Comicality

Amen to that, Myr! I'm done with it all. Life goes on. But these people seemed to have so much to say and so much to worry and complain about...I was giving them a chance to take it up with the source of their so-called misery. And they didn't take it. Not a single one of them. I haven't gone out to deliberately hurt or offend anybody. I haven't broken any laws, I haven't caused them any problems, I've been nothing but a class act to everybody here. And I'm going to continue to do so because I actually stand for something. I honor and appreciate myself, and I don't have to whisper about who I am behind anybody's back. So, from now on, if anybody reading this hears somebody talking about how awful 'Comicality' is outside of my presence...make sure you all send them this link. My offer still stands. Until they have the courage to talk to me directly, I'm going to assume that it's not all that important to them. In which case, they need to relax and keep their mouths shut. Just saying. The world is full of drug dealers, rapists, serial killers, genocidal maniacs, deadly diseases, and an unprecedented amount of greed. Homelessness. Domestic abuse. Whole areas of the world ravaged by hurricanes, floods, tornados, earthquakes. Deadly pollution. There's a whole LOT of positive impacts that these people can get into if they want to use some of that 'complaint' energy for good, or are just looking for something to do with their day. Instead, these cowards want to come here and pick on me in between jerk off sessions. Fuck off. I'm ready for them if they have a problem with it.

What 'one thing' would be? Hehehe! You forgot to tell us.

Hehehe, the pic of the grandparents made me surprise LOL!

A brand new chapter of "My One True Weakness" has just been posted! I hope you like it! And let me know what you think whenever you get a few seconds after reading it! Cool? Love you lots! And I'll seezya soon! https://gayauthors.org/story/comicality/myonetrueweakness/ Or you can read it on the Comicality Library with a brand new picture of Colin! Enjoy! https://www.voy.com/17262/

"My One True Weakness 9" There's no feeling like waking up to heartbreak. That next morning, I just...I felt it in the center of my chest, you know? And I felt bad about it, because it's not like Colin owes me anything. I have no right to ask him to love me or demand that he tells me so, even if he does. I haven't done anything to deserve his affections, nor have I made any moves to cause him to return any of the infatuation that I've been willing to shower upon him, were he to

Well, they fucking SUCK! And I hope they feel proud to know that pissing people off is all they have to offer this world, and nothing else. Because they could be good people...instead, they decide to suck. So fuck 'em. I am so confused as to how anybody can live their lives this way. They're afraid that I'm going to prove to them how much they suck. That's why they won't talk to me. I have no problem doing it. So quit being cowards and send me an email or post on the board. Let everybody see what a bitch you are. You know?

Again... Comicality@shackoutback.net My email is open 24/7...cowards! Say something! I'm waiting!

Very true. But they're the ones making pests of themselves. So talk to *ME*...you know? What are they so scared of? Why do I have to hear about this shit second-hand? They want to complain? They can do it right here where I can see it. I'm an adult. I can handle it. Let's have a discussion about it. Yes, I'm calling them out. Stop hiding and tell me what you really think and feel. WTF are you being COWARDS for??? Talk to me. I'm not the boogeyman. Let's have a chat. No need to go behind my back with this bullshit. I'm right here. What is their problem with me? TELL me. You know? Otherwise, shut the fuck up and leave me alone! Bitches! It's funny how these things only become an issue when I'm posting a bunch of new material. Some people just HATE to see other people succeed. At anything. Well, that's not my problem. Be mad. STAY mad, for all I care. Just leave me alone. And leave my friends alone. Leave GayAuthors alone. Go stew in your own self hatred and stop bothering other people. You SUCK! Get help! Let them deal with it. Because I'm not going to stop posting and being popular with my fanbase ust because they want to find the stupidest things to complain about. I've got ways to get around their bullshit. Always. So they should just relax and find somewhere else to go to get their rocks off. I mean...we write SEX stories here, right? So WTF is your problem? You know?

