Randomness

I pulled into the sub-division and noticed the beige and gray structures strewn across the grounds that blocked my way to the rear of the complex. I pulled into an empty spot, walked the to the outside door and pressed the buzzer. The door unlocked without hesitation. “Patrick!” Darrin ran down the stairs. “How are you?” “Good.” He latched on to me. “Dad said we had to wait for you before we ate. Do you like McDonalds?” “Sure.” “Dad!” he yelled up the stairs, “He said we can have McDonalds!

Get together this weekend? I was surprised. Jeff had texted after the show and I thought I had made it clear again, then. Sorry. It was all I could say without shouting. He needed to move on. It wasn’t going to be me nor would it ever be. As difficult as this was with Ben, I was committed to it. Jeff needed to be happy for me and for himself. I couldn’t see him as any more than a friend and a long distance one at that. He needed to let me go. I didn’t want to hurt him over and over again. Wa

I feel like I am Free-Falling, oops, wrong song! Extremely fast paced, making the characters act quickly and making me question everything that everyone does. (I even suddenly question how innocent Ma is!) Keep your hands and feet inside the rollercoaster until you come to a complete stop!

I am arguing with Jeff and Rob about this story. Both want back in! Jeff wants a happier ending and Rob wants his side told. I don't know if either will get what they want. Not to tease, but I hope next chapter will help a little with your reservations about Ben. I am in a "writing" mind lately, so I hope to help you settle in a little. Thank you so much for your comments. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Jeff, for me, is a very rare person, one who actually says and does what he feels. Does that make him impulsive? Maybe.Ben, Patrick and trust. Every character, and most reviewers (in there own way), keep telling the two of them to talk and be honest. Once they do that they can rebuild the "old" trust that was lost. They started but have more to talk about and prove. Thanks!!!

The parking lot was packed. I spent so long weaving between people, not paying attention, I almost missed an open spot. The man in the car behind me was pissed when I reversed and squeezed into the space. I dodged along the sidewalk and texted Jeff. Eventually, I pushed my way to the table that served as the box office and got my ticket. The crowd was thicker inside and I backed up against one of the walls to wait. “Patrick!” “Darrin?” Where did he come from? He grabbed onto my arm. “Dad did

Hi Lisa!I think of Jeff as a free spirit leaning towards impulsive, making him full of life and maybe too tricky to handle. If the guys can keep the dialouge open, they can cut through all the red tape. I need to take that advice for myself more often. Thank you for keeping up with Patrick. Chapter Seven is ready to go for this weekend. Let me know what you think, I look forward to you thoughts!

“Don’t be all bashful. He likes you. Did he call?” I couldn‘t meet Alec‘s eyes. “He sent me an e-mail this morning.” The corner of his mouth pulled in and he cocked his head. “He’s driving down this way for something. He wants to get together for dinner.” “Sounds like fun. He seems nice.” Grant came back from the kitchen with our coffee. “No word from Ben at all?” He asked gently. “He has the kids today. Maybe later.” “You can use my computer to check for e-mail…” Grant said. Alec inter

Yes, Ben needs to know that Patrick has options. It is one thing to merely hear about other possible rivals but to actually see a viable candidate, especially one who had a past, like him, may be the right motivation for Ben to be more serious or clarify his thoughts to Patrick. As always, thank you so very much for reading and writing.

Hello My Friend,Thank you for continuing to allow me the opportunity to convince you that I am good enough for Patrick. It is important to me that you think that I am worthy. It is true that I have my own “baggage” in the form of my relationships. I think I may have told you before, but, I can do anything if I have the support to break free. As for Jeff, I am a little uncomfortable with him for my own reasons. I hope that my insecurities about him are only just that, only insecurities. Keep in touch, Ben

Ben has some ‘splaining to do! The timing is terrible. Jeff… the opposite of both: forthcoming and unattached. Lisa, Thank you so much for revisiting with them! :-)

Happy to throw/surprise you! Patrick and his emotions, Ben and his relationships… Somebody make a decision please! lol

I couldn’t concentrate with the continuous stream of self recrimination firing though my brain. I missed a turnoff, backtracked and continued. Further on, I stopped to get gas and finish getting dressed. Thank goodness I could use my card instead of going in. By the time I crossed the state line, I had calmed down enough to remember to turn on my phone. It chirped several times with calls and texts from Ben. I couldn’t listen to any of them. I called Jake instead. “Paaatriccck!” He sounded che

Hey Podga,Thank you, thank you, thank you. I think that you “get” Patrick. Reading that you are “twisted along with him” is wonderful to hear. As someone who has a hard time trusting my own impressions of people, it seems only natural to not give Patrick (or you ;-P ) too much insider information about what Ben is about. Patrick’s eyes see things but do not always process them. As for Chapter 5, I do write “in flow.” I try to write with my own artificial deadlines, and I promise that I am thinking and writing.

