My Little Turtle - 8. Chapter 8

Chapter Eight: The Strength of Love

 

“How could he do this to me?” I thought. “Ryan loves me. It cannot be anything. He would never. But I saw what I saw.”

 

I drove faster and faster, my vision blurring as tears kept rolling down my cheeks. Thankfully I did not live far and soon my black Silverado pulled up the driveway of my house. Getting out, I stormed inside and slammed the door behind me. I ran past Amanda and Lydia who were talking in the hall and ran upstairs to my room and slammed the door. A few moments later, I heard a knock on the door, “Chase? Is everything alright? Can we come in?”

 

“No!” I yelled, crying.

 

Soon I felt a hand on my shoulder. Looking through my bloodshot eyes, I saw Lydia and Amanda staring at me concerned. “Go away!” I shouted.

 

“Chasey Poo…aww. What’s wrong?”

 

“He’s fucking cheating on me!”

 

“What?! Ryan?!”

 

“Yes.” I said sobbing uncontrollably.

 

“What happened?” Lydia asked.

 

“I came back and I saw fucking Peter naked, leaning in to kiss Ryan. I ran out of there before I saw anything.”

 

“Chase. I am sure he would never do that. He loves you.” Amanda said.

 

“But why was he in that situation? What if he did try something?”

 

“BUZZ” rang the phone. I looked down at it, “Is it him?” Amanda asked.

 

“Yes.” I said, holding the phone in my hand. I hit the ignore button.

 

“Chase! Talk to him.”

 

“I can’t. I am mad at him. How could he?”

 

“Chase? Do you love him?” Lydia asked.

 

“Yes I do. With all my heart. I have never felt this before. I get butterflies whenever I am around him. He makes me feel like no one is more special than me. He makes me feel likeeverything is rightwhen I am with him.”

 

“Aww. Chase! Call him back. He loves you. You know in your heart he won’t cheat on you.” Amanda said.

 

“Well what if he did? Yes I know he wouldn’t, but what if he did? And that’s what’s killing me. The fact that that thought would cross my mind. He does not deserve me, if I cannot even trust me. He deserves someone better.”he would put himself in that situation.”

 

“Aww Chase. You love him. He deserves you.” Lydia said.

 

“No. I just want it to be over.” I said laying back down on my bed, putting my face in the pillow and starting to cry. Amanda and Lydia just stayed there for a bit until I fell asleep.

 

I woke up the next morning, my eyes puffy and red from crying all night. Looking at my phone, I realized I had seven missed calls: all from Ryan. Slowly, I got up and walked to the bathroom and stripped. Stepping into the shower and turned on the hot water. Hot water cascaded off my naked body, melting away the stress. I closed my eyes and images of Ryan and I in the shower together: Him grazing his fingertips over my cheek, then tracing my jawbone and resting it on the back of my head; pulling him me in to kiss himme. Water trickling down our faces as we made out. Suddenly I felt sick and got a stabbing feeling in my heart. I leaned forward and leaned against the wall and started to cry. I thought things over in the shower for ten minutes; I knew what I had to do.

 

After my shower, I got dressed and walked downstairs. Gabe, Ryan, Lydia and Amanda were all sitting at the kitchen table when I got in, “I am so sorry.” Ryan said.

 

“Hey, me too.” Gabe put in.

 

“It’s ok. Listen Ryan? Gabe? Can I stay with one of you guys for a while? I want…I want to move back to Louisiana.”

 

“What?” Lydia and Amanda said in unison.

 

“I cannot stay here. There are too many memories already. I am going to talk to Mom and Ddad when they get home.

 

“Chase. You…you can’t just leave. What about school?” Amanda protested.

 

“I don’t know. I just cannot stay here. It’s summer here right now so I don’t have to worry about school, by then I should have something figured out.”

 

“Chase, is that really the best idea?” Ryan asked.

 

“Yes. I need this.”

 

“Well I am glad we are getting you back, but I hate the situation.” Gabe said.

 

“Yeah.” I said sighing. Lydia came to me and gave me a hug.

 

Later that night, I talked to my parents about going back to Louisiana with Ryan, Gabe and Lydia. They said that they would let me leave for the summer, but they would prefer Igo back to school here, so I do not fall behind.

 

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A few days later,my plane landed in Louisianaand I was in the car to Ryan’s house.As soon as I got out of the care, Ryan’s mom welcomed me with open arms as we arrived. She told me that I would be living in the guest bedroom. I thanked her for everything.After dropping my bags in the corner of the room, I walked over to the bed and collapsed on it. I could not help but cry;I missed him so much. “How could he cheat on me?” I thought.I closed my eyes and fell asleep. A few hours later I heard a knock on the door.

