What a story! I have read good gay/bi fiction for years, but none of them can compare to your story. The pain, agony, drama, love, passion, joy are overwhelming. I had an experience with an American army soldier stationed in Germany years ago, and the story brought back to me all the pain and heartache that had long been suppressed, You are able to convey all these feelings with so much intensity. I would read the chapters during the day at work, and then sob on my commute home for half an hour. I have decided to write my army soldier (now civilian) in Munich and mention themes from your story. I love him as much as Andy loves Matt. Thank you for the powerful journey!