In my last email announcement, I asked the people who wanted to go behind my back and complain about my stories or the pictures that I use or whatever else they seem to be so triggered by to speak up and talk to me face to face. Talk to ME directly. And you've got nothing to tell me? Speak up? Where are you? We can have a civil discussion about this if you want to. My door is wide open if you feel like you have a real problem with what I do online. I'm entering my 25th year. So what is your problem with me? Do you need my email again? Comicality@shackoutback.net Talk to me. Don't take the coward's way out and complain behind my back. Talk to me. I'm right here. I'll wait. I'm giving those selected few people a chance to tell me to my face what the hell their problem is...and now you've got nothing to say? Don't want to send me an email, post it right here on the board. Speak up. Let everybody here know what issues you have with my stories or me as a person. Don't get all shy and quiet now. Because you weren't shy and quiet when you were talking behind my back. So say what you feel. I'll be right here waiting. Say whatever it is that you feel you need to say. I'm ok with it. What are you scared of? It's not like I'm gonna jump on you or anything. If you've got a problem...bother ME with it. Let's have a discussion about it. That's fair, right? Allow me to face my accusers. Say something. Make your case. I'm cool with talking about it. So let's talk. I'm still waiting...

A new chapter of the "Gone From Daylight", vampire Western, is now up for you guys to hopefully enjoy! If you get a chance, let me know what you think! Cool? Have fun! https://gayauthors.org/story/comicality/gfd-children-of-sunset/

"GFD: Children Of Sunset 11" Can't lie and say that kissing Colby like this didn't have my whole world spinning around me. My blood was racing like a runaway fox, and I couldn't slow down or at least pace myself to keep from making a mess all in the front of my britches. It was rising up awful quick, and I was enjoying it too much to push his hand away. I started contemplating just letting it happen and hope that he did notice, but as I got more and more lightheaded, with Colby's ton

