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Oh Billy, how far are you going to sink, how much are you willing to lose of yourself? Are you going to hurt Lee, Brandon, Trace, Jimmy, Bobby, Ian...and be left with who...well that’s easy, no one.

What the hell happened to our sweet Billy. He has literally become someone i don’t recognize. I think that he is going to get hurt or hurt others with this new attitude of his. I hope he hasn’t caused permanent damage between himself and Sam. He keeps talking over and over about how important Sam’s friendship it so him...you just don’t have sex with your straight best friend and it not change things between you, usually not a good change either.

When are we going to catch up with and talk to his sick friend he brought over? I forgot the name, but shouldn’t he be awake by now?

Hey Jonathan, I hope 2021 is off to a good start for you. I noticed the status on The English Year has changed to “Temporary on Hold”. Has something happened? Do you have an idea when you might resume? Take care, John.

Yet another great chapter.... Something I've been wondering about is Corbin and his pledge brother's. They all seem close, so close in fact that I'm jealous Corbin is able to freely talk about sex life with his straight peers. My best friend is straight, I cannot think of a more supportive person I have (outside of my husband), but no way do we sit down and talk about sex. Now of course we are both married and beyond the dating scene, thank god. Anyway, Corbin is very lucky with these guys including Hutch. But Corbin has drawn a line with Hutch and is already challenging him in a way I don't think you normally do with someone who is your best friend. Same way I don't see you going behind your best friend's back to make deals with the devil (Dom). So as things progress and Hutch becomes president or worse Corbin tries to sabotage Hutch's election, how are the other close pledge brothers going to deal with that. Are the rest going to gravitate to their straight brother Hutch or to their gay brother Corbin, the same gay brother Corbin who is constantly putting them in situations where they are always having to cover for him and watch his back. Just something in the back of my head I've been wondering about. Eventually if Corbin and Hutch starting butting heads like he does with Dom, the other pledge brothers are going to have to choose who they support. Has Hutch ever given them reason to doubt him, we know Corbin has. Would you choose Corbin? I was very proud of how Corbin handled both Pete and Chip. Of course I was majorly surprised to find Pete on Corbin's couch. "Just come home at night", well if Corbin wants to live with that and be okay then who am I call this relationship toxic. I just wonder about how long-term this can be. Does Pete go back to the U.K., does Corbin go with him giving up his family here or does Pete stay leaving his family behind. Either of those can cause problems. There are so many "what-ifs" that happen with any relationship and those don't usually start off with one of the participants unsure of his sexuality. Pete already resents Corbin for forcing him into this situation, what other resentments will Pete have?

Ugh, Ugh! Jonathan seriously you are killing me...we’re you really like this? And damnit I want Mike for you.

Well I wanted the surprise to be Mike, but Corbin/David isn’t a bad substitute. And they each approach this knowing it’s for fun no-strings. At least we know that of Corbin. David to me is still very much a mystery...what is his end game. I think I’m through buying into his simple easy going approach. He is just as complex just maybe more quiet about how he approaches things. I don’t think he is all that naive either, but what the hell do I know. Every time I think I’ve figured something out you go and fuck me. so ifc huh, so glad I never played in that court just didn’t have that same drive or daddy’s money...in fact daddy didn’t have daddy’s money either. I like chip and Christ 10 words and he has read Corbin like a book.

Please oh please let it be Mike, I've missed me someone military hunk! Yet another great chapter. I sound like a scratched record (you young ones on here won't understand that 😆), but I swear each and every chapter has been great. It doesn't have to be a deep emotional roller coaster to make it great. I love the interaction with David, but is he more than a filler in time. I hate to say that because I just don't agree with using people like that, but we are talking about Corbin and no one uses people and spits them out better than our dear sweet Corbin. Besides David has to be only filler because I want Mike and I'm tired of waiting for his return.