 

“Come in.” I said.

 

The door opened and Ryan came in, “Hey dinner is ready.”

 

“Ok. I will be right down.” I said getting up and following him to the dinner table.

 

Sitting down at the dinner table, Istarted picking at my food. Over the past few days, I had lost my appetite.

 

“Chase, dear. You need to eat something.” Ryan’s mom said.

 

“Thank you ma’am. I am not that hungry I guess. Thank youfor the food though.”

 

“Chase, really you really have not eaten the past few days.” Ryan added.

 

“It’s ok. I am fine.”I said, taking a few bites of food.

 

After dinner,I went back to my room and went back to sleep.

 

The next day, Saturday,Iwas woken up at nine with Ryan and Gabe pounding on the door, telling me to get dressed. Groggily Igot out of bed, got dressed and headed downstairs to the kitchen. After eatingsome cereal,we piled in Gabe’struck and tookoff to the mall where Daniand a few other girls waited.

 

“What are we doing here?” I asked, as we were looking at clothes in a department store.

 

“We are finding you something hot to wear for tonight’s party.” Dani said.

 

“Party? What party?”

 

“Oh. Chloe is throwing a party, so we are all going.” Ryan said.

 

“This looks good.” Lydia said holding up a dark green button up shirt.

 

“Yeah that would look nice on you. Try it on” Dani agreed.

 

“I guess.” I said taking the shirt.Walkingover to the dressing room,I saw a couple kissing in front of me and the feelings of longing for Ryan invaded my body. I missed him. I missed his touch. His love. Saddened, I let out a loud sigh.

 

“You still miss him don’t you?” Lydia asked.

 

“More than anything. He meant the world to me.” I answered, trying hard to hold back the tears.

 

“He misses you too. So much. He is miserable without you.”

 

“Good. He fucking deserves it. After what he did. How do you know anyway?”

 

“Amanda told me. He comes by every day, wanting to speak to you. He still loves you, you know?”

 

“Fuck him. No he doesn’t.” I said walking into the dressing room.

 

 

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Later that night, Ryan, Gabe, Lydia and I drove over to Chloe’s house for her party. Her parents went out of town, so she used her opportunity to throw a huge party.

 

As we arrived, the party was already in full swing. People were drinking all over the place. A few, overcome by the effects of alcohol, were hooking up against the wall. Making our way towards the kitchen, we ran into random people from my old school.

 

“Pretty Face Mitchell.” A guy from the football team said. “When did you get back in town?”

 

“Ugh. I hate that nickname. Yesterday. What’s new with you?”

 

“Nothing much, just enjoying summer.”

 

That’s how most of the night went on. I met up with a lot of friends; many who I haven’t seen since I left Louisiana. Although there were a few new faces, but mostly I knew everyone. However one guy grabbed attention; in the corner stood a dark haired, well built guy. As I was talking to Gabe, he would sneak a peek at me. Whenever I caught him looking, he quickly looked away. Curious, I decided to find out who he is.

 

“Hi there. How are you? Do I know you?”

 

“No. I am Jeremy. But most people call me Jer.”

 

“Oh cool. I’m Chase.”

 

We started talking and he offered me a drink. Politely, I declined telling him that I didn’t drink. He said he really didn’t either and came back with two cokes. Taking the drink from him, I downed it in one swig. We continued talking, but quickly realized it was very hard to hear. We decided to go look for a quieter place. After walking around, we found an upstairs bedroom that was empty and quiet. Jer sat on the bed and I sat down next to him.

 

Suddenly my head started to feel weird and my eyelids felt heavy. My vision started blurring and I started slurring my words. I leaned back and fell onto the bed. Jer got on top of me and started kissing my neck. Telling him to stop, I tried to push him off but could barely move.

 

A loud bang thundered form the corner and then I heard a familiar voice telling him to get off me. Looking up, I saw two blurred figures rush towards Jer and I. I saw someone hit Jer and then my vision gave and I blacked out.

 

Waking the next day, I felt someone holding me. I turned around to see Ryan still asleep, holding me. I felt very safe, but that security was quickly shattered by the images of Peter and Ryan and I was overcome by rage.

 

“What the fuck are you doing?” I screamed pushing him so hard off me that he fell of the side of the bed.

 

“Chase…I…you—” he began, but I cut him off.

 

“What the fuck happened last night? Never mind just get the fuck out! Leave.”

 

“Please Chase.”

 

“Just get the fuck out!” I yelled throwing the pillow at him.

 

I could see the tears streaking down his face as he turned and walked out the room. I collapsed on the bed and started crying. Soon I felt a hand on my back and someone saying it would be ok. Looking up, I saw Lydia and Gabe looking at me.

