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I feel so ashamed not to write in depth about the many outstanding features ultimately making this among my four favorite stories on GA (I've eventually read a little over two hundred stories by now)!!! Sorry. I will, though! I've just been out sailing for a week with a friend, and as the one author name that i seem to remember showed up on my inbox, i rushed to read your crazily well written narrative - sucking the last drop of battery out of my phone. It made me unable to check the weather forecast while at sea (just in Denmark, from Æbelø to Aarhus), which resulted in a half day sailing in stormy weather, reflecting the mood arising from the lastly read dot in this chapter. I really, really, really .... REALLY hope that I am able to have my mood lightened soon with another chapter! I was so afraid that this fantastic, psychological tale had gone to a halt. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR YOUR time AND effort in writing ME THIS GIFT.

JUST found the story. Red the whole bunch in one day. Amazing!!!! I am so thankful!!! Thanks for a slow and very well constructed journey. I'm looking so so so much forward to the next chapter!

Aiiiiii! So nice! So dreamy! I enjoyed it so much, nice job catching a special atmosphere and also the social realism. Really compact story leaving me with a taste for more. I really liked it! Thanks!

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Emptiness... I can't even say I'm hungry for more. Or am I? Last time I've felt like this was after reading Khaled Hosseinis 'The Kite runner', leaving me in a state of severe melancholia for several days. After having finished the 26th chapter after a three day reading marathon, I have read EVERY comment associated with your hypnoticly engulfing tale, googled the characters as they were real, desperately tried to console myself in other stories and even begun to flirt with the thought that it's not a mere illusion to dig up a soulmate myself. But, somehow, the latter comes hand in hand with a sense of a painfull powerlessness towards finding the cliche itself - this sincere, mutual love: As time is drifting by, no action is taken towards finding one such soulmate and every time I confront myself with this fact, it reminds me of the regret I hold against the past and some times the silent fear and despair that stretches decades into the future. Frankly, to have had the privilege of being a part of this intense intimacy of your story has additionally emphesized a formerly hidden privation of a long gun time of immediate spontaneity and unused potential - an extremely hurtfull line of sentiments. Experiencing a temporary, but utter mental fullfillness through the lives fostered by your fantasy and your amazing writing skills kind of makes up for this while reading. Though your next update will undoubtedly result in yet another bewitching trance, by now, it is the only thing I'm looking forward to in the near future. I have so much respect for your work! Thank you thank you thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, hungry? Yes, desperately hungry for more! P.S. As I, by now, have read several other stories (24 till now) and therefore might be considered to give a little more competent feedback, at least than having no referances at all, I will say that I'm really amazed at the degree of psychological plausibility in each chapter. It is absolutely amazing to be a part of the inner reasoning and arguments without being torn out of the imaginary universe of a story because of a sudden unrealistic context.

This is crazy shit, man!!! Three days ago was the first time I've ever searched on gay literature. I found loooots and decided to start chronologically from A to Z - this being the first. I've just finished reading chapter 26 yesterday night though being a slow reader - english not being my native language. This black hole of a novel haven't left me any concentration at school the last couple of days. I have only kept awake because of free coffee. I have had the weirdest feeling of my stomack being detached and experienced some strange, annomalous behaviour of my chest. I've lived my last 72 hour zombi life with the only brain desire being your tramendously well-written novel. I thank you SO much!!! This has been a frustratingly incredible ride, emotionally experiencing a liveliness that I've not experienced for nearly 7 years. And, hey, I mean; the plot(s), incredible! The absence of easy cliches, incredible! The tension, incredible! The twisters, incredible! The sweetness, incredible! The characters, incredible! The authenticity, incredible! The tempo, incredible! the descriptions, incredible! The diversity of the language, even more so! And, dude, even the included home made metaphores are only underlining the sublimity of your written effort. I feel so humble reeding it. I love YOU for your time, energy, imagination and generosity! As I have JUST (20 min. ago) seen - to my huge, euphoric surprise - that the story was still in progress, I imidiately created an account to follow the shit out of your creativity. Thanks man, thanks for what you've done to me! I sincerely feel compelled to meet you - whoever you are - and hug you for the literary gift you have bestowed upon me.