Nothing like an old fool
yes that is me i was played like one. i did a small holiday cheer sending cards to teens / young adults that had been disowned by there family at Christmas time. At the time it was a good thing. one of the guys reached out and we got to talking. he was a female to male trans gender and had no one to talk to. so we treated each other a mentor / father / son. we talked daily and became friends. things were fine and then i got played. i have made a rule that i w
Mia - a bomb has dropped into my life and the pieces are everywhere. i have not heard or spoken to someone very special to me. i last spoke to this person in the rehab center last Friday.he had knee surgery and we made plans for Sunday which was our normal day. Then my world changed went to the rehab Center and no friend / lover no word no message. Damn rules that won’t help me I’m not family. Went out to car and fell apart wondering what happen. Made a few phone calls and again that blasted bri
Happy New Year
Make New Year's goals. Dig within, and discover what you would like to have happen in your life this year. This helps you do your part. It is an affirmation that you're interested in fully living life in the year to come.
Goals give us direction. They put a powerful force into play on a universal, conscious, and subconscious level. Goals give our life direction.
What would you like to have happen in your life this year? What would you like to do, to accomplish? Wh
Today’s Reflection - i’m sorry
i have failed and found myself in a dark place. i said and did stupid things of which i’m ashamed. when i hit rock bottom it finally hit me. i should be on top of the world but inside i was hurting. past demons came to live in my head again. your not good enough - you will never amount to anything and the scary one was you would be better off dead. i went through the day to day never caring of what happen. my daily life was getting harder and harder. i then
Confession
When i started this journey of discovery i had a lot of help from a lot of Great Sirs. They answered all of my questions and gave me a lot of things to think about. i had a bad experience and learned from it.
I then met my current boyfriend he has open my eyes to a lot of new experiences. (i have been given permission to share this) we are both older over 65. We have a good time together. Our first meeting was 7 hours just sitting and talking on his deck. We then have bee
Today is not a good day - update 10/7/19
I have a questions for you Guys and Gals how many of you Check for lumps?
Let’s have a show of hands?
Hum not many why?
Don’t think it can happen to you?
I thought that till today. I found a lump in my right breast, Yes, I’m a guy and Yes we do get them. I’m concerned about this, who wouldn’t be. Everyone thinks the Big Cancer. Now the waiting and the worrying begins. Can’t get into the Doctors till Monday. I so wish you could
Coming Out is a personal journey for everyone. I wanted to share this. I also want to thank tim for his editing help. Thanks tim. I’m sure being around a lot of Great Writers in GA has caused this blog.
Coming out
The closet was my home,
it never judged me
The closet hid my loneliness
and was my refuge
The closet was my family
and my friend
The closet made me safe
it kept my secret
The closet knew I was Gay
One day it said it
Push, twist, pull it seems so simple
we all do this everyday
I open bottles all the time except
when it meant the most I failed
I had a date circled on the calendar it was 33 years ago it was both my birthday and the day I planned to escape my pain. I didn’t have anyone to support me my father and mother both hated me. I was there but I wasn’t there if they spoke it was to tell me I had did something wrong or I was not important. They always demand I did things for them.
