It’s not early enough to be early, but the space next to Derrick’s Merc is empty, as it normally is, and I sit there having killed the engine, gripping the steering wheel just a little bit harder than necessary. Like the first time Erin and I slept together rather than had sex, I have no idea why I’m nervous now. This is my school, my space in the parking lot. I am captain of one of the school’s top sports teams, everybody knows my name. I have strode in through those double doors every day this