 

“What happened?” I asked, barely being able to speak.

 

“Jeremy tried to rape you last night. He put a roofie in your coke. He would have succeeded if Ryan and Ryan had not run in to stop him. They saved you.” Lydia explained. “Apparently Jeremy is some sex freak whose has been tied to a few rapes.”

 

“What the fuck is he doing here?” I asked.

 

“Ryan?” Gabe asked.

 

“Yes my cheating ex boyfriend. What the fuck is he doing here?” I almost screamed.

 

“He flew here when Amanda told him that you returned here. Chase he loves you. We talked last night while you were sleeping. He is miserable without you.”

 

“I don’t give a fuck.” I said with venom in my words. “I just want to be left alone.”

 

Lydia and Gabe walked out, leaving me to wallow in my misery.

 

The next few days were the same Lydia, Gabe and Ryan asked me to talk to Ryan again; I just refused. At the end of the week, Lydia told me that I was to meet her at the Westmoore Hotel restaurant for dinner. I said yes, hoping to get my mind off of Ryan.

 

Pulling up to the hotel, I quickly found a parking spot. It was a nice night outside and I could clearly see the stars. A cool breeze blew and for a second I wished I was in Ryan’s arms. I sighed and told myself to stop thinking like that.

 

I entered the hotel and looked for the restaurant. There was a huge fountain and to the left corner was the restaurant. The restaurant itself was very fancy: there were tables covered in red tablecloths and candles. The smell of good Italian food woffed into my nose. It reminded me of my first date with Ryan.

 

Walking up to the blonde hostess, I told her that I was meeting someone and the reservation was under Lydia. She told me that the person I was meeting was already there, but had stepped out for a second but she should seat me. She led me down a row of tables into the very back of the restaurant, into a private dining room. “Presidential Dining Room” a golden carved sign read.

 

The room was decorated with flowers and sculpture fountains were against the wall. In the corners, ivy covered Greek columns held up the walls. In the center of the room was a small table with a single red candle on it. There was a single rose on each plate. I took a seat and waited.

 

Music was lightly playing in the background, too quiet at firsts. After a few moments I recognized that Dierks Bentely’s “Come A Little Closer” was playing.

 

Come a little closer baby
I feel like layin' you down
On a bed of sweet surrender
Where we can work it all out
There ain't nothin' that love can't fix
Girl it's right here at our finger tips
So come a little closer baby
I feel like layin' you down

Come a little closer baby
I feel like lettin' go
Of everything that stands between us
And the love we used to know
I wanna touch you like a cleansing rain
And let it wash all the hurt away
So come a little closer baby
I feel like lettin' go

If there's still a chance than take my hand
And we'll steal away
Off into the night
Until we make things right
The sun's gonna rise, on a better day

 

I could not help but shed a tear. The song reminded me so much of Ryan. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder, giving me a soft squeeze. I wiped the tears from my eyes and looked up at who I thought was Lydia.

 

“Hi Chase.” Ryan said in a low voice.

 

“What the fuck are you doing here?” I asked, yelling at him.

 

“Lydia and I arranged this. I need to talk to you.”

 

“I don’t care what you have to say.”

 

“Chase, listen please. Look what you saw; it was not what it seemed. Peter came on to me, I never wanted it. I love you Chase and no one else. I am miserable without you. You are my everything, Turtle. Please forgive me. Please come home. I could never hurt you.”

 

“Well you did Ryan. It hurt really bad what I saw. So goodbye. Just give up. I don’t love you anymore. You are dead to me.” I said getting up and heading for the door.

 

“Chase please! I love you! I want…” Being out of earshot I didn’t hear what else he had to say.

 

I ran out of the hotel and quickly got in the car. Clenching the steering wheel, I started crying. After five or so minutes, I regained enough composure to drive to Lydia’s house. I was angry at her. “How could she betray me and trick me?” I thought.

           

I got out and started pounding on the door. Lydia answered, and with a shocked face asked, “Chase what’s wrong?”

 

“How could you do that? Why?” I said crying.

 

“Chasey! It’s ok hun.” She said, holding me as I cried. She took me inside to her room and I fell on her bed crying.

 

“Chase. It will be ok. Trust me.”

 

“Why did you and him arrange it?”

 

“He misses you. And I know deep down inside you are still in love with him. He is miserable without you. And you are without him.”

 

“No I am not. I am fine. I don’t need him.”

 

“Chase look at yourself. Don’t lie to yourself. You know you love him and you want him back.”

 

“I do. But it is all too complicated now. I just want life to continue. Without him.”

 

“Aww Chasey.”

