Marzipan

This story of mine, Hot'n Cold https://www.gayauthors.org/story/Marzipan/hotncold , is all about opposites and making them work together. I wanna explore the differencies and the similarities found there where one doesn't normally look. My question is, do you think there is enough balancing between differencies. The cold is established making the winter in New York point out boys (Jaime and Aleksi) unhappiness and loneliness berfore meeting each other. Then the story moves to Honolulu, into the hot athmosphere, that isn't necessarily any better. The story darkens a whole lot in Hawaii and the boys have a huge task to make things right again, Aleksi and Jaime are supposed to be some what opposites to each other from the cultural backcround and social status etc. Does that show enough? Is there any willing beta readers awailable for the rest of my stories? I have two wonderfull editors, but I'd love to have more feedback and helpful comments on how to deepen my story. And if there is anyone that has visited Honolulu, that would be grand! I need to get the happenings in Hawaii more authentic and I've only been there in my dreams. I'm affraid that I'm totally blind to my text and I'd love to get some support on things to be improved.

Wow, that's a lot of dates!?!?! WOW Can I be nosy and ask when did this dating marathon happen? Like in recent years or decade ago or? You sure are a dating survivor! Did you meat your partner at one of these dates? And off topic, lights just went out, I'm in the dark without any candles with my laptop and cell as my only lightsources... lol

I'm a grazy emotional person (try melodramatic), who bottles up her feelings all day long and when I get to imagine, read, write or sketch my story (I do all of those) I cry like a baby. My eyes are sometimes watery all the time with my own stories and I'm thinking what is the matter with me when I can't write something happy and light. Since I spend a lot of my time working on my stories, if not writing, then doing something around them, I'm affraid I'm filling some kind of emotional void in my life... I love reading stories that make me smile and laugh, but even if my stories have a happy ending, they are always quite dark. No matter how I push myself to lighten the story it doesn't work.

The language in Jenni's and Jippus etc. songs is actually Finnish. Sweden is our neightbour country, so you did get it close! (Except our languages are not relatet.) If you like Swedish, try Kent. Now you can compare our languages And also check out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z609EQ0dLJo&feature=BF&list=MLGxdCwVVULXedD9YQfsBd_oiHnAPq19yA&index=19 It is hugelly popular in Finland. And definitely something different And you might like Chisu, she's a bit like Jenni.

Serial monogamy, that's new term for me Do you mean going from one relationship straight to another? Finding oneself is really healthy! Have fun doing it!

Ok, I see your point Neph! I feel that I'm such a weirdo too, that I can't show myself (meaning the true me) to a complite stranger, I just can't. I must be able to trust someone and that I guess eliminates the dating aspect for me too. Not that I have a low selfasteem, no I like myself, but I don't see many people appreciating the same thinks that make me happy and giddy. And finding the people that do, is really really hard.

Do you go out on dates? Will you date a person that you are not interested, but he/she is asking? Just to see if there is a spark there? I did that yesterday, and it was only for a coffee. It didn't work. Awfull. He was cool and flirty and what ever. And he is really good looking. The problem was, I didn't feel right to ask the really important questions, those that matter to me. How on earth am I ever gonna date a stranger. Well, I won't. Too much pressure, especially if you are not totally into him/her. So, I've not been on dates for ages and I find them terrifying!

Hi! I'm currently writing a series of two boys with totally different cultural backgrounds. Other boy is Finnish and the other half Hawaiian. I'm not recommending though, but you might wanna check it out. It locates in America: NY and Honolulu, but also partly in Finland.

I'm more of a cynic than romantic optimist. I think I wander between those opposites (Romantic cynic?). BUT I want love and hopefully one day that'll come my bath. I'd rather be without a partner, than settle again in a relationship without love. I've been there and left that behind. And I think I'm capable of telling if someone just sweet talks me. I've been around the block for that long and seen all kinds of storytellers. See now, I have become a cynic... Tryong to learn to trust in people is hard, but I'm taking baby steps towards it. Still, love is such a powerfull forse not to hope to happen in my path too.

