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Birds Don't Sing Before a Storm - 25. Chapter 25

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I shrugged my shoulders and replied, “Yeah, sure.” I didn’t want to seem to anxious to talk. Curtis seemed like the kind of guy who wanted to control the conversation. I knew he would speak only when he was ready.

He reached for the remote control and turned the channel to ESPN. I wanted to tell him I was watching a movie, but I didn’t. We watched a college basketball game for several minutes before he finally said something.

“What you saw last week ain’t what you think,” he muttered as he continued to watch the television.

“You already told me that,” I replied without looking over. “You’re not gay.”

“Right,” he nodded. Several more minutes went by in silence.

Finally, I got tired of the game we were playing, so I become more direct. “So, you’re saying you’re completely straight?” I still couldn’t understand how a guy could have sex with another guy and consider himself straight.

It surprised me when he shrugged his shoulders and replied, “I don’t know.”

His response peeked my curiosity. It was the first time he might be admitting he was gay. “So what’s that mean?” I asked. “You’re either gay or straight.”

I looked over and saw a confused look on his face as he thought about my statement. He rested his head on the sofa and sighed. Then he asked, “Can you maybe be a little of both?”

I asked, “You mean like bisexual?”

He sat forward, put his head in his hands and mumbled softly, “I don’t know what the fuck I mean anymore.” He started rubbing his head. “I got all this stupid shit going on inside my head anymore.”

“What kind of shit?”

“I don’t know,” he replied as he continued to rub his hands over his head. “Shit, shit.”

I sat up and looked over at him. I seemed like we were finally getting somewhere. “You mean like sex shit?”

“Yeah, yeah,” he replied angrily, “Like sex shit.”

“So you’re afraid you’re gay?”

“I don’t know,” he responded hesitantly. “Maybe.” He sat up and stared at me. “I mean, I like what me and Pip do. We’ve been doing it for so long, it just seems okay. You know what I mean?”

“Yeah,” I replied. “I think.”

“But then a lot of the time,” he continued, “I think about girls, too.”

“So you like fucking girls?” I figured since he was talking openly, I might as well talk openly as well.

“Yeah,” he replied. “Well, I’ve thought about it.”

His comment surprised me. By the way he acted, I had assumed that he already had experience with a girl. “You’ve never had sex with a girl?”

His face reddened, and he admitted, “Well, technically, no.” Then he added, “But I’ve made it to second base, though.”

“Second base?”

“Yeah!,” he replied excitedly. “Monica let me feel her tits once when we were at the theater a couple of months ago.”

“Did you get excited?”

“Hell yeah, Man!” He reached down and rearranged his thickening cock. As much as I wanted, I tried not to look down. I didn’t want him to think I wanted to have sex with him. “I got this enormous boner. I even got Monica to feel it.” He started laughing. “Man, when I got home I had to take a shower and jerk off.”

I asked, “So you could fuck a girl if you had to?”

He sat back and shook his head. His excitement disappeared. “I dunno,” he admitted. “I mean, I think I can, but I’m scared.” He sat up and looked at me. “I mean, what if I try, and I can’t get it up?”

I laughed and took a chance to look down at the bulge in his pants. “You don’t seem to have a problem talking about it.”

His face reddened, and he said, “Yeah, well talking about it and doing it is two different things. With Pip, we just do it and have fun.” He wrinkled his nose and added, “A girl might expect more.”

I thought a minute and then suggested, “Maybe you’re not gay, like you said. Maybe it’s just something you and Pip do, and it don’t mean too much.” I then asked, “Have you messed around with any other guys?”

I could tell by the look that came over his face that he had. He sat back and rested his head on the sofa. Finally, he sat up and faced me. “You swear to God that you won’t tell anyone what I’m about to say?”

“Yeah, sure,” I replied. “I told you, you can trust me.”

“Okay.” He sat back and didn’t say anything for a minute. Finally, he said, “Me and Mike used to have a thing going on.”

I didn’t want to sound too surprised. “You and Mike?”

“Yeah,” he said. “About two years ago.”

“Do you still have sex with him?” That would answer a lot of the questions I had about Mike’s attitude toward me.

“No, Man,” he replied as he shook his head “He came out to everyone and started acting too gay. If we still messed around, everyone would know I was gay, too.”

“But, you’re still friends?”

“Yeah,” he replied, “But I keep my distance. You know what I mean?” I don’t think he meant it, but I was insulted when he added, “It would be like me hanging out with you. Everyone would think I was gay.”