First off, I echo everyone else that this is a great chapter. Jonathan your writing continues to amaze me. I really appreciate that we finally heard from Pete. I’m glad Corbin got called out on some of his shit. He is demanding and has to have everything his way, he almost comes across like a dictator. My take is that he came to the states to study abroad for a year, have some fun in the U. S. and then go back to being a Brit. He was not coming across the pond even remotely looking to fall in love, maybe not even have a hookup. But that is as far as I can agree with his speech. I know I will rile some, but IMHO Pete knows, we all knew. We might have been in denial but we knew, it may have been pushed down deep, but we all knew. At least that is how I feel. So I’m not buying that Pete can’t sort out how he feels, I just feel he refuses to admit to it. I know I didn’t want to admit to myself but that was me trying to be someone I wasn’t. That was me trying to be “Normal”. I also don’t understand David. We’ve known about since started, but has he really shown an interest in Corbin prior to the last week of fall semester. We really didn’t hear much on him and Seldom on Lee. We heard more on Lee and his g/f and then it seems suddenly at the end of the fall term he is all the sudden Corbin’s bitch no matter how much Corbin keeps throwing him under the bus. I just don’t understand or know enough about either. Other than at the first of the story we meet them and now the last few chapters they pop up almost as new characters. I do get that Corbin is planning to use them as part of his power grab. Are these guys gay/bi what? I can’t see them saying straight. Straight guys don’t generally let gay guys fuck them, at least none I’ve ever know. Well I guess that’s my 2 cents worth. I love the story, definitely in my Top 10 of all the gay stories I’ve read and this isn’t even complete.

I love reading fraternity stories when they are based upon real events. I enjoy seeing how Greek life works from one school to another. I knew of schools that didn’t allow pledging in the fall like we have in this story. There are those of us that threw the focus into fall rush and less so with the winter/spring semester. Our campus was this type of system. If you were Rush Chairman in our house you were 1 of 3 paid officers of the fraternity. Our rush started late spring and hit full stride by the end of June. By mid-August just a week before classes, the majority of our fall class was already wrapped up. We threw massive rush parties throughout the summer in the major cities of our state (Oklahoma) as well as focusing on Dallas. We charted buses to haul as many guys as available to the Dallas rush parties, that was our life line. Now this was the 80’s and alcohol didn’t have near the restrictions you see now and when I first started college, the drinking age was still 18 (yeah I’m old, fuck you all). We did have formal rush week in early September and mid January. For our school system at the time only about 25% of the students were Greek, but Greeks held the power. We usually took 25-30 new pledges in the fall and 10+ in the Spring, anything less was setting us up for financial failure. My house no longer stands and we’ve been off campus for several years for this exact reason, our rush numbers slipped semester over semester. Our housing Corp kept things alive for probably 2-3 years before we (I was on the Housing Corporation Board at that point) and shut things down from a housing standpoint. Each campus operates differently when it comes to housing, on ours there was no surviving without one. Our group lost its charter within a year of us shutting down the house. To this day, a grandfather clock (purchased by a pledge brother’s parents) sits in my living room waiting/hoping that someday there will be a fraternity house to move it back into. we paid the Rush Chairman a small stipend and free housing. Same as President and Treasurer. The rush chairman had to give up any thought of working and earning real money during the summer. You only got elected to the role with the understanding that was your summer job. The stipend to the treasurer was the highest , followed by rush, then lastly the President. I really appreciate all the details Jonathan shares regarding how things worked and I certainly appreciate that he still guards the rituals and secrets of his fraternity. More info than any of you wanted, but I share anyway.

Okay, so as usual we see Corbin being Corbin, just insert a new name in the roll of the victim. If you want to call David a victim, but ultimately that is exactly what he will be, another notch, another victim in Corbin’s mess of a life. It’s clear to me that Corbin realizes he’s a total fuckup with his relationships, and yet he carelessly deliberately brings in yet another victim to crush in his web. ‘Now as for Hutch, can we get a bit “Holier-than-thou”...yeah maybe he has a right to jump to the conclusion that he does, after all it is Corbin so the behavior is expected could even be shocking if the crazy manipulative behavior isn’t there...but isn’t this the same Hutch, a supposed friend/ally to Corbin, that was just a few hours earlier plotting with someone who is clearly an enemy of Corbin’s against Corbin. Hello Pot, I’d like to introduce myself, my name is Kettle!