I know you guys have heard it before. It's been said time and time again to every writer who's ever taken a class, read a book, or watched a video, on writing before. They all say, 'write what you know', and it is assumed that you can't go wrong as long as you stay in that comfortable little pocket and don't stray too far away from it. It sounds like it makes perfect sense, doesn't it? At the most...you'll have to do a little research on your own to get the terminology, the facts, and the details right. It makes for a believable story, and anyone who has been in that same situation or has worked in that profession will be able to relate, because you're coming from a genuine place and telling your truth. Well...the real question is how do you write what you know into a good story? That seems to be the part that a lot of these lessons seem to skip. Don't ever think that something like that can't go wrong, because I assure you...it most certainly can. Writing what you know can add an extra sense of knowledge and credibility to a project, sure. But without the proper finesse and careful weaving of your personal knowledge into a story, it can also create a total disconnect between you and your audience...and that's never a good thing. Always remember that every second that your readers spend getting detached from your story and its characters...it takes them three seconds to get back. Keeping them at arms length will only result in confusion and possible boredom. You don't want that. It's the whole reason that 'Layman's terms' exist. Hehehe! So, let's spend some time talking about the deeper meaning behind writing what you know, shall we? One of my personal guilty pleasures, movie wise...is "The Fast And The Furious" flicks! Hehehe, it's true! As ridiculous as they've gotten over time, I can't NOT watch the newest sequel when it comes out. I love them. Here's the thing, though...the new chapters of the "F & F" saga are pretty simple. Fast cars, guns, explosions, women in bikinis dancing for no reason, and some martial arts thrown in for good measure. And they've become increasingly popular over time. They're pretty accessible to any and all audiences. Hollywood knows how to use that formula to make a great deal of money whenever they want to cash a rather large check at the bank. Way it goes. However, I remember when the first two or three chapters came out. And they were definitely entertaining in their own way, and were still sticking to that same basic formula...but you want to know what was different about that first movie as opposed to the last one? You can tell that it was written by someone (Or multiple people) that were enthusiasts who had a deep passion for automobiles. If you go back and watch it again, you can almost feel it. Right down to the bone. Watching that scene, you can tell that it was crafted by someone who has a real knowledge of cars, engines, racing, and the whole culture and brotherhood surrounding it. Which is very cool! It makes you feel like you're a part of it, you know? So that's an awesome way to bring your love of a certain field, subject, or passion, into a story... ...For a while. Now, some of you guys and gals out there might be car enthusiasts and auto mechanics yourselves...but if not...when they lifted up that hood and was talking about the fuel systems and the Nos and engine...did you understand any of that? Hehehe! I didn't. It sounded cool as shit, but I could never look at an engine and break it down like that. No way. Ask me about writing gay romance stories online and I can go on, non-stop, for hours at a time. But cars? My knowledge is extremely basic at best. Here's the thing...the people who put that scene together were bringing their particular expertise to that scene, and they made it amazing. It was done in a way where other auto enthusiasts could relate and get excited about what was happening, and yet people who know nothing about cars felt as though they were included in the fun of it all anyway. So high fives for working that out in such a masterful way. But remember...that was just a scene from the movie. But can you imagine if that was the whole movie? Like...if it was all mechanics and tech talk from beginning to end? What would that do to their audience? It would narrow it down. Considerably. The key to being able to write what you know and about what you love is being aware of your audience to a degree where you understand that your niche may not be their niche. If it's something specific to you and you want to weave it into your story, then I think that's great. But, again...you don't want to alienate a majority of your readers by getting too technical for too long. Not everybody knows how to fix a car engine, not everybody knows tactical military strategy, not everybody knows the ins and outs of complex heart surgery. It's awesome to display your knowledge for a subject and appeal to others who know the same terminology and have the same nuance and experience that you do, but don't forget that you're writing for a broad audience with a wider variety of interests that might not include your one special 'thing'. I'm not saying that you should cater to that audience or aim for the lowest common denominator with your writing. I'm just putting it out there that this is something that every author should keep in mind when they're putting their project together. No matter what you write or who your characters are...you always want to keep your audience connected, fully engaged, and absorbent to whatever information that you're feeding to them at all times. I think it's a good practice to center in on the emotion of any given scene first, and then let the specific details leak in to support that emotion to create a more three dimensional picture. The reason why I say that is because emotions grab almost everybody in a similar fashion. Using that "Fast & Furious" example again...you may not know the intricate parts of what makes an engine run or how looking under the hood of one car or another can be all that different, seeing as you don't know what's going on in there. BUT...you know what 'excitement' is. You know what pride, and competition, and respect is. THAT is what is being displayed in that scene. That's what makes it work. I have no clue as to what kind of engine that car is running on...but I know that when he lifted that hood, everybody gasped and gathered around to marvel at it. So my brain is puzzled, but my heart is telling me, "This must be BADASS to get people 'in the know' to react like that!" So I get excited too, you know? It's all about how you make your readers feel when you're writing. Take your particular knowledge and expertise, and