Chris82

Crap I forgot all about making this thread! Okay, trying to be concise here: Me: not out. Nor at work. One of my buddies who works with me knows. Because I told him. My boss knows because I slipped a comment one day alluding to myself. Foot in mouth. Cant take back whats said. Already left the mouth. So that makes two people at work who know of about 12. I dont know what was said when he broadcasted that piece of privacy other than a couple guys who Im cool with told me he was saying those things about me. Of course at that point I confirmed it. But still, I guess I care enough not to stamp "Im gay!" onto my forehead. So to have someone else do it for me, well, that just seems pretty shitty. But yeah, obviously now those who know small harmless jokes are cracked. Note how I didnt say I joke with everyone. Therefore its implied some of the other guys arent cool knowing this. While Id normally say screw what they think, these are ppl I have to see and work with every day. Now my boss: he's a piece of shit. Will bold-faced lie to you with a smile. Maybe not exactly malicious, but he's not a good or altruistic person. So while Ive never brought it up to him that I have to thank him for telling everyone that about me (extreme sarcasm), he would tell me that he never said those things of me to everyone else and that he would never do that sort of thing. The same way he told the whole company one of the guy's laid up a chick when they went on a business trip yet told everyone not to tell everyone else while he went and told everyone individually. That said, hes not an awesome person, but job is a job and it pays well enough. Just gotta deal with his drama. But no, we're not buddy-buddy at all. Meh, while Im not actually looking to do anything legally or whatever about this, if I were to leave on bad terms (Im pretty arguementative when I know Im right about something and he tells me Im wrong when he wouldnt or doesnt know any better. i.e. "Im the boss because I know more than you do!") I was just seeing what would come of it if I chose to do something about it. Either way, theres a special place in hell for him. Yes I sound extremely vindictive, but you would too if you worked for this person. So $$$ is my mantra. Ok Im done. -C

Luckily of those who know (he didnt tell everyone) don't care. We make playful jokes about it. But part of me feels pretty damn violated since I'm not out. Its also pretty damn disrespectful. So I was wondering if I chose to ever pursue this further, what kind of flack could he have against him for doing so? One dude at work is a homophobe so if he knew, work place could become potentially hostile. Comments please. -Chris

I have a friend who has been very accepting and supportive as much as he can. He tends to look at things in black and white. I'm still pretty shoved back into the closet. He can't seem to understand my....hangups I guess. I told him he is lucky he can walk down any street holding his wife's hand without a care in the world. He can kiss her and no ones going to bat an eye. But if I were to walk down the street holding a dude's hand, can you imagine all the crap that would be flying in our direction? Society is fuckin evil. I'm not out to my parents. I hope I'm wrong but I'm pretty sure I would kill my parents, particularly my mom when/if that day comes. He's like you might as well just tell them and get it over with. In a way he's right but its just........ergh! I guess what makes it hard is inside, a part of me still hasnt accept that part of myself. I told him while I appreciate him, he'll never understand all thats going through my head and why I can't he so black and white about the whole 'being gay' thing. Sorry for the hi-jack! -C

So was DS3 all you expected? I thought there were going to be some answers but all it made were a lot more questions. I guess thats okay too. Keeps the series going. I wouldve liked to see some more elaboration on those guys in white in DS2:Severed that had that weird 'weapon' being those waves emitted from the fingers. What I didnt like so much about DS3 is the Markers seemed to have lost their mystile and became kind of a 'everyone knows about those now. whats for lunch?' Defeating the final enemy seemed too simple and easy. Esp when you werent hurting it with your own weapons. That couldve been done differently and for a chapter or two possibly. Ah well, theres lots of 'could haves.'

- Halo. Who doesnt like Halo? - Final Fantasy up to 9. After, meh. - Dead Space. Liked DS2 best. DS3, like it too but theres some "ehh" in there however I do like the weapon crafting system. - Chrono Trigger - Resident Evil - Mega Man X. Except X7. That game was terrible. - God of War. I think GoW2 was best of three. - Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic - Old school SNES Starfox. Starfox 64 was fun too. - Portal - Half Life - Super Metroid - Castlevania Symphony of the Night I guess I'm a little old school with some of these choices.

