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Purr, did someone say 'cat'?! A long while back, I remember looking at RRS, but don't recall why it didn't appeal to me, so I never read anything else except that Advent calendar...and I don't know which of those he did. The Viking image was damaged by you hinting that you might not have a large Viking axe. Deep throating is another thing we share--not done it either, thanks to not knowing how to overcome the gag reflex. Most of the guys I knew were just about right to make it work fine.

LALALALA--got my fingers in my ears--not hearing this, Tim! You'll ruin my vision of you as a heroic half-naked Viking!! I guess I've been lucky, my first full-on sex was with a friend and his 9" penis...he took his time, and it was fine, but I think I was lucky that it wasn't thick also. I always tried to be as gently with my later friends. I read your story first, since I couldn't track down Aditus' right then, and I enjoyed it just as much since it was the same 'world' you wrote about. I'd not read any of his stuff before, so my friends' stuff always comes first. Will be checking more of him out later!

You know my history, my dearest friend...I think you'll understand how well I can relate to this with just one word: Kevin

I gotta give you a big for pointing me to Cupid Central...I never would have found it otherwise. I love the whole concept, and hope you guys will write more in that world!

How you find words for a lot of my own feelings escapes me, G-Man...but you've done it again. The unexpected surprise at finding yourself once again hurt by the world around you, despite having experienced it before. Always the hope that this time it will be different, so why is it always a shock rather than routine? I put it down to the fragility of the human heart--it's need to feel complete when it finds another kindred soul. If it weren't for that, we'd be safe behind our crenellated battlements, but alone. No, we must endure bittersweet reality if we are to have a chance at honeyed dreams....

I always hated puzzles, too frustrating with my limited patience...and not enough reward. An intellectual puzzle is different, and I can devote a lot of thought to those. When those 3-D puzzles came out, I bought two, one of a Pyramid, and another I think was Parliament. Never worked on them after looking at the pieces. Isn't there a Yul Brynner line from 'The King and I'--'it is a puzzlement.'

Had too many of those sleepless nights myself, G-Man...at least then the weird dream of running naked in a maze pursued by something Unseen wasn't the reason for waking. You'd think that was a relic of teenage angst? Try a glass of schnapps before bed. xoxoxoxoxo

G-Man, it's so hard sometimes to find words that don't sound cliche...I hope you know how I feel about you...one of the very few who stood by me in real life when I needed it most. I could so easily have given up. The words 'it's never too late' may sound corny, but it is both true and a lie at once. There is a time when it is too late--when the other person is no longer part of this earthly realm. Until then, all is not lost. Trust me, I know from sad experience. An infinity of hugs your way, my dear friend!

I'm dying to find out who Patrick called about Sonia--there's no way he'd not try to help her. A masterful weaving of the AI stories and this one...but what else would we expect? Hey, didn't need the translations--except for the bit about the coat.

I love these two, and the whole idea of a Cupid Central...I'm all for further adventures of these guys, and even their interaction with Cupids and the Powers That Be. So much potential for wonderful stories of romance or intrigue! And I'm off to read the new CC chapter now, and try to find Aditus' chapter too. Tak for sjaele mad, min ven!

Janus was a two-faced god: inside and outside, beginnings and endings, so I look on The Malaise as one face of Janus--looking back, and we have yet to see the other one--looking forward. So much remains in your head that the Earth Mother wants to come out...indulge her, my friend. Maybe some of the voices clamoring to be heard are from Packs waiting for the Cure to Come? You know, it's your own fault if you leave discontented readers: you weave such a tapestry that we wrap ourselves up in it, drawing comfort and sustenance from it so much that we don't want to sally forth into the real world of jobs and stress. You provide us a cup of tea, a comfortable seat and a welcoming arm just when we need it, my friend!

Well, my weeks and Mondays are going to be a less exciting place from now on... For me, you've accomplished the first goal of a hero: he's discovered himself...now, it's time for him to take that knowledge and fulfill his Destiny. That task has only just started, giving him a solid base from which to work--now his task is to bring order to the world around him...and make it safe for Democracy! Seriously my dearest friend, you've left so many tales we must learn the resolution to: the two young boys who are to be mates, finding Arthur's pack and others, showing us Warren's wolf...and hinting that Kellar wants to continue his destiny into the future--that implies children, in my book. Oh, and we need to find out if Connor becomes a wolf too when he becomes Hugh's mate! I'm going to put exclamation marks in all my stuff until you decide to continue! ! ! !

See...these are odd cultural things I don't know about, so don't know what to ask you about! I'd have definitely used that. So what else am I missing?

Believe me, if I could have found pizza seed, I'd be planting it now in my city lot! For a 'score-card', see the Player Link on the Front Page--those still work...for now. No more new characters, promise. Except for it being a real town, the people are all in my head, except me and my family. Jay was incredibly loosely based on a boy I knew who did what Jay did at the start, but I didn't take it any farther, and we were just friends. The clues are all there: east of Columbus, distances and other things--I've had one person here guess correctly because he grew up in another little town north of mine.

