Westie

Now theres an idea... if you're into the kinky that is... shaving!

It's not nearly as interesting as you might think... nothing to do with the general... more of an inside joke on my family name. thou I suppose i should have kept people guessing

I have never been a healthy weight. Nowadays I walk the 6 miles to my office each morning, and usually walk home too. I've always been one for eating out - two to three times a week at various local restaurants - never fast food though. When I was a kid, our housekeeper was of an old mindset - good old british "stodge" food keeps you warm and healthy, and so growing up was a mixture of pies, puddings (suet based foods), batters and potatoes. I remember going to Italy when I was 18, where I tried pasta for the first time - when I told our housekeeper, she was mortified. I think she'd be more accepting if I came out of the closet than if she knew i'd eaten chinese food That said, I'm told I carry my weight well, and don't look too bad, but I am acutely conscious of being more teddy bear than action man. I also know that for my health, I need to give up the chocolate and become more active. My office has a gym which I should use, and keep telling myself I will - but never get round to it. I think I'm in dire need of something drastic to be honest.

Why have I come here? why am I writing a blog? What's this british upstart thinking of coming along into the forums and stirring up the soapbox? Well, I think I need to tell you about myself first. I am so deep in the closet, I'm half way to Narnia. I live in a small town in the UK, and generally speaking homosexuality is not accepted. So finding an escape online has become a sort of "release Valve" for me. A few years ago I was a member of another internet forum, and we formed a very close community. It was a very, erm.. Sexual forum. And was entirely straight oriented. When that forum collapsed I realised how unhealthy and obsessive that forum had become - and so I became an "online celibate". Then I discovered a couple of online stories. Fraternity memoirs sticks in my head as an early favorite. I fell in love with the body of work produced by Michael Arram. I also read a story called "on the Mark", written by some guy who I think some of you are familiar with . That story lead me to a series called Chronicles of an Academic Predator, and then to the Bridgemont series that lead me here. And so I lurked here... and found an embracing community. This lead me to re-discover my need for a "release-valve" - somewhere to let it all out. It occurs to me - I don't even give a damn if nobody reads this. It's for me - not you - though if I make a few friends along the way, well that's just a bonus. ___________________________ So this is the start of something new. Something big in my life. Because I'd like to start telling my story too - I'm trying to write a bit at the moment. I have two stories, one real, one fantasy, that I would like to push on with, and see what sort of reception I get. These are hard going - mainly because I keep going back and re-editing. I'll let you know how things go. In the meantime, I'll just see where this blog takes me....

couldn't live without my iPhone (though I understand that in America they don't work too well because AT&T can't handle to network load) My "work" mobile is a blackberry. I know having 2 phones is a bit awkward... but I like to separate my "office" life from my personal one...

I used to use... erm... certain substances to help myself along... but that actually caused bigger problems long term... Now I have a hot tub and a sauna, I tend to use those to de-stress. Though i'd put in a vote for a log fire, bottle of wine, a sheepskin rug and your partner of choice

I've got to admit to having been a "lurker". I've been reading a good few stories on here, so i thought - "why not join 'em?". Loads of people have left welcome messages already - which shows how friendly everyone is. Already, I've found an author who i'd never read before, and stayed up most of the night reading his stuff. I think i'm gonna have a lot of fun here