The presense of water has always helped soothe me. Fortunately for me theres an abundance nearby whether its the Gulf or any of the many lakes and other bodies of water. Just the sound of it splashing is often enough to calm my soul. Best is a bright moonlit night at the beach with low tide away from light pollution. Now to point out doing so isnt exactly safe. If something were to happen to me out there I probably won't be found any time soon.

While seeing this kind of thing does make me happy, it also pisses me off to no end that we have to hope for happiness like this. Why can't people just be fucking happy for everyone. Who cares if you're gay, straight, bi, or what ever the hell you want to be. Its fucking Society is what does it this shit. Theres a redneck dude where I work and we're cool but hes got that mindset, that if he ever knew, I might have to worry about my physical well being. But you know what? Society taught him to behave that way. No one pops out of a woman with the thoughts that go through some peoples heads. I just wish the day any of us can walk holding hands without anyone having to comment or say anything otherwise. Alright, I just had to get that out. I'm done now. *steps off soapbox* -C

Since no one said 'yes' I'm taking this as a 'no?'

Does getting a straight guy drunk ever actually work? Cuz none of my straight friends ever display any "adventurous" behavior while intoxicated.

Heres where the part of me that overanalyzes things starts surging forward. Its just so...ironic how perturbed some straight guys behave towards any talk of an organ they possess. But are they truely grossed out by it (shouldnt, they own one right?) or is it just social stigma? Its like "yay I love pussy but dicks gross me out." While I care not for the female anatomy, Im not grossed out by it. If the circumstance arose, I wouldnt turn down a woman just because she didnt have my preferred anatomy. I wouldnt like it as much, but Im not going to be grossed out by it. Then again I know a few gays who act like pussy is a poison thatll kill them. So maybe Im just an exception. Isnt sex with anyone about how good it feels? One of my friends (straight) was telling me its a choice to be gay. He wasnt being malicious about it. I told him its not exactly that black and white. I could have sex with a woman. I just wouldnt want to. He said that there made it become choice. Im like dude its not that simple. I like all the features of a guy, not just the part where theyve got a dick. If it were that simple then I might as well go find me a chick with a dick. He said if I could have sex with a woman then it would make me straight. I was like wha? That doesnt make any sense. At that point a warm hole is a warm hole. Theres more.....dimension to this sorta thing. I don't know. Ive kinda had some reservations that straights will never understand. Im sure the same could be said inversely.

Ah its just too bad how some others miss out on the fun. Oh well. Damn.

Ah once again social stigma ironically ruins society.

...weirded out when they see a penis? One of the dude's at work went and saw Bruno with his wife and when (Ive never seen it, too dumb looking for me) a dick scene came up (sillouetted) he insisted that they leave. Virtually every straight person Ive ever met upon the sight or mention of a dick start going all squirmy inside. You HAVE one. You SEE it. You see it EVERYDAY. You see it SEVERAL times everyday. You TOUCH it. You touch it A LOT in a day. You stick it INTO THINGS no less than a gay/bi person does. You do damn near EVERYTHING a gay/bi male would do with their's. So how come the moment a picture of a dick shows up they get all quesy? I look forward to what everyone else's opinions are! -Chris

Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex is one of my all-time favorites as far as "serious" anime goes. No ginormous sweat beads or contorted prone bodies. Also enjoy Basilisk and Trinity Blood though the dialogue in those two I think are kinda juvenile with little higher vocabulary. Still fun to watch though! I like a lot of the Gundam francises but man, did kids write the dialogues?

Small things in life that bring a quick smile? - Knowing I did something that makes someone else happy. - A good meal. - Seein my best bud Mark who unfortunately for me, is straight. Damn...

What do you locomote with? I've got a 06 Toyota Tundra, phantom grey pearl (they tried being poetic, fail) SR5 access cab. Im not much of a sentiments kinda guy so the only bells and whistles I have on (in this case in it) are a pair of HID headlights. Truck has been useful hauling people, aquariums, heavy and large objects, trash, bodies, what have you. I love my machine. It never talks back, argues, cheats, steals and is definitely easy on the eyes. I love my truck! Except when I have to feed it. Good Lord gas needs to come down..... -C