 

“It’s ok. Well I better get home. I don’t want to impose.” I said sighing. I felt worse, not only was I lying to myself I was lying to her. I missed Ryan so much. I want to be with him. I would never be the same without him.

           

“No Chase. Stay here. It is raining so hard. Just spend the night. I don’t want anything to happen to you.” Lydia said.

 

She showed me to the guest room and closed the door behind her. Exhausted, I shed my clothes down to my boxers and lay in the bed. Closing my eyes, I quickly drifted to sleep.

 

I was engulfed by complete darkness, then slowly the room started to become visible, and I realized I was in some long dark corridor. At first I did not recognize it but it was the same corridor Tyler attacked me. Far ahead of me was a door leading to the well lit mall. Hearing footsteps behind me, I felt my heart start to beat faster as I started walking towards the door. With every step I took it seemed that the door seemed to get further away. The echoes of the footstep seemed closer and louder and I started running towards the door to no avail.

 

“There is nowhere to run Chase.” Said a voice behind me.

 

Turning, I saw Tyler looking at me. His eyes burned red as he gave out a malicious laugh. “There is no way out. No escaping. You will be mine.” He taunted.

 

There was a noise behind me and I saw Ryan walking up. Seeing Tyler, I could see the fear and anger in his eyes as he rushed towards him.

“Ryan. Help!” I yelled as Tyler lunged at me. He knocked me to the floor and I saw him and Ryan fighting. He punched Ryan hard and he fell to the floor. Suddenly everything went black. When the lights came back on I saw Tyler standing with Ryan next to him. Ryan looked at me with pure fear in his eyes.

 

“Ryan!” I yelled stepping towards him but suddenly couldn’t walk anymore. There seemed to be an invisible wall between us. “Ryan!”

 

“There is no use Chase. You gave him up.” Tyler mocked.

 

“NO!! RYAN!! PLEASE!!!” I begged.

 

“You told him you didn’t love him anymore. You did this Chase.”

 

“NO!! HELP!! PLEASE!! I DIDN’T MEAN IT!!”

 

“Yes you did. You said he was dead to you.”

 

“NO!!!”

 

“Well I can help you out with that one Chase.” Tyler spat, reaching into his pocket and pulling out a switchblade. Opening the blade, he pointed it at Ryan.

 

“PLEASE!!! DON’T!!” I yelled.

 

Tyler brought the blade closer to Ryan’s throat. Ryan didn’t move; he was just in a trance state. Tyler brought the blade even closer to Ryan’s throat and let out a cruel laugh.

 

“PLEASE!!! NO!!!”

 

Tyler lowered the knife. “You are right Chase. You broke his heart. He doesn’t need it anymore.” With that he brought the knife with all his might into Ryan’s chest over his heart. The blade quickly disappeared in Ryan’s chest until just the handle was left. Tyler let go of the handle as it stuck in Ryan’s heart. Blood stained Ryan’s shirt. Ryan looked at me and with his last gasp of air said, “I love you!” His eyes went black and suddenly he disappeared. Tyler started laughing, his eyes glowing with pure hatred and merciless sadistic pleasure.

 

“RYAN!!!” I yelled as I jolted from my sleep. I started crying and yelling “Ryan!” over and over again. Lydia ran in and held me and told me all was going to be ok. When I had calmed down enough to speak, I told her about my dream.

 

“I am an idiot. Lydia. I fucked it all up. He loves me still and I told him he was dead to me. What do I do?” I cried.

 

“Shh. Chase. It will be ok.” She said holding me tight. “Call him. It is still early.”

 

I looked at the clock on the nightstand and realized it was only 11 at night. Picking up my phone, I dialed Ryan’s cell. I told him to come over to Lydia’s. Fifteen minutes later, he knocked on Lydia’s door.

 

I opened the door and took his hand and told him we needed to talk. Leading him down the driveway, we started walking in the dark night. Thankfully the rain had stopped.

 

“Ryan…I...I am sorry.”

 

“For what Chase? It was all my fault. I should never have let Peter stay.”

 

“No. I overreacted. I am sorry. I missed you so much. I love you baby.”

 

“Chase. I love you too. Now and forever.”

 

Wrapping my arms around his neck, I pulled him into me. I kissed him with all my strength. Slipping my tongue into his mouth, he slipped his into mine. Suddenly rain started pouring down as we continued to make out. I pulled him as tight as I can; his body heat radiating from him- keeping me warm. The rain thundered on the driveway as we made out with more passion. Soon both our clothes were soaked and stuck to our bodies. I walked backwards with him and leaned back onto his rental car. Running my fingers through his hair, I held him by the back of his head pulling him deeper into me. One of his hands peeled back the bottom of my shirt and his warm hand slowly slid over my abs.

