Chaz

I found something unique in this place. I found people that cared enought about you that they asked if you were alright, that they supported you when you needed them to. I think that most of the people come here because of the stories but most stay because of the community this place offers. I couldnt have made it throught the past few months if it wasnt for some of the people that come here also. So I think we should all be grateful that this place exists. I know I am and i wouldn't have it any other way. Chaz

I just wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. CHAZ

It amazes me the hypocracy and denial of some christian americans. Why couldn't he come out happily like Neil Patrick Harris and be like, hey I did a mistake and apologize with dignity. No He'd rather bash his own persuasion so he can later on like an idiot decide that he no longer can live his life like a straight man. We all know this will happen eventually. The sad part is that I find the prostitute more interesting than he is.

Congratulations James. I hope you have many more because you are a great person and you deserve the best. Chaz

You guys think thats bad. Check this out. Gen pets This really creeps me out and it's not even real.

Happy birthday Bev. Here is to many more... Chaz

Happy birthday Michael. I hope you've had a wonderful day. Chaz

It amazes me how many people knew Green. Today as I sit here getting ready to let him go forever I realize that losing him will never compare to anything else that can come or has passed. Just hearing that doctor say I'm sorry will forever be implanted in my head. So many people have come and gone through this house today that it unnerves me. I can't face them not now. At the funeral service I found myself more concerned with his family than myself. His mother is devastated and so are his fathers. David however is taking it the hardest. There hasn't been a point where he isn't crying. It occurs to me that Green wasn't just mine. He belonged to everyone that was a part of his life. He touched so many people. Selene and I just sat away. We are both still in shock. He was taken away from us so quickly. There are so many things I wanted to say and I wasn't allowed to. I never got the chance. His mother had to sneak me into the icu just so I could see my boyfriend in the worst condition. I want to thank all of you guys for everything. Your kind words mean a lot to me. I am going to be away for a while. Things here have to settle you know? Plus I am going to move back home for the summer. I will be back though, I promise. CHAZ

Guys greeen passed away this afternoon. I just wanted to let you guys know. Chaz

Guys I finally got to see Green. He doesn't look good guys. They have him on a respirator and it seems like he's getting worse. He flatlined twice already and they don't know how much more they can do. I don't want to lose him guys. I can't see him like this. He doesn't deserve this. The doctors already told his parents to look into funeral services. I just want to scream right now to wake him up. Chaz

Hi guys thanks for your thoughts. Um Green is still in ICU. They won't tell me anything and Green's mother hasn't come out of the room in a long time. His father left crying before I could ask him anything. David is doing better but he still doesn't remember what happened. One of the cops told me that there might have been some foul play in this. They think that whoever called the cops might have been involved. I don't know what to do. The nurses don't want me here and the doctors won't talk to me. I just want someone to tell me that he is going to be alright you know? I'll keep you posted guys. CHAZ

Hi guys I just want to fill you in on what's going on. Um Green and David were in a car accident last night. David has a broken collar bone and a pretty nasty cut on the side of his head. Green is not doing to well. He's in icu right now. David doesn't remember what happened. They found Green's car in the breakdown lane on it's side. Green was hanging from his seatbelt unconscious. Green is in a comma and they don't know how much more they can do. I just wanted to let you guys know. Sorry I'm writing this from a cellphone and it's my only release. Chaz

I came home a couple of hours ago. Green and the kid were seated on the floor with big headphones listening to music. Green makes me angry some times I will admit. Before he took this kid in he called me and told me he was doing it. He didn't really ask me he just said he was doing it. I know this is his house ultimately but I feel like he and I are a team right now. I think it's great that he can help this kid and I find myself helping the kid too it's just well I would be nice just to be asked. I mean maybe I am being overdramatic here but what's it going to be like when we get married. I want to know that he's going to trust me. I want to know that I can trust him like I do right now forever. If he cant trust me is it worth it for us to even be together? Well I am talking to him now and I told him these in explicit detail. Yes we're good now. Thanks guys and please keep your questions coming. GREEN + CHAZ - COUCH

My boyfriend it seems has fallen of the face of the earth. He left late last night and hasn't returned. SO if anybody has seen him tell him to get butt home or it's over between us. I hope this isn't one of his disappearing fits. Green if you are reading this wth! Oh alright on another note I wanted to update you guys on our lives. My mother is a psycho apparently the white horse thing is her idea. I want to puke (Green did) all over this idea. We need some more questions we were hoping on ten good ones so ask them peoples. Selene thinks she's planning the bachelor party but since we lost control of our own ceremony that is not going to happen. She had some idea including some dancers. You will be glad to know that Julio and I have peace. He and I went out for lunch today and we spoke extensively about everything. He told me that he was so jealous of me. He also told me something that i didn't know. He knew that I was better for Green than he was and that at some point he had convinced himself of this so he took off. He also told me that he would always love Green but he would never come between us and that I shouldn't worry about that because he loves his current boyfriend. My brother is doing well with the guy Green Knows. They have been dating and it seems like they will cross become boyfriends if they aren't already. My older brother is dating the bartender now and I couldn't be happier. David and Steve had their first real fight but it was so cute because withing ten minutes they were both apologizing. Rob and the creepy guy have broken up. We know this because everyone at our school knows it as it happened with full flair at the student union. God that was so funny. Green didn't think so and he walked away but you couldn't tear David and me from there. As for us we're happy. LOL when he's here that is. CHAZ + GREEN

I cant do this anymore, it's killing me! I see it on Green's face he misses this blog. It's like his own personal diary and I know he misses it. I know we decided to not post here anymore but I don't think that is fair for either of us. Plus I want to tell you guys how we got engaged. Alright So I Miss It Too, sue me. So we're coming back and we would really like to do this Q and A session so please PM some or add them here. (Remember no questions pertaining to our bedroom or where we live and go to school. We wont answer those) WE LOVE YOU GUYS and we really would like to come back if you would have us... CHAZ + GREEN