Great chapter Jonathan. There have been several and personally this may be one of my favorites. I have lots of opinions about each of these people in your life, the boyfriends, the fraternity brothers, Roberto, and that slimy Brit. Don’t trust the Brits, nothing good comes from that. I think this is one of my favorites simply because of the sheer overall tone of the raw personal look into your life, the life of a 21, 22 year old college kid finding his way. Finding is happiness. There is nothing happy at all about this chapter...you were stabbed in the heart at the end of the last chapter and that bled over to be the primary theme of this chapter. Then not once, but twice you were blindsided by those you were supposed to be able to trust. But some good came from the last event of your most trusted brothers letting you down...you got a lot of shit off your chest. You may not have been ready to face Pete or tell off your pledge brothers and only you can really determine how well that worked out. The best thing is you told that fucking waste of space exactly what you thought. I don’t remember all the prior hashtags but I’m still 100% Team Mike until I read he has moved on with his live and left Corbin in the dust where he belongs, I’m also 100% Team anyone but Pete. Since I’ve just joined the story a couple of months ago, I wasn’t around for the hiatus (but I’m curious about that of course and missed seeing any explanation if one was given), but I sure as hell hope there isn’t another. I’ve got enough great stories that make me sad as they sit dusty on the shelf waiting for their proper and due endings.

It speaks to how low one must go to be lower than Corbin.

WOW! I won’t defend Corbin at all with how he handled himself with Nick. There are certainly easier/better ways to break up, his approach was almost with malice toward someone who just wanted to fall in love with him and have it returned. Maybe the relationship was not going to work, but I think Corbin’s reasoning is a bit off. And it probably began with crossing that line into cheaterville. ‘As for Pete, holy shit he is an idiot. Maybe Nick was behind that but to go blasting Corbin the way he did, damn! He doesn’t even deserve a guy like Corbin, and that speaks lower of Pete.

So the line was crossed, you can justify this with all the fancy words I your vocabulary, but youCorbin have joined another fraternity...a fraternity of cheaters, hope it was worth it.

The kiss that wasn’t. Not buying this line it’s just business....Corbin can sugar coat this anyway he wants, but this was borderline cheating. And once a cheater, always a cheater. So I hope Corbin really thinks his actions through...

Manipulative little “Bitch”. Does the real Lee ever call you out on your shit?

JUST THE BEGINNING! I’m not sure I can keep reading this and fight down the urge to hunt you down. You are just going to torment us with this back and forth shit.

You make me so damn mad! You’ve said more than once that this is an autobiography so keep that in mind every chapter. I’ve made the assumption you are Corbin, sometimes I wonder if you are really Mike. But then I think damn, this kid is really getting the shit knocked out of him during what are supposed to be the best, most fun years of your life. Then I just want to hug Corbin and tell him it is going to be ok, except I really don’t know. You’re telling this story, so again I make assumptions that you’ve landed on your feet and hopefully are happy with your life 12 years later. You are now mid-30’s in again one of those periods that are supposed to be the best of your adult life. right now I want to just hit anyone that is a Brit! It’d be better if it were Pete but I’ll settle for any Brit. My heart just aches for Corbin and I’m sitting here thinking just a little more than 5 months and Mike comes fighting for his man.

I think we all have or at least need someone like Lee in their life. It probably would not hurt to be Lee, although I’m not sure I ever was, maybe can’t see the truth in my life to admit to it. I know in my fraternity days I had someone like Lee, a kindred in-the-closet spirit so to speak. I know he definitely boosted my ego and power trip. For different reasons I had a Lee type person in my latter 30’s. I’m not sure what I provided to him, for me it was again a power trip to help my ego. Just an honest assessment of a darker period in life. I find it interesting that someone thinks Corbin is just now coming to a dark side, I was under the impression he lived there most of the time. I agree he and Pete are toxic. I still want/hope he and mike find their way back to each other. College is fun, it’s about experimenting, it’s about a lot of things. Mike may not be perfect and it could be an imperfect relationship, but he is finally honest with himself and Corbin that he loves him. I get he doesn’t promise anything too, at that age 6 months is almost eternal. They both need to grow up. But I still like the “idea” of Mike and Corbin together. Now something in the back of my head that I keep thinking… even Jonathan said this is basically an autobiographical account with some modification. So we’re all sitting here assessing Pete Mike and whoever else… Some or all of us may have to eat a lot of crow at the ultimate result of who Corbin ends up with. Maybe neither of these guys. I’m sometimes thinking I should temper my words, what if I’m trashing his husband or something.