I rested my head on the sofa and muttered, “Yeah, thanks a lot.”

He scooted nearer to me. “No, I didn’t mean it like that!” he said excitedly. “I mean you’re a really cool guy and all. If you weren’t gay, we could probably be good friends.”

I rolled my eyes and responded sarcastically, “Thanks.”

“Oh, Man!” he moaned. “I’m really fucking up here. Aren’t I?”

“Yeah,” I replied. “Just a little bit.”

“Okay,” he said as he scooted nearer to me. “I mean, you’re being really cool and all. And you’re taking the time to help me.” He gently touched my arm. “I mean, you’re helping me get this shit in my head straightened out.” He gripped my arm. “I’m really sorry. Okay? I’m just all confused right now.”

“It’s okay,” I assured him. “I kind of figured you didn’t like me because I’m gay.”

“Naw, naw!” he said excitedly as he gripped my arm again. “I’m cool with you being gay and all.”

“But you don’t want to have anything to do with me because I am.” I stared into his eyes. “Right?”

He sat back and moaned, “Oh, Man. I am fucked up. You see a guy sucking my dick, and then I tell you I don’t want to be around you because you’re gay.” He shook his head. “How sick is that?”

I laughed and replied, “Pretty fucking sick.”

He sat back and our arms touched. “You know, you’re pretty fucking cool,” he said as he elbowed me.

He laughed when I elbowed him back and said, “You’re a douche.”

“I’ve been called worse,” he laughed.

“I’m sure you have,” I replied as I elbowed him again. We sat back and watched a replay of a foul on the television.

When the game started again, I asked, “So what are you going to do?”

“I dunno,” he shrugged. “I guess I gotta start dealing with the fact I might be bisexual.” He looked over, giggled and added, “I gotta fuck a girl first to find out.”

I laughed and said, “Just don’t tell me when you do.”

“I won’t.” He pulled his cell phone from his sweats. “I’ll show you pictures.”

“Don’t do me any favors,” I laughed.

“Hell,” he replied. “You already seen me getting it on with a dude. Might as well see me with a girl.” He reached down and rearranged the bulge in his sweats.

My face reddened as I looked down at his crotch. “You’ve definitely got something to work with.”

He wiggled his eyebrows. “Well, maybe me and you can get into something sometime.”

“Thanks,” I replied. “But I’m kind of with someone right now.”

“Shade?”

“Yeah.”

“You in love with him?”

“Yeah,” I said as I looked at him. “I’m in love with him.”

He smiled and said, “He’s a lucky dude, Man.” Curtis rose from the sofa and stood before me. “I really appreciate the talk. I was about to lose my mind.”

“It’s okay,” I replied.

“I mean it, Casey.” He held out his fist, and we bumped fists. “You’re my main man, Okay? If I got a problem, I’m going to come to you. Bet?”

“Bet,” I replied as we bumped fists again. He then turned and bounded up the steps to his bedroom.

I was surprised Monday morning as we were getting into Rodney’s car to go to school. On the way out of the house, Curtis asked me if I wanted to ride shotgun, and he would ride in the back with Lane.

“Naw,” I said. “I’m good.” He asked me if I was sure, and I nodded my head. He then got into the front with Rodney.

Rodney still seemed upset with his brother. When they didn’t talk like they normally do in the morning, then I knew that Curtis had asked me to sit in the front because he was still afraid of Rodney. I would have liked to have been a fly on the wall in their bedroom. I’m sure Rodney had a few things to say about Curtis drinking on Saturday.

In my fifth period Spanish class, students came into class talking excitedly about a fight in the hallway. As I eavesdropped, I heard Curtis and Mike’s name mentioned. My heart stopped when someone said Shade’s name. I wanted to leave class and go find Shade to see if he was all right, but Mr. Vega gave us a test, and I was afraid to miss it. Besides, I wouldn’t know where to go since I didn’t know where Shade was fifth period.

In sixth period, students were still talking about the fight, but I was relieved when I heard that only Curtis and Mike were involved, and not Shade. It was about halfway through class when a student entered the class and told the teacher that I was being summoned to the office. After nervously gathering my books, I rushed to the office. I was afraid that something had happened to Shade. When I got there, Rodney and Lane were waiting for me.

Rodney seemed worried, and Lane was holding his hand. “What’s happened?”

Rodney informed me, “We gotta go to the hospital.” I looked at Lane and he seemed like he was ready to burst into tears. The first thing I thought about was Shade.