           

I slid one hand down his back over his shirt. Once I reached the bottom, I slipped a hand into it and massaged the bottom of his back. He broke the kiss and looked me deep in the eyes and told me he loved me. Lowering his head down, he started to lick the water droplets off my neck and started to suck on my neck. I let out a moan as he started to bite my neck a little.

           

Leaning back, he lifted up my shirt and started to kiss my abs and stomach. I could feel his tongue lapping up the water as it fell on my abs. Every time he would lightly bite my stomach, I let out a moan.

 

All of a sudden it hit me that we were outside in the front of Lydia’s house. Reaching my fingers down over Ryan’s cheek, I hooked them under his chin and pulled him up to me. I kissed him again and told him that we better take this inside.

           

He grabbed my hand and pulled me up off the car and we ran back to Lydia’s front porch. When we opened the front door, Lydia came in from the kitchen and quickly got us some towels.

 

“You two must be freezing. You both need a hot shower.”

 

“Yeah.” We both said.

 

“Well, there is one bathroom down the hall and another one upstairs. But who am I kidding you two want to shower together.”

 

“Lydia!!” I groaned.

 

“What? I know you will.”

 

“Yeah. But you don’t have to say it out loud.”

 

“Let’s just go baby.” Ryan said, grabbing my hand and leading me to the downstairs bathroom. He pulled me into the room and closed the door behind him. Pushing me up against the door, he leaned in to put his lips on mine. I felt him slide his tongue in my mouth, as I slid mine into his. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and pulled him in closer by the back of his neck.

           

After a few minutes of making out he told us that we better get into the shower before we get too cold. Turning around, he turned on the hot water and then came back to me, kissed me and then started to take off my drenched shirt. I took his off and then pulled him in again and started making out with him. Pulling him in closer, our chests rubbed together. He broke the kiss and started sucking on my neck; running his fingertips down my chest and abs and resting them at my waistline. Quickly he started to undo my belt and unbutton my jeans and fly. He then started to lick down my chest; stopping at my left nipple. I shuddered as I felt his tongue run circles over it, lightly biting and sucking on it. I let out a moan as he moved on to my other nipple, before kissing and licking further down my body to my abs. Running his tongue over my abs, he licked further down and flicked his tongue over my belly button for a second before continuing lower.

           

Reaching my waist band, he started to lick a line from one side of my body to the other and taking my pants and boxer briefs off at the same time. Sliding his hands up and down my thighs as he started to kiss and lick all around my cock. He kissed down my inner thigh almost to the knee then licked all the way back, then over my balls; stopping to suck on each. Using his tongue, he cleaned the precum off the tip of my cock. Slowly he inched more and more of my cock into his mouth until he started deep throating it all. Picking up the pace, he moved his fingertips up and down my side and over onto my chest; scratching it a little. I put my hands on the top of his head, pulling him closer as I ran my fingers through his hair.

           

I could feel myself getting closer and I started to buck my hips forward driving my cock deeper into Ryan’s mouth. He sucked harder and faster, running his tongue over the underside of my shaft as it went in and out of his mouth. I could my balls tense up as I shot my load deep in his mouth. He kept sucking my sensitive tip until my orgasm subsided. Slowly Ryan kissed back up my chest to my lips. As we started to make out, I could taste my cum in his mouth. He broke the kiss and said, “I missed that.” He got up and took off his pants and boxers, then winking he stepped back into the shower and grabbed my hand and pulled me into the shower with him.

           

Once in the shower, he pulled me into him, wrapping his strong arms around my waist. The water cascaded down our bodies as I felt every inch of his skin against mine. He slipped his tongue into my mouth, as I slipped mine into his. Breaking the kiss, I licked the water off his cheek and licked up to his neck. Stopping at his ear, I whispered “Ryan, I want to feel you inside me.” I slid my tongue around his ear for a bit than licked back to his lips and kissed him again then turned around.

 

Wrapping his hands around my waist, he slid them over my side forward and up my abs. I stepped back so my back was pressed up against his front. He kissed up my shoulder, up my neck to my ear. “I love you” he moaned before sliding his tongue around it. I ground my ass into his hard cock, feeling the tip leaking a little precum right by my hole. “Fuck me” I moaned.

 

He slid a hand down over my abs, over the side and onto his cock and guided it in my ass. I let out a moan as the tip broke through my sphincter, allowing him to enter me. Biting my shoulder, he slowly moved more of him inside me. Surges of pure energy coursed through my body as I felt an ecstasy I had never felt before. I had missed him so much, like a part of me was missing; and tonight I felt whole again.