find ways to weave it into the plot and deeper emotion of your story so that your audience can play too...even if they don't have as deep an understanding of the subject matter as you do. Bring them in. Allow them to explore the same space. You can get a much better reaction from their emotions than you can with a bunch of expert technical jargon. Write what you know, but be mindful of what your audience knows and doesn't know, going in. It's always a team effort...writer and reader. This is a two man sport. To give another example of this, I want to display a clip that comes from an older movie called "Hackers". Obviously...computer hacking is nowhere NEAR being this fun! LOL! I don't even know why anyone would spend the time doing it, to be honest. But, then again, I don't have the skill or the patience to even begin to pull off what some people can with a laptop and a few random passwords, so I doubt I'll ever be in that camp of expert hackers who might watch a film like this and really get a thrill out of it. However, what this movie did was use music and visuals and a variety of other tricks to make this scene look action packed and exciting...when really it would just be somebody sitting at a desk, typing code on a computer screen, trying to figure out how things work through hours and hours of trial and error, and maybe getting an occasional breakthrough every once in a while. Now, to a computer hacker...that's a RUSH for them! And if you happen to be a computer hacker reading that story or watching this movie, you're seeing things and getting all jazzed up over stuff that I simply can't understand. But...for those who aren't computer hackers and are just average movie goers looking to see a cool flick on the weekend, this scene was spiced up and injected with a heavy dose of that Generation X adrenaline that the 90's was known for. Hehehe, check it out. Do you see what I mean? What is probably countless boring hours sitting at a keyboard, eating chips and hardly doing anything at all...has now been made to look like a digital fist fight on camera! The graphics, and the music, and the speed...it brings in the entire audience. What would that scene have been if it was just five minutes worth of tech talk that nobody other than computer security experts could truly comprehend? People would have checked out halfway through...and then your story has to work harder to bring them back in. I think the secret to writing a really good story is to have the plot do as little 'heavy lifting' as possible. Bring the readers in and have them lift with you. They should be working with you. If you lose them and then have to go through the process of dragging them back into their literary engagement...a lot of your genius prose is going to end up falling on deaf ears. It's like wasting gas on an extremely off road detour, just to get back to the main highway. Writing what you know can be a bonus...but it can also act as a distraction. Finding a fair balance between the two will ultimately enhance your story and increase its appeal to all audiences instead of a select few. Lock down the feelings and the emotions that come with your knowledge. The emotion is where you're going to grab your readers and hold them captive from scene to scene. Everybody doesn't get excited by figuring out computer puzzles. Everybody doesn't hear the intricacies of Jimi Hendrix playing the electric guitar, or understand the difficulty of Eminem's rhyme structure, or can tell the make and model of a gun simply by looking at it or hearing it being fired from a distance. If YOU can do that, and want to add that into your story for a more authentic feel and a realistic take on whatever tale it is that you're trying to tell...then awesome. Go for it. But always remember to do it with a balance, and keep it in mind that not everybody is going to know what you're talking about. That doesn't mean that you can't be specific and add fine details where you feel they're necessary. It just means that, if you're looking to appeal to a wider audience, don't give them enough 'show off' knowledge that will allow them to disconnect from what you're doing with the story itself. Remember...for every second that the spend detached from your plot and characters...it takes three seconds to get them back on task. And two or three paragraphs about seeding the ground for farming, solving advanced mathematical equations, or fixing a septic tank...can add up to a LOT of seconds! Hehehe! Add a scene or two, but trade some of that technical jargon in with the emotion surrounding the technical jargon. That's the way to get the best of both worlds. At least, that's my opinion. Writing what you know is so much fun, and it allows you to share a personal piece of yourself with the world that you can feel proud of. The key is just to remember that 'the world' is still out there, and they want to play too. They want to be involved. They want to be engaged. And you don't have time to explain everything to them after they've already started reading your work. A big part of being a popular writer is making your work accessible to a variety of different people from all walks of life. Younger, older, male, female, gay, straight...the more you tap into the core emotions of any given situation, the more people you will be able to connect to and hold still...even when dealing with subjects that they don't really have any previous experience with. If you're a part of the LGBTQ community...think about this. How many heterosexual romantic comedies have you seen in your lifetime? They may not speak to your attraction directly...but you understand the emotion behind it, right? You might only like men...but you get "Sleeping In Seattle", or "Pretty Woman", or "The Notebook", or any one of a million other movies about a boy meeting a girl and falling in love. Not because you share the attraction...but because those movies tapped into the emotional part of that situation, and the details were added to enhance the picture. The emotion is what we all latch on to, whether we feel the same way or not. Keep that in your heart and mind...and you can write about anything and still draw an audience. It's liberating. It really is. Anyway, I hope this helps a bit! Keep writing, and keep expressing your hearts the best way that you know how. You never stop learning new techniques. I'm still learning new ones all the time myself. But, if I can leave a few breadcrumbs for the next big author to pick up and rise up to reach their full potential in the future...then I'm blessed! Hehehe, it'll give me some good shit to read later! Take care! And I'll seezya soon with more! Love you lots! And Happy writing!

