Thorn Wilde

Well, you’re good at it. Could make a good living as a relationship counsellor.

You’re right, I did do that. As he did for me. Thank you.

Getting out of bed this morning was haaaard! I know getting up at 9 is nothing to you guys (what is it, 7 or 8 over there?) but I normally sleep until noon, lol!

Well... I kind of wish I had someone I loved that way. I don’t really have a reason to jump out of bed at all. I love boyfriend, but not with that kind of devotion, I don’t think. The rest... I hope you find it.

I know. And that’s not sad. That’s beautiful.

Well, that’s a start, isn’t it?

Right now I’m reading Siege Line by Myke Cole. It’s the third book in a military fantasy trilogy. The second trilogy set in the same universe. They’re really cool books. This trilogy is a prequel to the other one. The first trilogy, beginning with a book called Control Point, is about magic harnessed for military use, people with magical powers being forced into military service, running black ops. This one is set before all that starts to happen, when magic is new. Very cool. The first book is called Gemini Cell. Myke Cole is a former US Coast Guard. These books do not romanticise military life at all. They’re gritty and interesting and very well written. Plus Myke is a really cool guy. I had a beer with him once.

Found a friendly soul who helped us jump start the car. It’s cause of the cold, and this car not being used very frequently... But we’re on our way, and will probably catch the ferry just fine.

Ahahaha, the car won’t start! Well, that’s just great. We’ve got some time, but... If it’s not the battery, we’re not going anywhere. Lololololol!

Goodnight!

Morning, DiC! You’re probably all still asleep, unless some night owl is still awake, lol!

It makes me happy to get a glimpse into your life together, @MichaelS36 and @Mikiesboy. There is so much love. That’s so wonderful. ❤️ I’m off to bed now. Early start tomorrow (well, early for me, anyway). I’m off to Denmark for a folk music thing with my parents. Four days in a hostel with a bunch of folk singers and a hundred-odd guitars, lol! Boyfriend’s staying here. Wasn’t sure when/if he was coming when the trip was booked... So he gets to feed my parents’ cats. Nervous about the journey; there’s a gale blowing over Kattegat, and I get motion sickness... Anyway, goodnight DiC! I may not be around much while I’m travelling, but I’ll stop by occasionally.

That just breaks my heart. How sad...

I loved this story, I thought it was very sweet. I get what Mann is saying about the ending, though I didn't think much about it at the time... I just remember hoping that we'll get more Logan and Connor one day.

Thank you. And the rational part of my brain knows that. Convincing the rest of my brain of that... That's what therapy is for, I guess.

All true. And some people self harm in ways you can't see but that are no less permanent. I cut myself at one point. Just a couple of times, and the scars are nearly faded. I was fifteen at the time. I look back on it now and this voice in my head tells me that I was just being dramatic and just wanted attention and bla bla bla. I mean, I'm glad I stopped before it became a habit, but I hate the fact that part of me looks back at that and just ridicules it. Same with the bullying, a part of me is like, well I was a precocious brat, no wonder they bullied me. Same with my suicide attempt when I was ten. I was just being dramatic, I probably wouldn't actually have done it, I just wanted the attention. That voice is very destructive. EDIT: And now that voice is telling me that I'm being stupid and whiny and just want attention for even writing any of that. Brains suck. I want a new one. This. Growing up sucks. I'll be over here with my comic books, my video games, and my sci-fi shows. And my D&D group.

Most of us have something. I have stretch marks from when my meds caused me to gain lots of weight very quickly. I call them my tiger stripes. And I have scars, too. Like Reader says, adds character. Knock ‘em dead, molly! ❤️

Well, my ex-girlfriend’s arms are practically one giant scar from self harm. Doesn’t make her one bit less beautiful. Anyway, your a beautiful soul, so since I’ve never seen what you look like, that’s how I see you. EDIT: The heart is cause I love you.

I imagine you as magically beautiful.

Nobody fits the mould. Most clothes are not made for real people.

I still have to wear women's trousers. Cause hips. Same. I'm a bard.

Wish I had that kind of money, lol! I went to H&M. Cause it's cheap. I did find a flannel shirt that wasn't catastrophically big, and a t-shirt I liked. Wanted something to wear this weekend, cause I have a gig. It'll be the first time I perform while presenting as male. Cut my hair again. Saw a guy on the metro with almost the exact same haircut, so that made me feel good.

Lol! I missed all the fun, it seems. Cold here, too. I’ve been out shopping. How do short, chubby guys find clothes that fit? I wanted a new shirt, but they all go, like, midway down my thigh. Sigh...

I have a furnace now, too. It's nice.

Good luck with your meeting!