Avogadro1001

Ugh 😮‍💨 I wrote and re-wrote the next few chapters a few times by now, but something is still off. I think I need more time off to recuperate and recharge my “writing chakra”. Sorry for a hiatus, but I want to make sure I won’t mess it up. I hope you guys will understand. Jessica knows. She always knew.

Hahaha, I promise not to disappear again. Got a bit busy with real life, but working on it nonetheless. New chapters will come out soon

I will certainly take your valued suggestions into consideration, dear @Summerabbacat 🙏🏻 She’s indestructible, and I’m pretty sure she won’t mind a wider thigh gap😉 I’m pretty sure this will be on the list of Dylan’s requirements prior to the dreaded night. Colonic Concord made my day😂😂😂😂 How did you know😳🤣

Please take as much time as you need @Summerabbacat. Chapter 22 will have to brew for quite a few more days before I post it, so edging might not be a bad idea at all. As far as Liam goes, sometimes I feel bad about making that promise to never again post a chapter from his point of view. It would’ve been so interesting to get a glimpse into his head, especially now.

I think it’s a very insightful opinion, @Summerabbacat. It’s tough to know what makes people tick. Dylan has been through a lot, and I think that some of the things we saw in this chapter might’ve been the way for him to process what happened the previous night. I’m referring to it in my latest comment to chapter 21, in fact. Trauma and pain make people do crazy things sometimes.

I think that’s exactly what he should do. He should stop rationalizing and making excuses. I won’t try to make complete sense of the mess Dylan is going through, but I think I’ll try to see things from his perspective a bit. He’s horny and acts like a dumb hoe - we’ve established that already, but I think there’s a bit more to that, than a simple case of teenage hormones (otherwise masturbation would’ve worked like a charm). Think about it - he was raised in a house with a homophobic, abusive father that rejected him. Father that was actually an okay-dad, until the day he came out. Then his best friend rejected him. He went through lots of abuse in school, he seemingly pulled through and learned how to sublimate his pain, directing it towards academic achievements and managing to build new friendship. Regardless of how well we assume he did for himself, I think it’s very hard for him to put it all behind. He probably still blames himself for his father’s absence every time he looks at his sister. He is very suspicious and mistrusting of Jake - which is justified, as we come to learn, but in the hindsight, didn’t you find it weird how he constantly looked for a catch each time Jake tried to impress him and do something good in the early stage of their relationship? I think Dylan has a lot of scars, I don’t know if he can trust anyone or will ever learn how to trust anyone. That’s why I tend to think that he, in fact, doesn’t love Liam, despite of what many others think - I really believe that at this point, he forgot how to love. He has a bit of insight on it when he talks to Emma and says “I can’t even fall in love with Jake properly”. Honestly, if I was in that situation, I’m not sure how I’d respond. There are people that use sex to cope with stress and grief. Dylan just found out that his boyfriend lied to him, manipulated him and actually murdered his previous partner for no apparent reason. Dylan saw gruesome pictures, and mirrored all of that trauma on himself. That little beacon of hope (Jake and their “pure” relationship) crushed and Dylan is back in that hole. Should he hate Liam? Yes, and he does. But if cynically using his body and his huge 12-inch dick is a way for Dylan to cope with his stress, I’ll let that slide, personally. I completely understand you and your lack of sympathy, however. People don’t get much empathy when they act the way Dylan does, especially because when looking at them from afar, we understand how self-destructive it tends to be eventually. Another thing I agree with. Even though one could argue that all of his prior encounters with Liam (except this last one) were dubiously consensual, Dylan is a messy character. I never intended for him to be perfect, at least not at this point in the story.