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CHAPTER 10 I actually experienced three more orgasms before going to sleep last night! And every last one of them was just as monumental and messy as that first one. I think my body just gave out from pure exhaustion at one point, and it felt the need to knock me unconscious to force me to break away from hours and hours of further self abuse. I just couldn't stop thinking about him. About touching him, inhaling his boyish fragrance, or staring at the glory of his totally perfec

Sighhhh...I ove you Sam. Hehehe, you too Sage!

A new chapter of the "Gone From Daylight" spinoff story, "GFD: Dead Language" has now been posted on the site! I still have a lot of fun writing this story, as it deals with two total ENEMIES having to work together for the greater good! And yes, thanks to Erick from the Shack, verzpetillio is an actual vampire language that he created for this story specifically! One of the biggest fans ever! Hehehe! So enjoy tis new update! And let me know what you think when you're finished! Remember, everything is free! So give me a shout out every once in a while! It makes me smile! Hehehe, I hope I do the same for you too! Seezya soon! https://gayauthors.org/story/comicality/gfd-dead-language/

"GFD: Dead Language 4" Somersaulting into the fray, I joined Charlemagne in the attack, doing my best to strike out at our target while avoiding his retaliation...and all while giving Charlemagne enough room to do his own thing as well without cutting a few slices out of me as well. Where were these imaginary daggers coming from. He just kept using his extra to create them, one after another...and they seemed to be in an unlimited supply! Every time he managed to stab the Hunter with

Youtube decided to start censoring all gay teen short films, and wiping out all favorite lists that include anything that MIGHT make the gay youth feel okay and normal about who they are. Just out of nowhere, for no reason. Saying that it violated their 'child safety' rules and regulations. But that's bullshit! So I'll be posting ALL of the stuff that I had suddenly 'removed' from my youtube account without warning. You guys please feel free to stop me when you find a short film that you think is 'dangerous' (Their words, not mine) for gay teens. K? What's so offensive about liking and sharing the stuff that I find on Youtube? Why am *I* getting a strike on my account??? Wednesday is now "Gay Like Me" short film day. Since 'shame' is the agenda for those who don't have to live with it these days. Every week! Every Wednesday! I'll be right here with another one! FUCK those people! Seriously! These are all gay short films that I had on my account that, for some reason, they found so dangerous and offensive. Like I said...you tell me what YOU think about them, and why they needed to be erased from my account. Is *THIS* what they were so afraid of??? Maybe I'm missing something here. Enjoy! This week's Short Gay Film - "Boys Wear Nail Polish"

The story continues for our Christmas boys, Aric and Blake! I hope you enjoy the new chapter! Please take a second to let me know what you think! It does wonders for the soul, ya know? Hehehe! https://gayauthors.org/story/comicality/a-home-for-christmas/

"A Home For Christmas 3" I'd like to say that I didn't really get a good look at Blake without his shirt on, because I wasn't trying to be creepy about it or anything...but, hehehe...I most certainly did! Believe me! Now...don't get me wrong. It wasn't my intention to really scheme on him in some sort of a predatory way...er, at least I don't think it was...but he lifted up his hoodie and all of that sensual teen flesh came into view all at once without warning, and I was sort o

It has been a long while, but as all of the "GFD" stories are reaching the point where they can all intersect and crossover the way they were always meant to, I've got a lot more freedom to bring some of these original stories back into the fold! So, enjoy this new chapter! And if you want to start this series from the very beginning, just click the link below! And big ((Hugz)) go out to the Shack's own Nathan and Caleb for allowing me to write them into this series! I have fun with the two of them! Hehehe! And I miss you both! Have fun with this vampire 'heist' story! https://gayauthors.org/story/comicality/gfd-high-jinx/

