I have a yearning, it's a quiet gnawing inside of me. I know that this yearning does not define me, but I cannot just deny it.
He looks at me, that way of his, the hunger in his eyes across the cafeteria. I know what he wants, I know it somewhere deep inside of me, down where things are primal. Where that yearning of my own lurks.
Perhaps I should ask him... or confront him. Yeah, I could challenge him. Get up close to him and stare him down, ask him why his eyes bore into my soul every day while he chews a granola bar.
God, why? Why does he have to smirk, like he knows what it's doing to me. As if he isn't feeling the exact same thing when I smirk back. I know it, I have to be right, right? You don't share longing like that... that hunger with another person and not feel it.
You know the feeling, that burning in your cheeks, the heat.. the itch in your palm, and the hammering of your heart that quickens just by being seen? Marc does that to me, please tell me I am not alone.
Oh, oh no, he's coming over. He knows! Wait, he's braver than me? How is that possible? Maybe it's not Bravery, maybe it's just that his yearning is stronger than mine...
Why am I pushing out a chair for him with my foot, why is he sitting down, why are we both smiling? Yearning becomes something different when it's acted upon. Say something to him, before you turn redder than a tomato and he sees it... he's seen it... but he's red too!
Oh man, come on, ask him out... ask me out, one of us has to do something!!!!
Oh my god, he's asking me out! Say yes, YES!!!
See, yearning is good for something!