Suicide - have you ever pursued it?

[ketiba]

We lost a friend last week.

 

We don't know if the final act was deliberate or accidental, but he'd been deeply depressed and abusing various substances, killing himself slowly, for a long time. If it was "accidental" it was an "accident" he wanted, had prepared for. It's very hard and very sad. He was smart and funny and beautiful, and so full of pain. He and my partner were friends for a long time, and my partner is racked with guilt about what he didn't do, could have done, should have done. I don't really know how to comfort him.

 

My heart goes out to all of you who have felt so much pain that ending it seems the only option.

 

 

may he rest in peace

[Skylights]

*hugs everyone in the thread*

 

Just reading all of these testimones is making me depressed. T_T

 

I have considered it before. And I don't think I ever will again. Even pain is something, rather than nothingness. I tend to just try to get through life and have a crash every once in a while. The past few days has been the latest crash. All those demons i've piled up over recent years are poking me

[daffy106]

What an interesting and important conversation. As someone who made a really serious attempt at suicide 17 years ago, I relate strongly to this subject. Although many factors contributed to my feeling that the pain of living had become intolerable, it seems the primary factor was a serious clinical depression, which, after much experimentation, a workable balance was found. One writer said the effects of the medication wore off after a while. Medical science in this field had advanced a lot in the past few years, and I strongly advise you to do your head a favor and seek help in finding a better medication. Out of curiosity, I looked up the State suicide statistics, and immediately saw interesting correlations. The colder the state, the higher the relative number of suicides. Even more influential was that the the more "socialist" the state; the more a state promoted social services and not dog eat dog social independent attitudes, the lower the suicide rate was. Alaska, with it's cold weather and cold social values, has the highest suicide rate in the country. This suggests that those unhappy persons contemplating offing themselves would find counseling effective, as it seems to indicate that it is effective in those places where it is easier for a non wealthy person to obtain such services. It also suggests that moving to a warmer, more socially responsible place, might also help some people. I was lucky. I rose out of my death bed after the doctors had told my loved ones to buy a casket, and I somehow found myself surrounded by loving support and a will to finally listen to them and do the hurtful mental therapy I needed to recover. I won't go into the details, as each person is different, but the most important wisdom I can give is to believe in yourself. If you really want your bad feelings to go away, it can be done! It may hurt a bit while you are working on it, but the end result is a much better outlook on life, a feeling that can be long lasting and permanent in most people. Since I finished this work, my self esteem is much better and I enjoy living a lot more.

Daffy106