"GFD: High Jinx" Chapter Four - The Stakeout "This is the kind of job that could, quite possibly, change the worlds of darkness and daylight as we know it. Forever." They were the first words that came to mind when Joey finished his sleep cycle for the day. Why would Soren say something so...'epic' about something as simple as the heist of a single item? Exactly what kind of massive damage is he expecting this 'Limelight' weapon of his to do that's going to have such a major i

One of the things that I regret from years ago was my complete inability to understand the language barrier or even the casual slang that people used in their emails or comments when giving me feedback to the newest chapters of stories that I put online. Hehehe, so my apologies if I misunderstood certain phrases or expressions of personal wit and took it as an insult or a criticism. Trust me, I don't do that anymore. Weird, right??? Comsie matured? Say it ain't so, Joe! LOL! Well...not by much, I assure you! But a little, yes. But there were people from overseas that would refer to certain parts of a story as being 'stupid' or 'lazy', and I used to take those as harsh comments, even if the rest of the feedback was mostly positive. It wasn't until later that I understood that some of these were common words used to describe certain things that were meant to be complimentary more than anything else. And I began communicating more with people from Korea, and Russia, and South Africa, and Brazil...and our communications are so different. It's crazy! It took some getting used to...but I think I've got a much better handle on it now. And I kinda feel bad for taking offense earlier for such petty things. Ugh! I suck for that! But, that's just a build up to something that I want to talk about here when it comes to our writing. Because where my earlier misunderstandings once lied...there are many more landmines placed for your readers to suddenly trip over when reading your story from beginning to end. Word usage is a huge part of being an effective author. There are a lot of people that will believe that words are just words, and the message will be conveyed the same way, no matter how you say them. But, I'm here to tell you that this couldn't be further from the truth. The words that you use have a HUGE impact on how your current emotion, tone, and theme, is received by the people who are reading your work. Don't doubt it for a single second...it's the truth. Sexually speaking, there is a major difference between saying... "I slid into his narrow opening, feeling it tighten up around my erection as this young beauty presented himself to me, wanting more." And saying... "I shoved it into his supple body, his ass clutching my cock in a vice grip as this sexy twink slut begged me to go deeper." Same action, same scenario...but the mood is different. The feeling is different. There's nothing wrong with either one of those expressions...but you can't deny that they have a completely different vibe to them. No matter what it is that you're writing, the words you use to describe what's happening in your story have a major impact in how someone reads it. So it's something to think about when trying to gain attention from a particular fanbase or market your stuff to a certain demographic. So...today, let's talk about word connotation...and how to keep it consistent throughout your story so as not to send out mixed messages. I won't lie...this took me a few years worth of practice before I could find my own particular rhythm when it came to this sort of thing. And that's normal. So no regrets. I chalk it up to being a very helpful learning experience for those first few years of me figuring things out on my own. For instance...I don't really use the word 'cock' in my stories anymore. I just don't. I've reached a point where it almost sounds a bit vulgar to me when it comes to the kind of stories that I write, personally. Romance and love and a bashful kid kissing his dream boy for the very first time? It feels a little off-tone to then say, "And then he shoved his hot COCK in my mouth!" Hehehe, my apologies if the language caught you guys off guard, but that's kind of the point of this article. Words matter! People are reading. And your poetic and lovely romance can turn into hardcore porn in an instant if you're not paying attention to your word usage. It's something that can drastically change the tone of your whole narrative and put your audience in an entirely different place from where they started. And that's how some really good stories end up slipping between the cracks, where neither side is going to end up being really satisfied with what you're putting out there. Is this a super hot story that I can jack off to and explode in the next few minutes? Or is this a romantic character driven story that I can follow and engage myself in over the next few weeks? Instant gratification versus emotional investment. Some people don't know which is which. You either get people skipping the sex to get back to the story, or skipping the story to get back to the sex. And, believe