 

I could feel him start to quicken the pace as he fucked me; pulling his cock almost completely out then slamming it back in. With each thrust, Ryan hit my prostate harder and harder; slowly causing something to stir in my balls. I moaned out loud as he continued to fuck me and lick and bite my neck and shoulders. Sliding his hands all over my wet slippery abs and chest; almost scratching them. I leaned forward and braced myself against the wall as he slid his cock in and out of me.

           

He quickened his pace even more, bringing me closer and closer over the edge. “Oh Chase. I’m close.” He moaned in my ear, as he continued to pound my ass. I slid one of my hands down the side of his thigh, scratching it and trying to pull him in closer to me. Ryan pulled me in close, scratching my chest and he thrust in deep and started to quiver. I felt the warm sensation of his cum starting to fill my ass, pushing me over the edge. I started to cum as Ryan continued to fill my ass, covering the wall. Ryan wrapped his arms around my waist and chest and I straightened up and kissed me. I broke the kiss and turned around and looked at him. “I really missed you. I missed being in your arms.” I said, wiping some water from his cheek. Before he could say anything else I leaned in and gently kissed him on the lips.

 

“Well I think we should get cleaned up before we waste all the hot water.” Ryan said breaking the kiss, after ten minutes of making out and groping each other’s bodies.

           

“Yeah. Agreed.” I said giving him one last kiss, before reaching down to get some soap. I started to lather up his chest and abs, making sure I ran my fingertips over every inch of it. Then I slid my soapy hands up and down this thighs and legs, before focusing on his cock. I rubbed my soapy hands over his balls, playing with each other a little, then over his cock feeling it grow a bit harder in my hands. I stopped before he grew too hard and ended up spending even longer in the shower. Turning him over, I started to soap up his back and massaged my way down it slowly. I ran my soapy fingers over his muscular calves and over his firm ass. I couldn’t help but slip two fingers in his ass and when he looked down at me with a surprised look, I just told him I wanted to make sure every part of him was clean.

           

He did the same thing to me and then we both rinsed the soap off under the hot stream of the shower. Once we were all rinsed, he pulled me back in and made out with me as he shut off the water. We got out and wrapped towels around our waists. I opened the door and walked out just as Lydia was rounding the corner.

 

“Have fun you two?” She said with a smile.

 

“I…we were…there...” I started to stutter.

 

“Yes.” Ryan said stepping out of the bathroom

 

“Took you long enough. You were almost in the shower for an hour.”

 

“Sorry.” Ryan and I both said at once.

 

“It’s ok, but you two should get to bed. It is late. You can sleep in the guest bedroom. Goodnight.” She said, returning to her room.

 

Ryan and I walked into the guest bedroom that she had prepared for us. We both dried off and then slipped into bed naked. Scooting towards him, I wrapped my arms over his chest and rested my head on his chest. He put his arm around me and pulled me in.

 

After a few moments, Ryan broke the silence, “You know I really do love you, Chase.”

 

“I know baby. I missed you so much. It was stupid of me to think that you would cheat, but it’s over now and I’m glad to have you. I missed being in your arms.”

 

“I know. I missed holding you so much.”

 

I heard Ryan say he loved me before drifting off to sleep. The next morning I was awoken by Ryan turning in his sleep. I looked over at him sleeping there with his back to me. Leaning forward I kissed his neck and told him I loved him. Rolling over and pulling me in, he said, “I love you too.” We just laid there for a bit in silence our fingers intertwined.

 

Suddenly we heard a knock at the door and Lydia asking if we were awake. We told her to come in and she said that breakfast was ready and that Ryan and Gabe were downstairs. Ryan and I got dressed and joined them for breakfast. Talking over breakfast, Ryan and Gabe let us know how happy they were that we were back together.

 

For the rest of the week, Ryan and I visited my friends and Jacob. Bright Saturday morning, we were on a plane back home to California. A place I had never thought I could call home again. We landed on schedule and in no time we got our bags and were on our way home.

 

The car ride home was silent. The silence was comforting to where I felt the warmness of a conversation without wasting the energy. I sat there thinking about how I was glad he was back in my life and that I was finally where I was supposed to be. I took Ryan’s hand that was on his thigh in my hand, intertwining our fingers. I brought our hands to my side of the car, looking at my hand in his then lightly kissed the back of it. Ryan quickly glanced at me and smiled then looked back at the road. “Man it’s beautiful when that boy smiles,” I thought to myself smiling.