I asked excitedly, “Has Shade been hurt?”

“No,” replied Rodney. “He’s okay. We gotta go to the nurse’s office and get Curtis and take him to the hospital.”

“What happened to him?”

Rodney shook his head. “He broke his hand.”

“Broke his hand? How?”

Rodney grabbed me by my arm. “We’ll talk about it later. I already signed you out.” He pulled me from the office, and we headed to the nurse’s office. Lane held my hand and skipped beside me as we followed Rodney down the hallway.

When we entered, Curtis was sitting in a chair. He looked up quickly, and then he hung his head. He was holding an ice pack on his hand.

Rodney sat beside him and said, “Let me see.” When Curtis removed the ice pack, I could see that his hand was bruised and swollen.

Rodney gave a low whistle and said, “That must hurt like a son of a bitch.”

Curtis reapplied the ice pack and muttered, “Tell me.”

We looked up when the door opened and Shade came barging in. He looked down at Curtis and asked him if he was okay. Curtis nodded and held up his hand and showed it to him.

I was confused because I had no idea what was happening. I didn’t understand how Shade knew that Curtis was hurt. I stood and asked, “What is going on?”

The nurse appeared and asked Rodney his age. When he told her he was eighteen, then she said she could release Curtis to his care. He had to fill out a form, and he assured her that he would take Curtis immediately to the hospital.

On the way out, Shade told me to wait for him while he signed out of school. He said he wanted to go with us to the hospital. I told Rodney to go ahead without me, and that I would ride with Shade.

I waited until we got into Shade’s car before asking him how Curtis had broken his hand. Through the rumors I’d heard, I knew that he was somehow involved. I was glad that he was not harmed.

On the way to the hospital, he explained what happened. He said when he was walking to his fourth period class, he saw Curtis coming out of his classroom. He said he was surprised because Curtis started walking beside him and talking to him.

I asked, “What did he say?”

“Nothing really,” replied Shade. “He was just asking me how my classes were going. Things like that.”

He went on to explain that as they walked down the hall, Mike approached them. He said Mike started taunting Curtis, and he asked Curtis if he found a new boyfriend. He said Curtis told him to “shut up.” Mike replied, “Make me.” Looking at him, he added, “Naw. You’d probably rather make it with your boyfriend.” He said Curtis balled his fist, and he thought he was going to hit Mike in the face.

“Mike thought so too,” he said. “He closed his eyes and waited for the punch.”

I asked, “Is that how he broke his hand?”

“No,” replied Shade. “He hit the locker behind Mike.”

“So he didn’t hit Mike?”

“No,” said Shade. “He broke his hand when he hit the locker. You should have seen Mike. He hauled ass down the hall. I think he thought Curtis would hit him next.”

“So they didn’t really fight?”

“No,” he said. “By the time anyone realized that a fight was happening, it was over.” I was relieved because I was afraid that Curtis might be suspended if he was involved in a fight. According to Rodney, he was already failing a couple of classes. A ten-day suspension for fighting would really hurt him.

When we arrived at the hospital, Shade called Rodney, and he said they were in the emergency waiting room. Rodney and Lane were sitting waiting for us when we arrived. I sat across from them and asked if Curtis was all right.

“They’re patching him up,” he said. “Mom and Randy are on their way.” He looked at the clock on the wall. “They should be here any minute.” He looked over at Shade and asked if he knew how his brother broke his hand. Like me, he had heard rumors about the fight. Shade told him the same story he told me.

Mike is a bastard,” he hissed when Shade finished. “Someone is going to beat the shit out of him someday.” He rubbed his hands together and said, “It might just be me.”

Lane got excited and said, “Mommy won’t like it if you get into a fight with Mike!”

Rodney laughed and pulled Lane into a hug. “I won’t fight him, Little Brother.” Lane giggled when his brother added, “I don’t want to get shit all over my hands.”

We waited about a half hour before my father arrived. He was upset, but his attitude for most things seemed to be, “Boys will be boys.” He didn’t seem to think it was unusual for friends to have arguments occasionally. He seemed more concerned that it could hurt Curtis’s chances to play first base since baseball season was just beginning.

Karen, on the other hand, was livid. This incident seemed to be the final straw for her. As soon as she arrived, she said very little. Rodney tried to explain what had happened, but her reply was, “I don’t care what happened. He should have known better.”

She approached the elderly attendant behind the waiting room desk and demanded to see Curtis. When my father said he would go back with her, she told him to stay in the waiting room. She kissed his cheek and said, “I don’t think you want to hear what I’m going to say.”