It’s possible. It’s probably very difficult to separate his past feelings from his present feelings. Throughout the story we keep seeing Dylan’s memories of their past friendship, of how great Liam used to be and how he was worthy of his love. Regardless of what he thinks, he still might be mixing those emotions. Or, maybe, he just wants to fuck him coz he’s done being a goody-two-shoes, he just went through another betrayal/crisis with Jake’s manipulative/murderous nature and thinks that love is overrated. That would be sad, admittedly, but we might be seeing a very cynical side Dylan is settling with. Hahahaha! Oh, trust me, that’s the one and only thing I’m working on and/or have ever worked on, lol. I just like it a lil more graphic, I think there’s a fine balance where the novel/story can still survive and not turn into porn (although that balance is EXTREMELY tough to nail). I’ve read so much good stuff where the sex was brushed over or merely implied and underutilized. I think it can serve the story well, depending on how it’s used. PS: I will never insult a living soul by trying to sing. 😉

Oh, I’m not sure if it’s an actual confidence or he just masks his fear that way. He’s pretty confident with Liam though, and that probably comes from being in the position of power, I think. I’m pretty sure he’s terrified of the shit he’s got himself into, but we have to believe that he’s smart and he’ll find a way out of it.

Something tells me he’s equal parts terrified of it as he lusts after it lol. That’ll be some shocking scene to write, I’ll need plenty of hydration, a large fan and a bucket on the floor just in case I get nauseous. But in the end, that D is for Dylan, so who am I to stand on his way if he does cave in😩

Let’s see who wins in that game they’re playing. I’m curious. Oh, and I bet Jess is up to no good. 🤫

The high pitched ringing in my ears was accompanied by darkening tunnel vision, as I stood in the supermarket isle, staring at the soft drinks section like an enchanted cartoon character. “Dylan?” Elle whispered, tapping me on the shoulder. “You’ve been staring at that water bottle for a minute already.” I snapped out of it and shook my head. In the past few days I’ve been acting weird in the presence of lengthy cylindrical objects. Yesterday I zoned out in line for a subway sandwich

Thank you so much! I find it interesting when the characters we’re rooting for fuck up sometimes. It makes them feel more real. Dylan is definitely fucking up, and I’m truly hoping he won’t regret doing the things he’s doing. I’m so glad you like the story! I still have trouble believing that someone might be hooked on something like this, I thought it’ll just be me lol. I’ll try my best to be consistent with new chapters, but it might take me some time to clean things up before I post the next few. Cheers!

What an amazing comment! Thank you!!! Honestly, as I was writing the chapter and publishing it, I was mentally preparing myself for the majority of my readers/commenters to share this same opinion. Quite frankly, I share that opinion myself. I would’ve stabbed that mofo in his dick and ran away from there immediately. But I’m not Dylan. Dylan can be smart, empathetic, funny and charming, he can be a lot of things, but he doesn’t have to be flawless. Is he acting like a dumb hoe, thinking with his dick? Sure! But I can assure you, as someone who has some insight into his mind - Dylan doesn’t love Liam. He has fond memories of their friendship, he’s nostalgic about the way things were, but his capacity to love was broken long ago, and no amount of dick will ever fix it. Dylan might think that fucking Liam will help him get rid of physical attraction - we’ll see what will actually happen. As far as the prospect of another beating - it’s always in the cards, and with a guy like Liam you just never know. He’s exactly what you described him as - a crazy dog that can snap any time. Dylan accepts those risks, and Liam accepts his. Which one of them will end up hurting much more than the other - time will tell. Who knows, this whole thing might come and bite Liam in the ass so hard, that no amount of physical revenge from Dylan could ever have compared. He warned him, after all. Getting rid of Jake first might’ve been a better idea, I agree.

🤣🤣🤣 Yup, that’s the plan! At the very least he knows exactly how much time he has left to live. Sex alone tends to make things much messier, especially with a guy that Jessica wants 😉 You’re welcome, happy to serve! Whoa-whoa-whoa, hold your horses! Our boy needs to take a very embarrassing trip to a sex shop first. Lubes, butt plugs, horse-sized dildos, I’m pretty sure he’ll feel very comfortable at the register. Too bad he ain’t a rubber doll after all😂 That is a very good question! I’m pretty sure Jess won’t be happy either. Hahahaha, he’ll die trying

I’m glad you enjoyed it! It was certainly the most risqué stuff I’ve written so far, haha. Ask him again and he’ll make it three weeks!🤣🤞🏻