 

By the time we pulled into the driveway, that silence had been one of the best conversations we’d ever had. We walked from the car to the door of house in the same silence we had kept, our fingers still intertwined. Ryan pulled his keys out of his pocket and fidgeted around with them. I wrapped my arms around his waist and started kissing his neck as he continued to teasingly struggle with his keys. He finally started to put the key in the door just as I made my way up his neck to his ear, nibbling on it a little bit and starting to caress his abs outside of his shirt. Ryan leaned back, reached behind him, and put his hand on the back of my head letting out a soft groan that made my heart jump. He finally opened the door and I released my grip on his waist as he walked into our apartment. I walked in behind him, shutting the door behind me. I turned back around and Ryan was staring back at me.

 

“I’m really sorry,” I managed to say quietly.

 

“Aww boo boo for what?” Ryan asked back.

 

“For doubting you,” I answered.

 

“Well it’s all over now,” he said as he walked toward me.

 

He wrapped his arms around me, hugging me as I buried my head into his shoulder smelling how good he smelled. It felt so good to feel his warm body against mine as I sunk deeper into his hug, pressing harder into him. Ryan pulled back from the hug and cupped my face in his hands gently pressing his lips against mine. He broke the kiss and looked at me, wrapping his arms around my waist as I draped my arms over his shoulders. He rested his head against mine. “I love you,” I whispered softly. He just stared into my eyes, a smile starting to stretch across his face. “I love you more,” he whispered back. With that, I grabbed his hand and pulled him into the bedroom with me. I snaked my hand around the back of his neck and pulled his face into mine, kissing him slow then more intensely. Ryan laid down on the bed as I walked around to the other side. He grabbed my arm and pulled me down onto the bed next to him. I wrapped my arm around his stomach, resting my head on his chest as he stroked up and down my back. I laid there next to him for what felt like a long time, feeling his soft breathing and listening to the beat of his heart.

 

“I need to take a shower,” he randomly mentioned breaking the comfort of the silence that I had gotten accustomed to.

 

“No you don’t,” I shot back as I tightened my grip around his stomach. He leaned forward and kissed my head.

 

“Come on baby. I’ll only be a second.” I held on tighter before deciding to let up my death grip on him, attempting to keep him there for hours. Ryan sat upright and put his feet on the floor, standing up. Before he even took a step, I reached around his waist and pulled him forcefully back onto the bed into a sitting position again. I wrapped my arms around his waist, kissing his neck again as I kneeled behind him. Ryan whirled around pinning my arms to the bed. “Psh,” I managed to let out before his lips met mine for what felt like forever. No matter how much time we spent together, his kiss would always take my breath away. He broke the kiss and looked in my eyes.

 

“Now, I am going to take a shower. You stay right here. Ok boo boo?”

 

“Fine then I won’t join you in the shower,” I spit back.

 

“Good. Stay,” he said playfully as he smiled and released my arms.

 

I laid in bed waiting for him to get out of the shower and already missed him. I grabbed on tightly to a pillow. I figured if he wasn’t there, the pillow would just have to do. Before no time, Ryan was standing in the doorway in a towel and still dripping. Seeing him completely naked still overwhelmed me and I couldn’t believe it was all mine. It was turning me on watching him rub down the length of his chest, abs, and legs with the towel, drying off all the water droplets trickling down his perfect body.

 

“I told you it wouldn’t take that long,” he said matter of factly as I got up from the bed and walked toward him.

 

“Well what I get to see now was worth the wait,” I said back sexily pulling him into me.

 

“Sexytime?”

 

“If you’re good.”

 

“How do I become that,” he asked with a sly smile on his face.

 

“Behave yourself,” I answered back as I walked him back over to the bed pushing him down on it.

 

“But that’s no fun,” he added.

 

“Oh yes it is,” I said chuckling to myself as I straddled him, reaching into the bedside table. I pulled out two pairs of handcuffs and snapped them around both wrists, the opposite ends attached to the bed.

 

“Getting kinky are we?” he asked, a huge grin forming across his face.

 

