Uplifted Spirit

Lisa, you are really into the smell of sex. I guess it's possible, but unlikely unless they went into Andy's room. Dillon isn't gone. He will return. Do you think it's possible to rehabilitate him? I'm not sure. And how would we know if he was rehabilitated. Hope you like the way the chapter finally ended up.

ANDY Matt and I never thought we'd be writing a second book. But here we are again telling you about our personal lives. LIke Matt said earlier, we do not write about sex just to give the reader an erection, and in the case of any female who might be reading this, a wet vagina. They are here because we want you to feel what we felt, at least as well as we can express it. I suppose words can never do it justice, but we're doing our best. I was into sex long before Mat

Lisa Is Matt figuring things out? I'm not so sure. He's caught up in the power of sex. Will it last or will he have second thoughts? Guess we'll find out in the next chapters. Uplifted Spirit

Atorus Thanks for the review. I like that sentence myself. Sometimes you write these things and you wonder where they came from. It must be deep in my subconscious. You bring up a point. Will Andy make it out of the knot or will he tie more knots. Thomas and Randy are still lurking somewhere in the story. What about them? What about the knots Matt is tying. How will it affect him? I love asking these questions and finding the answers as I write. Thanks again for being so insightful yourself. Elias

Matt’s Reflection on Knots Andy and I wrote about our freshman year in high school in Knots. We were in our twenties when we wrote it. We’re still in our twenties, but a year older. I asked Andy to write his side while I wrote mine. He didn’t much like the idea at first because of the knots we tied in our lives that year, but he finally agreed, and by time we got to the end, he was enthusiastic about the project. So we decided to write about the three years that followed that t

This is a continuation of Matt and Andy's reflections on their freshman year in high school that can be found in Knots. Matt and Andy are searching for who they are and have been willing to share the highs and lows of their four years in high school. Knots 2 covers their sophomore year and the knots they tie in their lives.

In the original, Matt was left comforting Andy and that was all. But this is gay fiction and I needed some way to show how much Matt loves Andy. This seemed like the best way. But you'll notice that he still has doubts about what the future holds. Was this a one time thing or will they be in a relationship? That's for Knots 2 to decide. It also led into Andy saying that he thinks maybe he tied two more knots, one in his life and one in Matt's. I don't know if you've ever seen the movie, Tea and Sympathy. It's an old movie with Debra Kerr. It has a theme like this. I also read a book called Love Let Me Not Hunger in which a girl gives herself for love. I read it so long ago, I'm not sure if that's it, but it seems like it in my mind. Hence the ending which flashed into my subconscious before I even thought of the movie and the book. But later, I realized it was planted there long ago and is now in Knots. What kind of sacrifices will someone make if they love someone? That's the question. Matt's love is not selfish. Andy's probably is. We'll deal with that in Knots 2.

One of the parents of the two younger boys told on Dillon. While I didn't go into detail, the background in my mind is that Dillon seduced them like he did Andy. He started coaching them. They looked up to him and one thing led to another. I'm going to integrate them into the story more in Knots 2. Dillon was a victim himself and often victims become pedophiles. It's good that they caught him now so they can give him counseling before it goes on for years. At some point he'll be in his 30's and still be going after young boys. We'll deal with that in Knots 2 also. I saw a movie with Ted Danson, where he was a child molester. The child always acted very loving toward him because he feared what would happen if he didn't. That isn't the case with Thomas and Randy, but their behavior wouldn't necessarily indicate that they weren't doing it out of fear. You're right Lisa. Andy was ready when Dillon came along. But the question always remains, was he a victim. I can see the controversy. He was willing, but he was susceptible to Dillon's moves on him. Dillon pursued Andy and not the other way around. I'm not offering an opinion on this. Readers need to decide. This is fiction and it's not a matter than needs a solution. Thanks for writing a review at the end of each chapter. I appreciate the support in your reviews and your edits. Uplifted Spirit

Matt Andy flopped on the bed when we got into his room. “Shit. My life is over.” I wanted to tell him, I told you so, but didn’t. What was there to say? It would be all around the school the next day and everyone would know Andy was gay and had been sucking and fucking with Dillon. All the gay bashers would either be on him or ignore him. We still had the whole football season ahead of us. I could just see the guys in the showers staring at Andy like he had the plag

Thanks for the review Daithi. It was a sad chapter. Like I told Lisa, Dillon was a victim himself at 13 and often victims become predators themselves. It's sad but true. It's good that they arrest Dillon now and give him some help. That's something to examine in Knots 2. I hadn't thought of that until now as I'm writing you. Uplifted Spirit