it or not...a lot of this has to do with words you use when you're writing. I learned a lot about my own writing when I went back to re-edit and update older chapters to match some of the current chapters that I was writing, and I was truly amazed by how different the feeling was between my most recent stories and the horny, sexually frustrated, stories that I started out with. Hehehe! It was like night and day. That's not to say that I regret those older chapters or how they were written. That's what I was feeling, and it was perfect for what I needed them to be at that time. But, now that I'm finishing up a lot of my long running series...my biggest worry is that they'll come off as inconsistent as a whole project. And that brings us to rule number one...be consistent. If you want to write a sex story...cool! Write a sex story. If you want to write a romance story...also cool. Write a romance story. But word usage is key if you're looking to maintain that particular mood throughout...beginning to end. There's nothing wrong in burning up some built up hormonal fury by writing a story about throbbing cocks, tight assholes, sucking, swallowing, and sweaty sexual encounters in an empty college dorm room during a party. If that's what you're shooting for, then use words that will paint that picture and give your readers that particular form of excitement. That's not really a place for rainbows and puppy dogs. You're in an entirely different lane of traffic now. (The fast lane, to be specific) However...if you're looking to create a love story, concerning matters of the heart, passion, fear, doubt, and warm and fuzzy feelings for your protagonist and his love interest...then you need to stay in that lane and maybe slow things down a bit. Avoid a bit of the hardcore language, and try to use phrases and descriptions that are more 'beautiful' than they are 'hot'. There's a difference. Create a little online thesaurus for yourself if you have to. Look at all of the words that you might use for a sexual experience...and put the into two different categories, based on how they make you feel when you read them. Read other people's stories to see if you can figure out the difference. If words like cock, phallus, member, or erection, make you think more of online porn? Put that in column A. If words like manhood, shaft, hardness, or length, feel like they take a bit of the 'sting' off and can be used for more romantic stories? Put them in column B. Revise from time to time if necessary. The point is to develop an instinct for how words work and how they affect you. Chances are...they are affecting your readers the same way. The best example I can offer you comes in the form of two stories that I wrote, a few years apart. New Kid In School was not only the first gay teen story that I wrote online...but it was the first gay story that I had written ever. And if you read that first chapter now, you can probably see how different it feels from something that I might have just written a few days/weeks/months ago. I still love it, and it will always have a very special place in my heart, but it's clear that my word usage isn't the same now that it was back then. Skip ahead a few years, when I was a bit more settled into my craft and learning the lessons that I needed to learn to create something a bit more nuanced and complex...you can read the story, "Ryan's Heart"...which is that same first chapter, but written from 'Ryan's' point of view. Go through and see how the word usage is different. How some things are better off 'suggested' instead of written out. Does it 'feel' different? Do you feel different when you're reading it? I have no idea what my word count is on GayAuthors at this point, but I know it's in the millions somewhere...and I've developed some of the weirdest gut instincts about the way I phrase certain things! Hehehe but they work. I stand by them. You see, this doesn't just apply to sexual matters. It works for everything you write. Our connection to words is more emotional than you may think. If you call somebody a rapist...does anything else they say in that sentence really matter? How do you get past the negative connotation of the word rapist? Like...wait, WHAT??? If you say that some drug addict won the marathon for breast cancer this weekend...what feeling does that give you? Mixed messages in your work come from mixed word usage. And it's really hard for me to explain, but if you go through your own work...you might see examples of your own that will stand out as being conflicted in terms of theme and tone. Being consistent is soooo important. Hmmm...how can I describe it...? Let's say that you're writing a romantic story, right? And your main character reaches down to rub the hard lump in his lover's pants. If everything has been written as a love story up until that point, and then you say, "I grabbed his crotch"...well, that could be a stumbling block for some readers. It takes them out of the moment. In terms of tone, you went from 'date night' to 'truck stop bathroom' in the matter of a single sentence. You