I looked down at Ryan, licking my lips as I bent down with my hands on either side of him. I hovered above him, my lips barely touching his, our faces only inches apart. He leaned his head forward opening his mouth in anticipation for me to kiss him. I pulled back a little bit starting to smile at his attempts. I finally gave in and pressed my lips against his softly, getting more intense as I started to slide my tongue in his mouth. I broke the kiss and he leaned forward for more. I kissed the side of his mouth lightly then moving down to under his chin, feeling my hot breath on his neck as I kissed down to his smooth chest. I sat up still straddling him around his waist, his cock under me. I slowly picked up the end of my shirt and slid it off throwing it off the side of the bed. I took the very tips of my fingers and put them right at the bottom of Ryan’s hand, gently starting to slide them down over his wrist. I let my fingers barely graze over the underside of his forearm and down his bicep. Ryan closed his eyes as he let out a heavy breath. I continued to trace down the curves of his body with my fingertips. Down over his chest, squeezing his nipples, then slowly down his abs, tracing the bumps of each one with my fingers. I unstraddled him laying next to him on my side, using my elbow to prop me up. I gently moved my fingertips over his bellybutton slowly getting closer to his cock, intently watching his face. I moved the very ends of my fingers over his throbbing cock, barely touching it, causing him to gasp. A small drop of precum leaked onto one of my fingers and I slowly brought it to my mouth, sucking it off my finger and watching Ryan intently watch me. Still looking up at him, I bent down sticking the tip of my tongue out and barely flicked it over the tip of his cock, causing it to quiver. Quickly, I readjusted myself so I could get access to his cock, straddling his legs. Looking down at his beautiful hard cock, I bent down grazing my lips over the shaft. Randomly, barely sticking my tongue out so it would only graze certain parts of his shaft. Feeling my breath on his cock as my lips barely made contact over the whole length of it. I heard Ryan let out a soft moan as I slid my fingertips up the length of his sides crawling back up his body, keeping eye contact.

 

Once I get to his face, I rested both of my arms at the top of his head looking deep into his eyes. I leaned down my lips barely touching his then quickly slide my mouth over and kiss him on the cheek. I kissed down the side of his cheek to his ear pressing my warm bare body against his. I started nibbling on his ear whispering about how hard I am for him. I kept kissing and nibbling his ear, lightly playing with his hair and slowly moving my smooth body over his. I whispered that I wanted to feel him inside of me, as I pressed my body a little harder against him, grinding my cock into his. Ryan let out another moan as the tip of his cock was lightly grazing over my abs leaving a trail of precum. I got off the bed and stood at the side of the bed slowly unbuckling my belt. I pulled the belt out of the loops and dropped it on the floor. I undid the button and zipper on my pants pulling them open. I hooked my fingers around my jeans and boxer briefs pulling them down and stepping out of them. I looked Ryan in the eyes as I wrapped my hand around my hard cock and started to slowly jack off right next to him. “Oh now come on, that is not fair at all,” he added before pulling on the handcuffs. I just leaned my head back and let out a soft moan looking back down at my cock and biting my lip. “Well what are you going to do about it?” I asked smartly before I let out another moan. Ryan groaned in response as I started to laugh. I got on the bed and straddled Ryan again feeling his hard cock graze against my ass and lower back. I reached behind me and slid his cock into my ass softly moaning as he sucked in and arched his back, his cock pushing further into my ass. I put my hands on his chest and starting riding his cock, scratching his chest a little bit. I slammed down so his cock pushed harder into me hitting my prostate and putting me on the verge of cumming. As I rode his cock harder and faster, my cock slid along his perfect body jacking it off and leaving precum on his abs.

 

I leaned down and starting biting his shoulders hearing him whisper, “please let me loose,” in between moans. I kissed his neck moaning right by his ear then saying not yet. I licked up the side of his neck gathering any sweat that had formed. His cock was sliding in and out of my ass with slow powerful thrusts slamming into my prostate each time. “Oh fuck,” I moaned as I was getting closer and closer to blowing my load. Ryan let out a series of light moans with each thrust as I felt his body start to tighten. I reached up and released his hands from the handcuffs just as he was about to cum. He let out a loud moan before holding my waist slamming me onto his cock, it pushing deep into my ass as he arched his back and pushed his hips up. With that, he started cumming in my ass as I scratched his chest and started cumming on his abs. After we finished milking our cocks for everything they were worth, I collapsed on top of him breathing heavily and still feeling the remains of the orgasm coursing through my body. I felt Ryan’s fingertips running up my sides and over my back as we laid there for a few minutes catching our breath. I sat up then leaned down to lick up some of the cum I sprayed all over his abs. Then I pressed my lips against his, kissing him passionately and sharing my cum with him as our tongues whirled around in each other’s mouths.

 

I rolled off of Ryan and laid on my stomach next to him. I ran my hand back and forth over his abs then wrapped my arm around him pulling him in tightly and resting my head on his chest again. I felt him running his fingertips over my shoulders which sent shock waves through my whole body giving me goosebumps. I relaxed to the steady flow of his breathing and the consistent sound of his heart beating. I rested one hand on his stomach as he brought his hand down and intertwined his fingers with mine. He gently kept caressing my shoulders and my back as I leaned back a little bit so I could tilt my head and see him. I told him I loved him and he said it back then lightly kissed me. I laid back down on his chest moving right next to him feeling his warm body on mine snuggling my face into the nape of his neck still smelling what remained of the soap from his shower. I lightly kissed his neck then we fell asleep, finally back to how we were supposed to be.