Dillon was a victim himself when he was 13. Unfortunately, victims often become predators. Who knows what Dillon was capable of if he wasn't arrested while he is still young. Thanks for the note. Uplifted Spirit

Someone told me about your story because we both have the same protagonists, Andy and Matt. I plan on reading your story as soon as I finish the last chapter of mine. It's called Knots. Ironically, our introduction is somewhat similar. Small world. Uplifted Spirite

Suspicion Andy, Matt, and Dillon lived their lives as if nothing had happened. Matt saw Andy for their lawn jobs, but most of Andy’s time was spent with Dillon. Matt never joined Andy for Dillon’s infrequent coaching sessions. Football started, and as usual, two practices and sometimes three a day sapped all their energy. Matt and Andy would sit in the shade between practices, drink water, eat lunch, drink more water, and then just lay stretched out on a blanket until

I sure hope you want to know the answers. You bring up a good point about Matt's dad. Dillon will probably play along as long as Andy doesn't say anything. Dillon has no way of knowing what Matt and Andy talked about. As far as he knows, Matt was too ashamed to tell Andy. Dillon knows about these things from his own experience. Victims often say nothing.

Dillon's messed up. He was molested and now he's become a predator himself. Now that he's 18, he needs to be stopped.

True enough. But remember Dillon saying, they never did give him much attention until he became a football hero. Some people are like that. Now they live through him and ignore obvious clues. They may have a sneaky suspicion, but they are in denial just like Andy. They don't want to believe their son is doing anything with these boys.

Now that you've read further, I'm sure you already know it's not on the up and up. If you were to write the ending, what would you write? OR Maybe I should ask, how do you think the story will end?

Love, or the belief in love, makes us do strange things. You are observant. I kind of hinted that they might know what's going on, but don't much like the idea. I thought I'd backed off of that some, but maybe I need to go check if I edited it out. I want them to be aware that he spends a lot of time with younger boys, but be a little clueless as to what's going on.

Andy Dillon’s mother had breakfast ready when we got up. I can’t believe how cheerful she was in the morning. Mr. Burke had already left for the golf course. He invited us the night before, but Dillon declined. We made small talk with Mrs. Burke for a few minutes after breakfast before Dillon and I excused ourselves. Dillon drove with one hand on the steering wheel grinning at me as he drove. I turned to him. “I hope Matt’s all right. How ‘bout dropping me off at

Andy Dillon and I had the hottest sex after his birthday party. I’m not sure what got into him, but it was like he was demon possessed as he and I sucked and fucked. It was like he was a madman. I loved it. A few weird things happened before we had all that hot sex that I couldn’t explain. Dillon welcomed Matt and me, introduced Matt to his parents, and when I stepped away to get something to drink, two incoming freshman, Thomas and Randy came up to me and began asking me all kinds of ques

MJ Even though I carry the name Uplifted Spirit, I hate to say that when everything in my life seems perfect, I expect something bad to happen. Life is really like that. But the opposite is also true. When life seems bad, I expect it to turn gold again.

I understand why you're disappointed in Dillon. But victims often become victimizers. It's sad but true. But my name isn't Uplifted Spirit for nothing. Hopefully, you spirit will be uplifted by the end of the story. Andy sure is in denial. He's been wounded and it's like he's bleeding to death. A slow death is often worse than a quick one. Of course, I'm not talking about real death, but the death in one's spirit when something like this happens. Do you think the two young boys at the party distracted Andy so Dillon could bring Matt up to his room? Are they part of the plot? Again, thanks for your review. I always love it when you say, "Terrific chapter Spirit."

I like that you said the story depresses you so I must be doing something right. Nicely put. I've been reading your story and love your voice and sense of humor.

It is a painful chapter. Poor Andy. Andy had said something on Thursday at the motel that the only thing that would end their relationship was if Dillon killed his parents, Matt, or himself. Dillon didn't kill him, but he wounded him. Will he bleed to death? Let's hope not.

Andy Dillon told me he was spending his birthday on Tuesday with his parents so I waited until evening to call and wish him a happy birthday. He sounded happy. “Thanks,” he said. I know it’s my birthday and all, but I have a surprise for you. What are you doing Thursday?” “Nothing right now. What do you have in mind?” “Can you get away from about three to midnight?” “Let me check. I’ll call you back.” I