She's finally fallen asleep. We were up all night, sponging her down and singing to her as we waited for the three hour relays between paracetamol and ibuprofen to take effect. We were about to bundle her in the car and hightail it to the emergency unit when I found my old otoscope and looked in her ear. If a pharmacologist could see the inflammation, I managed to quip, then it's definitely otitis media. We called a paediatrician friend of mine who emailed a script because I lose all sense of me