As I held the razor in my hand, I looked at the dim morning lights out of the window in my dark room, looking for any sign, any reason to stop myself from going ahead. But what should I expect from this season? Outside there is nothing but heavy, thick snowflakes falling down to cover anything in the way, like the sleeping green-brown lawn, the bare trees, and all the dead flowers. Clouds high above make the outdoor colors appear gloomy and gray. It seems that life is already dead and the snow i