Randomness

Thanks for keeping up with the guys! Rob is still trying to let me know what type of impact he will have. I’ve been thinking about how long Ben and Patrick can go on pretending. Hopefully, Greg added depth to Patrick, showing that he does have a backbone, he is going to need it! :-)

About September 8, 2012 My Hubster and I went to Six Flags Great America to meet up with some friends of his from work and their partners. The event was called “Out at the Park.” The park would be open like regular during the day and would technically close at 9pm to those who did not purchase the “Out at the Park” wrist bands. Those with wrist bands would be allowed in the park until 1am. We were running late when we left. It was my fault, first I had under predicted the time we would need an

Just me talking. A quick recollection of yesterday's events at, what would be my first real gay event. I guess I am so boring. :-)

Forgive me if I said it before, but, you have great way of making me feel for the characters. It seems highly personal, intimate, almost like spying in one someones life. I think I may like the promise of a happy ending better than the details of one. Touching.

The drizzle made the drive brutal. It had been along time since I’d been this way: new on and off ramps confused me, landmarks had disappeared. The rain stopped as I exited the highway. Before I had enough time to collect myself, I pulled into the subdivision and searched for the correct house. I found it easily. Cars packed the driveway and the street. I pulled slowly on to the side road and parked. I picked up the cowboy hat and presents. By the time I made it to my rear bumper, I changed my

Once again, I am enjoying something you have written. Interesting, choosing a character with a speech impediment. From what I have read, you have no fear throwing something at your characters so I have a little trepidation about what will happen next. Can’t wait to see. I think both Colin and Andrew are in for more that what they bargained for.

L J - Yes, others give character. Who does define me? Does who change definition? Friends? Confidants? A Lover? Yes, we are reunited. Where do we go now? Do we ignore these past years? Apart? Lonely? Still longing? Yes, Ben told me he missed me. What does that really mean? Does he miss me in his life? As a lover? A toy? Friend? Yes, the words can make me weep. How do I tell him? Do I toss caution aside? Blurt it out? Confess? Confide? Yes, I have waited many years. When is the right time? Do I be ordinary? At dinner? A party? Fair? Yes, I have waited too long. Do I need do this? Why extraordinary? To breathe, to live, To Move Forward. - Patrick

Thank you for getting, what I feel, is an important part of Patrick’s personality! You can have a full life AND hold onto the past at the same time. I wanted him to have a little fun with his friends and act like the kid that he sometimes remembers, the happy one, from years ago when he was with Ben. Grant really surprised me! I had assumed Alec was the “smart” one. Grant proved me wrong! Off to the Party… Thanks again!

Hopefully the change in tone between 1 and 2 was not too jarring. Patrick’s thoughts are stronger in intensity the less he talks, and his friends gave him a temporary escape. In the right surroundings, his thoughts will be louder. The party will be another environment for him to cope in. Thank you so very much for keeping up with me and giving me more to think about.

Sorry, I goofed replying on your previous review. Filling in more of the past with Patrick and Ben, has been a challenge, deciding too much vs. too little. I am pleased you liked the dialogue. I hoped to keep the them just something good friends would say. Jake is a favorite of mine. He is based on a friend who deserves a phone call very soon! Thank you so much.

“Oh hell,” I said out loud. I pulled into Jake’s driveway right next to Alec‘s Wrangler. I shook my head at myself, it must really be bad if Jake called in reinforcements. In fact, it was Alec who introduced me to Jake in the first place. We met at a party Alec was having. I had just arrived and was standing in the living room when I heard loud, deep laughter coming from the large man coming around the corner from the kitchen carrying snacks. It had been a while since I met someone close to m

For the record, the character point-of-view shifts did not bother me. And why was this story not finished?! You made me curious about where it is/was going.

I almost dropped my computer! Throw me another twist like that and you won’t need a hammer, my blood pressure would do it for you. My ex and I had a similar last year and a half or so at the end. Thank goodness that we were both “tool-challenged.” Creepy Fun. Yikes!!!

This is so very highly personal and moving, I can only imagine the depth of your feelings. My partner suffers from anxiety/depression and it scares me to think how close he has been at times. I know all circumstances are unique but this touched me deeply. My thoughts are with you and him.

Hello LouisHarris, It’s Ben. I am a little hurt that you don’t like me very much. Once you get to know me a little better, I think you will understand how I think and feel. Please, give me a chance, I am sure I can win you over. I may not be big and blonde, like Patrick, but I still have good qualities. Spend more than just a day with me, we can talk together, we can spend the time just sitting around or maybe go out and have fun, together. I can tell you a little about myself while I get to know you. Please understand me when I say, one does what one thinks is right at the time. We all have our pasts, but we all have our present to live in. I need to live in the present. I am a good listener. You can also tell me all about your hopes and fears and dreams. Tell me when you think I am wrong. That is what someone who cares about me would do. Thanks for caring about me. Don’t worry, I assure you that there is no way I could force you to do anything that you, deep down, don’t want to do. You can take your time, days, months or years if you need. I am very, very patient. Sometimes I just have to wait, but you won’t forget me easily. We can decide what kind of relationship we will have later. Let’s be friends for now, if that is ok with you, of course. I do believe Patrick to be his own man. Even though he does not share the details of his life with me, often, I am sure that he has friends to help and advise him. They help make him who he is at present as I did in the past. Ultimately, the choice, of what our relationship will be like, is up to Patrick. In that way, it is today, as it was. Your Friend Always, Benjamin

Patrick gained another inch somewhere between my original drafts and the posting.As one who is slightly “vertically challenged,” I like ‘em tall too. There is nothing better than looking up into someone’s eyes. I am extremely pleased you enjoyed the read. Thank you.

Thank you! I will absolutely take “sad” and “pining.” I was very concerned that Patrick was too “morose” or “pathetic.” As for Annie and Kathy, to quote Star Wars: “Your insight serves you well.”

I know right? Daddy in a cowboy hat and a nice pair of jeans…Thank you again for sharing your insights. I hope To Move Forward and show you something different. Thanks!

I wanted to echo Daniel89's sentiments. I had a fun read. I can't help thinking (as mentioned in the story) this may be too easy and something big might be coming. Hope you continue. Good Luck!

I stood inside the main entrance to the State Fair shuffling my feet nervously. The crowds streamed into the grounds at a furious pace. I was early so I had time to wait and think and torment myself. It had been years since I had seen Benjamin. After he and his wife split, I stopped receiving the family photo at Christmas. The last one was from about five years ago. It showed a smiling young family in matching sweaters. The accompanying letter was the usual holiday update for family and friend

Patrick has been unable to let go of the past. He finally decides to make an attempt to move forward but realizes there may be more chapters to add to the old story before starting a new one.

So you kept me up until 12:30 this morning, now I am at work tired! I wanted let you know that I enjoyed Accidents. I Happen to really love a story where the characters are not a kids. (So I am a little age biased, I like 'em older). I rooted for the characters right away! I giggled all through the chapter that was in reverse person. Having Scott repeat the exact words of the scene with his own thoughts was hilarious. Another "like" from me into your pantheon of tales! (Next story I will start much earlier in the day, I promise. )

I know that I am a little late to this story, having only found this site recently, but I enjoyed it. I was able to care about Dave and Rick right away and rooted for them without reservation to their present. Yes, someone is always hurt somehow, whether it be Dave, Rick, Jill and/or Sheila. I may be biased, but a first love being re-explored is touching. If you do decide to continue with Dave and Rick, I will be there!

I agree with all of these! Add the original "When A Stranger Calls" with Carol Kane. I saw the first 20 minutes in the middle of a sunny afternoon and it still freaked me out!