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I wouldn't mind sharing a link if it was something trully original, special, relevant or just hot... I'm sure just abot anyone who has found his/her way to this site can find beating off material by themselves too . Neph, weaker ones get scared by your stories with no age difference! Don't change anything!!!!!!

The absolute first was The Beard by dkstories. But it was really Desert Dropping by Dom that led me to this site and I'm never leaving with the increasing amount of great stories here!

October scorpio. Everything they say about scorpios is true,

How cute is that!

Sorry, you'd go blind if you see me on the beach at the wrong time... I have neon yellow bikinis

Black is sexy whewn it's given thought into it! The reputation of black goes even beyond the depression point, t's totally weird that black is linked in peoples minds even to low selfesteem or un-innovativiness. I might wear black all over and neon (sorry ) underwear that no one else can see (if I don't want them to... ).

In my darker and gloomyer days I always preferred black with everything from clothes to decoration. I wasn't a goth or anything. Then came my years of joy and liberation and suddenly colors sneaked into the picture. Bright colors! That's something I actually took notice in and discussed with my friends a lot. Geee... me wearing a flashing pink top, lol, needed some explenation. These days I do use colors to reflect my moods more than try to affect on them.

Luckily now I am back home, in front of my laptop and on my own. Oh...the joys of solitude!!!! My words exactly! Oh happiness!

I had relativelly nice Christmas eve. Slept well, eat well, red well. Had a day off. No presents what so ever. Oh, boss gave me stupied mugs. Like I dont have those enough...:wacko: First Christmas day was ok. Had to work, but that was fine. Today, total misery from start to end. I feel abandoned by few of my closest ones (not really, but that how I feel). I was working today too ( I instruct yoga). Customers lovely, boss was total pain in the ass. And really, really, I was working when other people were spenging their Christmas with their loved ones. Summa summarum, thank goodness (not GOD of any kind) there is no Christmas in sight untill next year. I'll just start rading Comicalitys shorties again. They really lift my moods up.

So, I had a really funny, cute and heartwarming dream last night. I remember being a surrogate mother to a really really adorable gay couple. Luckilly I don't remember the actually birth! I was totally happy to give the baby to those men. And I stayed in the babys life. Didin't see if the baby was he or she, maybe it didn't matter. I'll probably make a story or reality or both of my last night's dream. It just felt right. I quess I'm starting to wonder different possibilities of rainbow families. What I've noticed about my dreams is, that they manifest things to me that make everything messy clearer or less complicated. I had an epiffany of my first love in a dream, that came out of bushes because I had never ever before had any feelings towards a woman. That dream came a reality!

I really LOVE Dido. She has the most etheric voice. Something about Ville Valo's smoky raspyness makes my heart melt too. I have too many favourites to choose just one. At the moment I listen to Him and Dido...

Slightly female.

I love Andrej Pejic! I think he is beautiful too. I think I like beauty in all it's forms no matter what the sex is. I believe masculine men or boyish boys and are equally gorgeous as the effeminite ones. And that goes to females too. Still beautiful is beautiful. And A.P. is truly amazing. I don't mind the blurring of gender lines.

Have you seen this model Andrej Pejic? Don't you think he's gorgeous? He passes as a girl any time. So do you think androgyny is attractive in general? And do you see physical androgyny different from inner androgyny?

Oh, thanks for the link! Those strips really made my day! I totally agree, Dani sounds sooo gay, lol

Aleksi is a typical, a bit posh Finnish name, but in Anglo-American context it might sound gay. The person I talked to was half Finnish half german, so it shouldn't sound gay to him... I guess. His name is Dani btw, short from Daniel, so if he is reading this, then he's so gaught! But I don't want him in my writings!!!! Nope, Humon is new to me. Should I look him/her up then...?

My mind doesn't understand it and deffinitelly fights back. But then again I don't seem to have mind for anything else right now. She's like every other thought I have. My heart demands it, yeh. It physically beats more heavily than usually when I think about this. My soul is totally scared, she is like the mirror to my soul with totally freaky coinssidences. And as addition, my subconsiousness works in the weirdest way with her. My dreams have been omen like. That's something I can't pass, everytime something important in my life is going on, my dreams go into this superdrive giving me perspective. But, I've desided to wait for a while and not hurry.

What an exelennt idea Neph! I was quite a mess last night and thankfully desided to wait untill morning. I'm the one who does things with all the passion and I'm sure it freaks the weakest ones off.... But right, this time I'll play things cool. Don't wanna scare the possible love of my life... If miracles should happen, lol

Lol! Serius critics! Can't wait for one of U reading my stories... jaix... I saw it in a total different light and in retrospective you do have a point or two there! I loved the silent, ackward moments between the boyz. What can a boy say when he has really little words to express the thoughts. I liked the scene in the buss, I thoughed that was beautiful, just what the other boys said afterwards to Nathan bothered me a bit.

No way you're dumb. Your friend is a one being such an ass. You can educate yourself and learn stuff that you are interested not what's expected. If you're gonna be scared about how people think about you, or laugh at you, you are never gonna be happy. So I suggest that you stop wondering about that and live and learn the way you want. I belive there is so many different kinds of intellectuality, so much that just being book-wise is plain boring. To me being a dumb equeals ignoring other peoples feelings or hurting them.