes him like I do. So these things slowly creep into my head making me jealous.

 

Oh I dont know. I am making too much out of this. Oh Green did that and it still doesnt let me post.

 

Chaz

hmmmmm! It worked for me

 

Green and Chaz sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G! and then some

 

Jealous isn't the right word... at least not to me. Jealous is when you want something someone else has... but Julio doesn't have anything... you do! I think lucky is the word for you... lucky to have found someone to fall in love with and even luckier that he loves you back, and even still luckier that he is trustworthy and you are secure in the fact that he loves you

 

If we were keeping score here... which we're not but if....

 

Chaz

Green

Love

Love in return

Trust

 

 

 

Julio

A great friend...

 

Sounds to me like you have nothing to worry about!

Chaz and Green,

 

Chaz, I understand your feelings and its very good to express them..they are valid human emotions. That said, I really really really believe that Green LOVES LOVES LOVES YOU and not Julio.

 

He was with Julio for some time but if you go back and read blogs from the early Fall onward....they were all about YOU.....I REALLY BELIEVE with all of my heart and being that GREEN LOVES YOU more then life itself.

 

Now, I would say you should have him read your blog entry so he knows how you feel and emotions are never silly...its about you two communicating with each other...express it, say it, embrace it, let it go and then kiss your man who so loves you dearly.

 

I hope that you feel better and I am sure by this time that Green is back in your arms telling you everything that Julio said and of course Green telling you how much he loves you:)

 

That's my story and my feelings and I am sticking to it:)

 

Let us know and remember you are the only true love in Green's Life....not to disparage Julio...I don't say this to do that but I really believe Green truly loves you and only you and that will never change as in true love and soul mates and pure love:)

 

Good Luck to both of you. Hugs too and listen to Viv and Bev.....they speak from wisdom and love:)

 

Michael

I think everyone's got it right -- Green's got it for you bad, Chaz, and it's not going away. You're safe there.

 

On the other hand, I'm not sure you should be entirely worry-free. Given the tendency of drama to happen around him, you may find you're going to get a call from the police about an unfortunate incident involving Green, Julio, the Latvian midget snowboarding team, a donkey, and two tons of coconut custard. That's an entirely different problem, though...

Ooh it wasnt custard but tapioca pudding and it ended on my lap while my two exes went at it. LOL

 

Chaz should really stop worrying about us so much. You guys are totally right I would never cheat on Chaz. I have had that happen to me once too many times and I know how it feels. Plus even if I did I couldnt keep it from him. I would run home and beg forgiveness. Now I gave him his bouncy ball back and a big kiss when I came home.

 

GREEN

Hi mate,

 

As I said to Green when he first mentioned this, being jealous of him spending time with an ex is entirely natural, but anyone who has read his blog can see how much he loves you - I really don't think you have anything to worry about. However, given the recent trust issues in your relationship you shouldn't feel bad about feeling insecure. You just have to learn to accept that this guy is still in his life, but will never be anything more than a friend.

 

The reason you feel nervous isn't because this Julio guy has anything to offer him that you don't - it's because you love him and fear losing him. That fear is just heightened by the fact that they had such an intimate relationship in the past - but he is the past and you are the present and future.

 

My diagnosis - there's no outright jealousy, just a lot of natural insecurity. The only real solution is time - you have to let the trust between you grow so that you can feel more secure in your relationship with him. In the short term though, perhaps a conversation to help you feel a bit better and, very soon, a romantic evening for just the two of you.

 

Good luck - and it's great to see the two of you back together.

 

Rob

Does "bouncy ball" refer to one of these?

 

http://www.superballs.com/

 

Those were fun!