Queen is my current obsession...

The poor boy is gonna run screaming with his high heels, when all his GA-groupies gather up! :lmao: Who else is on, Zolia Lily, Neph, anyone else?

Soo romantic I'd still rather take my chances on love than settle. I used to settle and wait for a miracle, not gonna do that anymore! I'd rather be alone than relying on faith that I'll grow to have feelings for someone...

When I asked about if ANDROGYNY is attractive, it was really about personal preference. But this led to much wider discussion about cultural and social limits of accepting differency. That's totally fine. I'm glad that this discussion has deepened from it's original, light hearted purpose. Coming back to the attractivity issue. To me the single most appealing thing in a person is his/her open mindedness. And kindness to other peoples feelings. And sensitivity. Those things have nothing to do with gender, sexuality or even masculinity or femininity. ( Amelia, I find you really attractive )

I think I would give a year of my life, my first born, well, almost anything to have a chance to meet the King of Rock, Freddie Mercury. He is the biggest idol I have ever had both with his bravery in personal life and an amazing vocals. His voice brings shivers every time I hear it. He was so full of energy and life as an artist. He was hot as hell and could pull out all kinds of looks from androgyne to ultra masculine without being any less of a man. *Points out to the androgyny discussion -->* The Show Must Go on always brings me close to tears. Maybe I'll meet him in afterlife.

Thanks for the lecture! You really did clarify the grammar of it's and its in an enjoyable way.

I miss U Freddie Mercury...

Frostina, thanks for letting me of the hook! That kind of things annoy me to the max...

Gender identity and sexual identity and their represations are totally different matters and can be put together in all kinds of combinations. For me diversity is a richness of humanity, not something that should be judged. Tipdin, you didn't judge it and the wonder that you had about this issue is very valid. I don't think any of us can put ourselves in other peoples shoes (or heels) to fully understand what goes in their minds and reasons behind their actions and choises. And lol, your sisters soun cool! I really enjoy looking happy people wearing what ever they want and just simply being who they are. Many people explore different sides of their gender and maybe even try to expand the hetero normativity by choosing to go almost drag. I wear mens shirt, and trousers and even a tie sometimes quite happily and see nothing wrong with it. Dressing up in a skirt and heals etc. the whole femine package makes me feel fake and almost being in drag. I can find a man in dress totally sexy, not freaky at all. But every brain works differently, my brain is totally twisted and I don't mind at all

You look lovely!!!!! BTW, what's the book behind you in the first photo? I can almost see the cover and now that I don't it bugs me... Annoying

I love that playing the androgyny field challenges traditional concepts of maskulinity. It doesn't say anything about the beuatiful male models' or artists' sexual orientation if they are or are being represented androgyny or styled feminine. It's a challenge for those who need to protect their own genderidentity, not for gay men. And hey, it's old news that masculinity is in a chrisis.

Maybe you should ask from him in privat messenger, I'm sure he can be more detailled there... He is being politically correct now and uses self sencorship.

Totally fair enough

Of course you don't have to lie, I recon you better being honest! But as I (a bit off topic) wanted to point out, what I felt weird about your choise of words. Inly humans deserving disgusting-label in my mind are those, who do bad (murder, rape, hate-crimes, etc.) things to other people. I might be sensitive, I admint that cladly, but I don't get offended very easily by simple words. And don't get my message wrong, I don't mean to put you to that bad people's gategory even if we have a difference of an opinnion. And you do have a right to feel nausea over what ever you ticks you wrong.

Whooaaa... that's a lot of messages!

I think judging someting like this to be disgusting, simply baced upon personal preference, can be pretty ugly too... Just my opinnion. I might not be a least bit appealed to big hairy men with moustaches (excample only), but I still don't think bear appearance is discusting. Very stunning! Soo much prettier than me! And I can imagine how hot he is without his make up!