In a way, I felt sorry for Curtis. From what Shade had told me, Curtis really did try to avoid a fight in school with Mike. I had been one of Mike’s victims. I knew how cruel he could be. If he had confronted Shade and me in the hallway, I probably would have fought with him. I was determined that he would never again get the upper hand like he did once before. Besides, I would do anything to protect Shade-even if it meant getting my ass kicked.

“Christ,” muttered my father after Karen had stormed out of the waiting room. “I’ve never seen her so mad.” He looked over at Rodney and said with a grin, “You better go down to the pharmacy.”

Rodney gave him a puzzled look and asked, “Why?”

He replied, “Because when your mother gets through ripping him a new one, he’s going to need a lot of gauze.” Lane started giggling uncontrollably.

We sat around for two hours before Karen finally emerged from the twin doors that led back to the emergency rooms. She approached and announced sternly, “He’ll be out in about ten minutes.”

Rodney asked, “Is he okay?”

Karen glared at him and said, “He broke three fingers and did considerable damage to his wrist.”

She didn’t find it funny when Lane giggled and asked, “How’s his butt?” My father grabbed Lane by the shoulders and led him away. I could tell they were laughing as they walked to the other side of the room.

Curtis emerged minutes later. He held his head down and didn’t make eye contact with anyone. He had a cast on his hand. It appeared to go half-way up his arm, but it was hard to tell because he was wearing a coat. When Rodney asked if he was all right, he nodded but didn’t say anything.

When we got outside, Curtis started to get in Rodney’s car, but Karen told him to ride with her. Lane jumped into Randy’s SUV.

Rodney asked, “You riding with me?” I glanced over at Shade.

Shade looked at his watch and said, “I really should get back to school. Megan is still rehearsing.”

I asked, “You want me to go with you?”

“No,” he replied. “You should probably be with your family now.” Rodney waited while I walked Shade over to his car. I wanted to kiss him, but a family came out of the entrance and got into a nearby car.

“I’ll see you tomorrow, then,” I said as I squeezed hand. He nodded, got in his car and drove off.

I got into Rodney’s car, and he pulled off. As we drove home, he talked about what happened. He said worriedly, “Coach Wentworth is going to shit bricks when he finds out Curtis won’t be able to play baseball.”

I wanted to tell him that Curtis has more problems to worry about other than baseball, but I simply agreed with him and stared out the window as we headed home.

Thanks for reading. I hope you're enjoying the story.
Copyright © 2013 by Ronyx; All Rights Reserved.
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Nice that Curtis is finally being honest, as much with himself as with Casey! He's honestly trying to be open--if he can just learn to speak without putting his foot in his mouth all the way up to his ass. And the fact he really did try to avoid a fight--just hope that comes through with mom.
A good, fun chapter. Potential plot development for Curtis is wide open...and I'm looking forward to see where it goes,

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Happy that Curtis has finally come around. Although he would have gotten into bigger trouble, I wish it were Mike's face and not the locker that broke Curtis' hand. I don't care what the coach said about Mike's home life, it doesn't excuse him from being an asshole. I think a good beatdown is way overdue! My Lane laugh of the chapter is when he asked how Curtis' butt was after Karen ripped him a new one! Lol!

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Part of me really wants to feel sympathy for Curtis, because as an adolescent and
it's only natural for him to be insecure about himself. Then I realize that he's been
in some sort of down low fictitious bullshit life for years now and still can't come to
terms with reality. I just don't have patience to put up with his spoiled little acts any
more. He makes himself look like a fake hypocritical narcissist, and I'm tired of
those right now. He needs to save himself from his own poison before it's too late
and it destroys him. Can he be saved?

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I think it must be much more difficult to be bisexual than it is to be Gay. When you're Gay, it's pretty clear who you are attracted to. When you're bi, you're attracted to seemingly random people, irrespective of their gender. And then there are all the people who keep trying to make you 'pick a side'!

 

How do you 'pick a side' when you don't know which side you're on? Or if there are even sides? How do you deal with the fact that a lot of people don't even think that bisexuality exists?

 

I can't say that I have a personal understanding, but I have more than a few bisexual friends and I read a lot. (I really like a bisexual redhead. He matches most of the characteristics I look for, but he's a vegetarian. And he's not interested in me.)

 

I think Curtis' confusion is understandable. Some of his behavior isn't, but he's been feeling a lot of pressure to emulate his older brother when there's a fundamental difference between them: their sexual orientation. The very same people who might understand his problems are the same people who he's afraid to be associated with.