Jonathan you are absolutely killing me....I love Corbin & Mike, why do you insist on these stumbling blocks. Ugh I hate is chapter and screw Pete, he is a coward. And as one who was a coward until I turned 30, I have earned the right to call a spade a spade. Corbin deserves better, he literally lived a lie until hitting college and he deserves to love and be loved. It seems Mike could be the one to love him if he could just be patient. UGH!

I love me some Mike the Cadet. He is a good guy and he really is showing how much Corbin means to him. He didn't have to react to Pete, but I guess after probably overhearing Corbin's declaration, he felt he needed to reinforce that he seconded the sentiment. I'm sure there will be fall-out, can't wait to see how you Mr JWolf piss me off by screwing with Corbin & Mike. P.S. Did you really hate Lee so much you forced him away like that? I wished our fraternity had used a ball system like that. Simple majority ruled on voting in pledges. But as an officer and Treasurer, I found it sometimes easier to get rid of them through other "Official" means.

I love sex and laundry. Mike was cute with his unannounced and unplanned shopping trip for sheets. I love how far he has come with Corbin. That hard shell has softened, but how much further will he give in. To even have Corbin's dick in his mouth was not something I expected to read quite this soon. I did expect that he would eventually suck Corbin, just not quite this quick. What I'm not sure is if Corbin will get the pleasure of entering the inner chamber of Mike. It was also huge that he let Mike skip the condom, that is a whole new level of trust for both of them. What is Pete thinking right now? Did he push Corbin too far? So if I'm Corbin, the friendship with Amanda is over, finished. No way she picks Pete's side over Corbin, she hasn't even given Corbin the chance to tell his side, not that he has too. If she had been a true friend, her loyalty would have been to Corbin and that would not needed questioning. I have no problem with her inviting Pete to her party, but it should have been with the warning, that her friend Corbin would be there as well.

Ok Mr. JWolf, you never actually confessed to my question "Are you Corbin"? So I feel I have to tread carefully. I find Corbin smart, too smart for his own good. I can't believe spending the effort he did taking down Melanie, not your average college student can go that route and at the same time take on a Dean that had been somewhat a "Friend" if not an ally. That was risky and clearly the outcome of the meeting and the Dean's response was not something Corbin planned for. I'll be curious to see how you mend that relationship. I'm also not sure how much I want to criticize Corbin if Corbin is really Jonathon Wolf, that would be bad form on my part. But come on really, did you really think "I wondered if I shouldn’t just call Mike back, explain that I’d followed his advice and that he had won out over the Brit"? He had won???? To me, I'm not sure how much respect that really shows for Mike. But its clear Mike knows he is 2nd choice and is okay with that slotting. In a way he has to be considering his own restrictions on committing to a relationship with Corbin. Each interaction with Mike, we are learning more about Mike and he is clearly starting to have feelings he was not prepared for and still has no idea how to deal with especially given his ambitions. If memory serves this was during the Don't Ask period and that was worse for gay service men/women than before the policy. But this whole area of I'll just settle for Mike bothers me. I just don't think in the matters of the heart you can "settle". Yes I know it happens daily, but do those situations last. I'm old school and I believe in a long-lasting relationship til "death do us part" level of commitment to each other. Of course, I tell the better half often, that that whole "death do us part" can be arranged! Also, please don't think I'm thinking bad of Corbin either, I think every situation is different and only that person can know their mind and heart and the actions that follow are based upon that specific situation. I absolutely love this story and I'm so thankful you pointed me in the direction of the GA site where there is literally double the amount of chapters posted on Nifty. I've got a lot of catching up to do and knowing me, a few sleepless nights ahead as I know I can't just stop reading.