You have let infatuation rule over reality and your brain here, first of you are not sure the 'kid' is even gay, so why try to build on a fantasy later when he is of age? Second your lust is in a very dangerous area, pedophile; an adult who is sexually attracted to young children. You don't see him as a child but he is in fact a child, you may not think so because he is 14 and your 18, and you don't see the age difference. There lies your problem, especially if when you become say 22 and the now 18 year old kid doesn't do it for you anymore, and you look to find another kid for your fascination who is under the legal age of consent. Your constant queries in this site on this subject lead me to believe that you are wavering and seeking advice in your struggle, if this is fact, may I strongly suggest that you seek some counseling to deter your obsession. Frankly, no one wants to see your picture plastered on the news or a kid on a milk carton. If you think I came on too strong, look at the other comments here, look at your post, and then look at your life.