I'm not sure when was the last time I was active here, so I might as well be new here.
Deep apologies to all my friends here. I know I've been an awful awful friend; whether you still consider me a friend anymore is purely up to you.
I'm not sure how active I'm going to be here, but I'll try.
Just a few updates if anyone is still interested.
Finally finished uni for a while, I think. Two years studying here in Australia I've decided that should be the end of schooling years for me until I
Gosh, I'm such a slut!
So yeah, I'm having this crush on this guy I know about from a class. I said "know about" because I've never actually talked to him or anything besides a certain amount of class particpation on both sides. So I basically know nothing about this Justin. Well, yeah, I know his name is Justin, and he's from the States. And cute to my eyes.
O well, Sky and Graham comes to mind when I'm talking about this situation. Sky, well, another sad news.
So yeah, I'm pretty c
I was debating whether I should write this blog, but then I thought I'm not here as often anymore, so I guess a blog might be good. <--Whatever, that doesn't make sense. Talk about randomness.
Talking about updates, so I'm here now in Sydney, Australia. Meh.
But then one of the good sides is that now I can do Youtube! One of the videos I've been watching religiously daily is Joel Burns' "It Gets Better"
, supposedly one of the best It Gets Better video of all time. I know the video
I was deprived access to GA for some time now, due to a stoopid conference about the CCP or something. With some incidents happened in China recently, I seriously dislike this country right now.
Anyway, I just found out that I again can log on to GA, so I'm writing this as a hello to everyone and a slight update de moi.
It's official. I'm going to Syd, Aus for grad courses, since all the US schools rejected me. The only thing that's in the way is the student Visa. I'm expecting to get it i
Okay, so in 4 hours I'll be getting up for my first day of internship. And I'm not asleep yet. But this is nothing. I guess I just need to rant out a few stuff to go sleep. And need to write a blog anyway.
The other day I came out to a friend - my former professor, who I had a big big crush on and am pretty sure straight. It was because I hadn't replied to his email in weeks and I was feeling a little guilty and I didn't have much to say in the email so I decided to tell him. I had always su
(Pre-caution again. Nonsense and Babble.)
So I was talking about the hug. Urgh, I already miss it.
So the other day I was making playlists in my iTunes and decided to make a "Charles era songs". Altogether, until now, I've found 23 songs to fit in the playlist. Cried to several of them. Some of them was produced by Charles. Overall, songs that have special meaning to the friendship/one-sided love.
And this song was almost like the theme song of the era, call The Dance.
(Pre-caution: I'm bound to talk randomly and babble stuff that perhaps doesn't make sense.)
So I'm in love with a straight guy. Again. With the same person. Pathetic.
Pathetic is I. My Charles is everything I could have wanted.
(And he just called me right now.)
I guess I've never really stopped loving him from the first time. Just the feeling has become an element flowing in the blood. You'd always know it's there. And only would appear when stirred.
And I was stirred.
Met my ex today. Total disaster. Well, he's leaving for Belgium in 3 days. I'm just glad.
Well, just a little background why I don't like him at all.
We started the relationship (well, i don't consider it a relationship, i'd say it's f**k buddies, but obviously he thought otherwise) when I was recovering from a crush on a straight buddy. (I know, I know! Don't crush on your straight buudy.) So I'd consider him more like a buoy, or so we call it. It's like you were drowning in a pas
Is it even right for me to say that I'm back?
I'm not sure how long I've been away, but since I always got email notifications, I've never considered myself left. It's not like I've been away for more than 4 months. (Yes, I'm talking to you, BiD )
So uh, anyone who may want to know why, if there's any that is...
Wait for my summer anthology story then, if I come up with anything that is.
Twas a personal issue which I'm considering turning into a short story or something. (Ah, I r
So I'm just back from the play |MACBETH| performed by TNT Theatre Britain in our school theatre.
And I'm so blown away!!
The performance of those mere six actors/actresses are just stunning. Esp, the three witches by Mark Prince, Gail Sixsmith and Rebecca Naylor; Lady MacBeth by Gail Sixsmith; and MacDuff by Roger Clark.
And it doesn't hurt that Mark Prince and Roger Clark are cute.
It was my first time in a play, (come to think of it, not). Anyways, the experience was just out of
I'll first say, Tuesdays with Morrie is a great book, but not one suitable for reading in public.
So the book was recommended by my creative writing teacher. At that time, it seemed like a requirement while not being one, thus I didn't read it at that time.
The other day, I bought it and decided to read it after all. By this time, it's not longer a requirement and definitely a book that I really want to read.
I started reading on the plane back to BJ. I knew from the start that this boo
Despite the all happy mood here for the lunar new year, still it's a sad time.
Yesterday morning, when mom was driving me out somewhere, I saw a lump of something on the ground. I really shouldn't have been curious to found out what that is, coz when I finally realized, we had run over it. It was a dead cat. I swear it was already dead when we ran over it, but still, I burst out crying. I could almost feel the pain of it. And it's to be the year of Tiger. Kind of ironic, for me.
I probably shouldn't write the first entry in the time when I'm 'too tired to sleep', but well, when's the better time to join the community.
Eff the mosquito in my room.
I should do lots of stuff, which the thought of it disgusts me.
Should finish the untitled 'Hello, Insomnia' project.
Should finish the untitled 'the cruelty of youth' poject.
Should finish posting 'The Sick Puppy and the Angel'
Should start thinking about the 'Insomnia. Acousma. Sex. Love. Friends. Suicidal Atte