I've been sleeping okay, but had mærkelige drømme the past few nights. Kinda scary, involving mazes or something...no idea why. Can't work them into any stories. Make sure you check the pumpkin link--I know it won't work in the chapter, but copy it and check it outside...it's from a Charlie Brown cartoon from '66 about Halloween. Jay and Mikey...hmm, I can eventually see a lot of sowing going on, and I'm sure both boys will reap the harvest of that in time. Potatoes? I think I missed something...but then, that's not unusual for me. Tak for de venlige ord, min ven!

K had problems beyond family ones, so it was a combination of all these which led to his end...but I think he could be more himself with me than anywhere else. Inside of him was another guy wanting to come out--a sweet and often sappy one--who would make me smile or laugh every time. I hope I can bring him more of those moments here. Only those of us who lived before all this 'acceptance' can realize how fragile it is...youth, even gay youth, think they are invincible and things will go their way...maybe when they come to full power and the older generations of bigotry are gone that could happen, but it won't be soon enough for us. Once again a mark on the human psyche fuelled by religious intolerance.

I'm so glad my story is working out for you...it's been nice reliving those years vicariously. 'If I only knew then what I know now' is often said about making one's past different...but so much of that depends on external circumstances that it wouldn't go as we think it might. I could have been bolder, and maybe my own 'Jay' would have become more than a friend...but there aren't any guarantees except in fiction.

Thanks Ivor, maybe I've grown more subtle over the years? In high school I was told I was sarcastic and cynical--by a teacher! What's weird is, this occasion was one where I was totally honest--she'd given me a ride home in her early 60s car, which was awesome to an old car nut like me, and I told her I loved it. Go figure.

The links, in all my chapters that don't work are in the chapter itself, not the Notes or Description page. In the 1st chapter of Jay & Miles, there's one to a Bicentennial Minute from 1976, and one to the trailer for the Helter Skelter movie--neither of them work, nor does the link in chapter 2 for Foghat's Slow Ride, just to start. They all worked fine until the 'tag' problem, then not at all since. Do I need to delete cookies again for GA, or what? I'm using a desktop pc a year old, running Windows 10, and the latest version of Firefox, which had all these things working a month ago. Nothing's changed on my end that I'm aware of. I tried activating them by clicking on them, as usual. Thanks for the reply.

Hey Wesley! Denny is making progress, and we know who to thank for that. It's unfortunate that Bill is in another school district, otherwise he could join our group. I have to work the dynamics for them, and that's hard because K is based on someone very dear to me who is now gone. I want to give him the happy ending he couldn't find in this life. He succumbed to external pressures and would only let me help so much.

Thanks so much, BA! Each of my couples has developed a slightly different dynamic--but they have one thing in common: each partner supplies something the other needs to be fully himself. J/M I think are my own wishful thinking, since they were first and Mikey is actually me from those days. He has found what I longed for, and never quite achieved. Benny and Calvin perhaps seem more daring or advanced sexually, but that's because they had four months of denied attraction to sort out--but the emotional bond is still there and just as strong as that of G/D and J/M. Perhaps too, they are generally more outgoing than the others? More on the way....

I'm a little confused now...the story tags seem to be fixed, or at least to me, but all the links in my chapters don't go anywhere--I know the urls behind the text are right, because I tested them on my copies. Is this a different bug? Thanks for fixing so many of the stubborn ones! It's the second-generation ones that you don't suspect until you fix a major one.

POV: Denny, Jay I spent Saturday night with Greg after we left the drive-in. I’d only stayed over once since we started going out, just as he’d stayed at my house Easter weekend when my parents were up in Cleveland at a fundraiser. We probably could have slept at my house on weekends—we had six bedrooms counting my parents’ suite—but Greg’s house felt more like a home, not just a place to lay your head. It was after one in the morning by the time we got back, and the only lig

Fendral is something else...he wasn't the best Alpha, or the best father...but he's realized his mistakes and is taking full responsibility for those things...and not letting it stop him from engaging in life again. I don't think he'll want to be Alpha again, and I think he'll allow Kellar to forge his own destiny rather than become something he's not. Kellar has a wider destiny than with just MOrningstar, as he's shown with Vega...and now with Fendral's presence, he may feel better about finding it. Amazing, my dearest friend.

Hey Tim, a 'whisker' is international, in the same way that 'donkey's years' are. Dodger, the memory loss is worrisome...losing events close to the time of the 'accident' is common, but this is a longer time period. I hope it turns out to be temporary. Also, I am unsure as to whether Don and Sue are still unaware of Nathan and Robbie's relationship, or even if Daniel is....it would be so easy for them to know now. I hope Jamie isn't too sick to recover from what has him on oxygen all the time--and kudos to Rory for making the effort to cheer him up--that was unexpected.