 

To his mother and Rodney, he seems to be getting worse and worse. Getting in a fight makes it look like his problems are worsening. But to me, the fact that he didn't actually hit Mike is a sign of progress.

 

It seems to me that his talk with Casey has made a difference. The fact that he has been able to articulate some of his issues with someone who is willing to listen sympathetically. Casey has asked questions that have helped Curtis to begin to sort out some of the confusion. But Curtis still has a long way to go.

 

Of all the characters in this story, Curtis is probably the most complex. He's second from the bottom, just above Mike, on the list of BDSBaS characters I'd like to have as friends. But he's the one who has the best chance of making a huge difference in his own life! (At the very beginning, Lane would have held that title. And at the moment, Lane is the one who has progressed the most in 20+ chapters!)

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  On 5/5/2016 at 8:57 AM, droughtquake said:

I think it must be much more difficult to be bisexual than it is to be Gay. When you're Gay, it's pretty clear who you are attracted to. When you're bi, you're attracted to seemingly random people, irrespective of their gender. And then there are all the people who keep trying to make you 'pick a side'!

 

How do you 'pick a side' when you don't know which side you're on? Or if there are even sides? How do you deal with the fact that a lot of people don't even think that bisexuality exists?

 

I can't say that I have a personal understanding, but I have more than a few bisexual friends and I read a lot. (I really like a bisexual redhead. He matches most of the characteristics I look for, but he's a vegetarian. And he's not interested in me.)

 

I think Curtis' confusion is understandable. Some of his behavior isn't, but he's been feeling a lot of pressure to emulate his older brother when there's a fundamental difference between them: their sexual orientation. The very same people who might understand his problems are the same people who he's afraid to be associated with.

 

To his mother and Rodney, he seems to be getting worse and worse. Getting in a fight makes it look like his problems are worsening. But to me, the fact that he didn't actually hit Mike is a sign of progress.

 

It seems to me that his talk with Casey has made a difference. The fact that he has been able to articulate some of his issues with someone who is willing to listen sympathetically. Casey has asked questions that have helped Curtis to begin to sort out some of the confusion. But Curtis still has a long way to go.

 

Of all the characters in this story, Curtis is probably the most complex. He's second from the bottom, just above Mike, on the list of BDSBaS characters I'd like to have as friends. But he's the one who has the best chance of making a huge difference in his own life! (At the very beginning, Lane would have held that title. And at the moment, Lane is the one who has progressed the most in 20+ chapters!)

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Okay, droughtquake. I'm proclaiming my innocence here. What is BDSBaS? I think I figured out the BDSB, but the aS has thrown me. And you're probably right. Curtis, though unintentional when the story began, is the one who will probably evolve the most.

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  On 5/5/2016 at 6:42 AM, Stephen said:

Part of me really wants to feel sympathy for Curtis, because as an adolescent and

it's only natural for him to be insecure about himself. Then I realize that he's been

in some sort of down low fictitious bullshit life for years now and still can't come to

terms with reality. I just don't have patience to put up with his spoiled little acts any

more. He makes himself look like a fake hypocritical narcissist, and I'm tired of

those right now. He needs to save himself from his own poison before it's too late

and it destroys him. Can he be saved?

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Love your use of words- down low fictitious bullshit life and fake hypocritical narcissist. Great! Time will tell if he can be saved from himself. Ron

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  On 5/5/2016 at 2:52 AM, jaysalmn said:

Happy that Curtis has finally come around. Although he would have gotten into bigger trouble, I wish it were Mike's face and not the locker that broke Curtis' hand. I don't care what the coach said about Mike's home life, it doesn't excuse him from being an asshole. I think a good beatdown is way overdue! My Lane laugh of the chapter is when he asked how Curtis' butt was after Karen ripped him a new one! Lol!

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Haha, jaysalmn. I loved writing that scene with the gauze. Lane is too precious.

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  On 5/4/2016 at 8:40 PM, Robert Rex said:

Nice that Curtis is finally being honest, as much with himself as with Casey! He's honestly trying to be open--if he can just learn to speak without putting his foot in his mouth all the way up to his ass. And the fact he really did try to avoid a fight--just hope that comes through with mom.

A good, fun chapter. Potential plot development for Curtis is wide open...and I'm looking forward to see where it goes,

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Hi Robert. Curtis still has a long way to go from being a complete jackass.

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