Rob was written in with one purpose and ended up with another. How he made himself evolve is, in a way, still surprising to me. Once again, thank you for seeing the fun detail. :-)

I am happy you found it; Louis has been awesome! I may have mentioned it before differently, but I tend to like characters who have had time for life to give them, well, character. When I put in those random little moments, I think of them as fun “snapshots of life.” Thank you for seeing them!

Dear Mr. Harris,I do not wish to appear rude, for my charm does not come naturally like Ben’s, however, I would like to remind you that I did try to be tactful at the party. I even tried to be helpful by attempting to make sure no one would catch on to the subtext between Ben and Patrick. Those facts aside: like any other person, I need to protect my own interests. I cannot let my natural order of things be changed just because Patrick walks back into Ben’s life. Sorry, I know myself and I don’t adapt well. The status quo works well for me. Sincerely, Robert L J, Stop, you’re making me blush now! I have learned over the years that most people need to change from the inside first. Patrick has come so far over the last few weeks. As for the sex (or lack thereof), the same idea applies: he is almost ready. As you already made me blush once, I can confess I am so ready to “be sorted out!” ;-P - Ben L J. I know… I know, I know. I know! Patrick

I agree, I think that sex would have changed the texture of the experience. Rob is still proving to be a little much. I think he needs to be neutralized somehow, regardless of his motives. Once again, thanks for keeping tabs on the guys!

“Hey Patrick, I have an idea…” Ben began enthusiastically, “You remember my parents house out on the lake? They’re away visiting my uncle, lets head out there. What you say?” He sounded hopeful. “Bit of drive, you think?” “Keep close, I know some short cuts.” I didn’t know how I felt about the change in plans. His flat was one thing, but this? The house was on a lake, private, semi-secluded, romantic and heartbreaking. Ben and his family bought the house during our last year of high school.

Interesting read, leaves me wondering where this could be going. I did not feel empathy with Roland. By him dying (apparently again), the emotional response would be from Brian would be important. How does Brian actually feel? He was trying to not regret moving on but, would that change with the suddenness of death? Side note: Kevin would know if it really was his cousin or not right? Intriguing...

Thanks, I felt inspired write as much as I could remember right away. I had my Hubster read it too, just to check on my accuracy. He said I pretty much had it the way he remembered. I think he was surprised at my public display of affection, I tend to shy away from them. It had to have been the atmosphere. The Hubster and I came up with a word for when I get like that: “Romantical.” As in “I am trying to be romantical here!” or “Aww…how romantical.” I have to go to a Pride Event. We are so “vanilla” when it comes down to it. Hugs and Respect to You and Your Hubby. Now go take a walk in the rain, NO snogging! Hehehe…

L J -It is good to know that Ben’s family is kinda normal. Darrin is a beacon. He is not an adult yet; maybe that is why he can make me smile. Greg is, as I might have said, an idiot. Whereas Emily may be oblivious right now, I agree, Rob may be a problem. He unnerves me. I know I am way too cautious, but I do not want to get hurt either. More to the point, I do not want to be hurt by Ben. The others (Greg, Rob, Emily, etc.), I think I could deal with if I had to, as long as I know that Ben would stand with me. Para te: Gracias mi amigo para ser allí para me. - Patrick L J - It sounds like you might be warming up to me. Who would have thought right? I would say that I told you so, but… lol. I have baggage, we all do. Patrick has seen more of mine and has yet to tell me if he can really handle it. Then there is his baggage. He doesn’t share all that well. For example, is his family even in the picture anymore? Do I even need to know stuff like that? I wish he would tell me more about what he is thinking. He can do it, I know he can, he stood up for Darrin. I can’t keep showing all my cards when he does not show his. I just have to be patient. I just have to keep telling myself that. - Ben L J - I have no other words other than: you continue to inspire me and thank you. - Randomness

Rob is turning out to be more complex and Greg more simple that I had originally imagined. I have ideas about Rob, but opening an entire can of worms might be too much, maybe just a half can? lol I think Patrick may be on the right path, finally, so maybe he can appreciate everything more later. Thank you for tuning in! The speed of my writing is very dependant on my real life, somehow real life always slows me down.

I am happy to hear you found and are enjoying the story. The hardest part has been to make it flow, to make it seem natural, livable. Hopefully that is what you feel. Patrick needed a good support system and I found that in characters from another story I wrote (lengthy and unpublished) about Alec and Grant. And… No, no, no… Thank YOU for reading! :-)

Get out of my head! lol Seriously, you seem to catch the little things. Maybe I’m not as subtle as I thought. I don’t want to make this to complex, but we got a peek at Patrick’s life; this is Ben’s turn I guess. I have been pushing Patrick out of his comfort zone, Greg and Rob are outside. It is a little cliché but I see Greg as one of THOSE guys who would have been on the the high school football team. Rob is still defining himself, he has changed a lot from when first put on paper. Would it have been better to end the chapter with the first line of the next: “Hey Pat, I had and idea…” ?!?! ;-P