have to pick a tone and make it your anchor. Don't try to hop back and forth between romance and porn, it rarely works. That's not to say that porn can't be sweet, and that's not to say that romance can't be naughty when you need it to be...but you need to constantly be aware of what connotation the words you use are taking on for your readers. Remember...the connection is emotional. There's a difference between making love, having sex, and fucking. And you can use either one, depending on what you're writing at that time. But make sure that everything that you're doing before and after that sensual moment matches up. Know what kind of story you're preparing to tell beforehand so you can pull this off. Pay attention to how certain words make you feel when you read them. This is why reading a variety of stories other than your own is so important. Find the stumbling blocks and signals in the work of your peers. It's all text...but the text has meaning. Meaning that might go much deeper than you would ever expect it to. Look at the words. The word sadness may affect you and convey a certain message...but what if we crank it up a bit? What about misery? That may give you a feeling of prolonged sadness that has lasted for quite some time. What about torture? What does seeing the word torture do to you? Agony? Heartbreak? Numbness? They all have a different feel to them. Read them, think about them and how they make you feel, and once you get a personal understanding for them...figure out how to best use these words or words like them in your own work. What about being mad? Then anger. Then fury. Then RAGE! Then LOATHING or HATRED! There are different degrees, but the words alone, as well as your audience's connection to these words, can help you create instincts to use just the right word at just the right time. And this will come in handy when trying to convey a certain potency of emotion when writing about your characters' experiences in their story. Does that make sense? Hehehe, I hope it does. Anyway, the point is finding an understanding of the building blocks that you use to create your story. Go through your own stories, go through the stories of other writers, and try to understand how certain words were just perfect in sending out the message that the story needed at that particular point in time. Why do I feel like this? Why does this description of two boys kissing for the first time make me melt and giggle this way? Why does this character's death make me want to cry so badly? Why does that one sentence make me want to angrily put my fist through a wall? Why does this description make me so HORNY? Find the emotional attachments to the words that are used to convey the strongest of your emotions...and then find ways to use them to your advantage when writing stories of your own. You can manipulate your project in ways that will get everyone to feel exactly what you feel when you wrote it, and you can trigger and pull on any emotional strings you want in order to get the feeling to leap off of the screen and truly affect your readers in a powerful way. Words have so much power. When you watch commercials on TV, when you watch the news, when you listen to music...you had better believe that there are people behind the scenes that are working their asses off and getting paid TONS of money to alter your perception to get you to think what they want you to think, and feel the way they want you to feel. Trust me...I've seen it. And it's frightening to witness, to be honest. Hehehe! But your words have just as much power as theirs do. So wield that weapon with caution and grace, k? With great power comes great responsibility and all that jazz. Take care, you guys! And I'll seezya soon with more!

Youtube decided to start censoring all gay teen short films, and wiping out all favorite lists that include anything that MIGHT make the gay youth feel okay and normal about who they are. Just out of nowhere, for no reason. Saying that it violated their 'child safety' rules and regulations. But that's bullshit! So I'll be posting ALL of the stuff that I had suddenly 'removed' from my youtube account without warning. You guys please feel free to stop me when you find a short film that you think is 'dangerous' (Their words, not mine) for gay teens. K? What's so offensive about liking and sharing the stuff that I find on Youtube? Why am *I* getting a strike on my account??? Wednesday is now "Gay Like Me" short film day. Since 'shame' is the agenda for those who don't have to live with it these days. Every week! Every Wednesday! I'll be right here with another one! FUCK those people! Seriously! These are all gay short films that I had on my account that, for some reason, they found so dangerous and offensive. Like I said...you tell me what YOU think about them, and why they needed to be erased from my account. Is *THIS* what they were so afraid of??? Maybe I'm missing something here. Enjoy! This week's Short Gay Film - "The Swimsuit"

Hehehe, what? If I was a super hero, I'd be thinking the same thing? It's a simple request, Alfred! Geez!