IkeNeko

I totally understand what you mean about the ending. But I feel it needs more background about werewolves and laws to be understood by people who didn’t read any other story of yours about werewolves. Also I know it sounds bad, but in some way it’s the happiest ending we could get. I mean Erith is happy and Blake is happy. They are both being taken care of and both of them need it a lot. And yes that’s what I meant about the memories.

I’m giving this story 5 stars but on one condition - it can’t be the first story about werewolves of @Yeoldebard anyone reads. It’s a captivating story showing struggles of two characters with their mental health and trauma - although for me actually more about Erith than Blake as we see him diving really deep head on much more than the other guy. It’s not a light read by any means and I honestly had to put it down a few times and take a break to read something lighter to be able to deal with it. Here I want to mention that suicide probably should be also mentioned in the description of this story somewhere. But pushing through and finishing it was worth it in the end even if my mind doesn’t agree with some of the things and doesn’t exactly like all the characters. Some of the chapters had me biting my nails and wanting to skip ahead to see what happened. We have two narrators, both very unreliable, surrounded by equally unreliable and fallible background characters. I could probably say it’s a story about people messing up for various reasons. However, the important point in my eyes is that the story kind of assumes we are already familiar with some world building background and I feel without this background that story would read very differently. I read other stories dealing with werewolves as portrayed by @Yeoldebard before and it was very important for my understanding of this story. One more important thing I want to say is that this story ends in a way Japanese literary fiction often ends. There is no definite solution, no closure, we are still at a point where I want to know “and then what?” and that was one of my favourite things in this narrative as well. ❤️

I gotta say for me this story was about Erith more than about Blake. And about Erith’s journey finding out who was in his head and dealing with a lot of stuff. I feel like it’s far from over but he went a long way and I’m happy for him. I want to see the rest of his journey. And I will say that I don’t like Adam at all. But I respect him. For being able to resist the mate bond for so long and avoid sex (as I saw other wolves fail the same despite good intentions). Although the fact he wasn’t able to resist that same pull before, when Blake was a kid - that is something that makes me despise him. I don’t think he is a pedophile in the usual sense. There’s no mention of him being attracted to children as such. The years of therapy just helped him control his wolf I am guessing? But I still despise him for doing what he did and not saving his mate. If he felt the bond he should have protected Blake. Maybe he was just a coward who knows? I understand what he does for Erith doesn’t give him any extra points as it’s the same bond working - he can’t hurt his mate or see him hurt so he accepts the elf as part of the deal. So maybe it’s a way for him to try to make up for what he should have done all those years ago but didn’t? And for the same reason he is willing to save Erith from the weird hospital. Because the hurt Erith’s death would cause Blake would be unbearable for him too. I’m curious about one thing though - Varen held Erith’s memories of abuse and his sexuality - now Varen is gone and the sexuality is back - what about the memories? Because those are definitely something Erith needs to deal with too.

Thank you for letting Erith get through it ❤️

Thank you for saving him out of that place!

All I can think of right now is Erith. I really really want him to get better - to come out of all of it somehow.

I’m proud of Erith at this point.

I do hope this is not how it ends for Erith.

That guy really creeps me out.

I really wanna see Adam like Dr Marin sees him but it’s difficult.

I feel sorry for Erith but he is not a good guy for Blake either.

Why does Blake trust Adam after meeting him once? And after all that he did to him before?

I think it’s hard for me to accept he can do it so calmly.

This is becoming worse by the minute. I kinda just wanna crawl under a blanket and never come out again.

I really don’t like characters being that dumb - both of them 😂

Gara kind of brought it upon himself by handling the stuff like he did before...

I think it’s better for them this way - they will both recover eventually I hope. Erith needs to sort himself out before getting into any relationships and Blake really needs someone more reliable in his life.

I’m really amazed Blake can handle all that!

Shit! I hope Erith can get his alters sorted somehow.

Poor Erith doesn’t even realize why he has amnesia 😢

It reminds me vaguely of some strange horror movie I watched ages ago about an abandoned mental hospital - a company was called to remove the asbestos from the building and they found some abandoned therapy tapes and started listening as alters of one person were uncovered until the therapist got to the one who was in charge - the one who was formed by the most traumatic memories and wanted to protect the others and get revenge. Anyway I know we’re not in a horror movie here - but I think Blake can really help Erith.

Well this is one chapter where suddenly Blake seems less disabled than Erith.

Blake seems to have a much better day - coping with the world better I mean - after the mishap last night.

So there’s one more person in Erith’s mind he doesn’t know about. I don’t think it’s a good idea for Blake and Erith to be together. They both need someone who can take care of them.